It was morning already and it was obvious that Alexia is not beside him, she too left, he turned to her space only to find her missing.
Shit this girl. Beck cursed under his breath. Beauty!!! Beauty!!! Beauty!!! He called but there was no trace of her. Bloody hell! His frustration was at its peak, he run into the jungle in search of her but she is nowhere to be found, he kick the canned food that they have eaten when he returns, if Alexia was fifty percent frustrated when she couldn't find Beck, he was hundred percent frustrated and scared for Alexia.
I hope she is safe. He said running his hand on his face, he can't do anything right, he can't even rest, at least Alexia closed her eyes for a few hours, but him; no; he wasn't able to close his eyes not even eat through the day, when it's getting late, he grabbed his stuff and was heading into the jungle, then he saw Alexia coming back.
Where are you coming from? His voice is thick and now sounds like a soldier, that he is, Beck is mad and he can't control his anger. I asked where are you coming from?
Don't ask, I hold you no explanation. Alexia said, Beck grabbed her hand. What is wrong with you? Don't you know I was worried, what if some wild animal attacked you while alone?
I could protect myself, you are not under obligation to do that, so give me space and let's act like we are strangers, I don't know you, and you don't know me. Alexia said as she turned to leave, Beck held her hand, he understands that, his actions had hurt her and that, she is just mad at him, he gasped as he move in front of her.
I am sorry, sorry I left you and yelled at you. Alexia watch him count his words especially when he takes the word "sorry", it sound sincere and awkward at the same time, Beck's eyes stared at her, waiting for a reply but Alexia was carried away by the sound of his voice it was alluring, she opens her lips slightly, Beck staring at them, for days this lips have been haunting him, he can't think straight, he just want to taste them.
Alexia's senses came back then Beck's eyes on her lips, she unconsciously run her tongue on her lips, Beck cursed inward as he turned and found his face falling to Alexia, as his hand is already on her face, caressing it and the next thing, his lips had claim Alexia's lips.
When their lips meet, they felt electrified, Beck wanted more, he don't just want her lips but he wanted his tongue inside her mouth, so he put in more effort, so he could gain entrance, her eyes fluttered closed as he pulled her closer, he doesn't just want her lips, he wants her chest pressed against himself as if that isn't enough, he nibbles on her bottom lips and Alexia in turns love what he is doing to her lips, she tingled her hand in his hair.
Yes, she had been kissed before but this is different, Beck was kissing her differently and giving her different feelings that she never experienced when Xander does that to her, whenever Xander and her share, kisses, is like he had someone else in his heart while kissing her.
Of cause, Jessica is always in his head when he kissed her, Xander loves Jessica, she is the only woman in his heart but he had to marry Alexia because of his father's greedy nature.
She let out a sound of pleasure as Beck left her lips and disentangle from her, he felt so ashamed of himself, although he love everything, the kisses, the sound of pleasure that Alexia let out; their body against each other and his hand that was running freely on her back.
Right now, Beck's eyes were filled with guilt and fearful gaze, he is afraid of the consequences.
I am... I shouldn't have... Before he could finish his words, Alexia run into the shelter, Beck walked slowly after her, and he scolded himself inwardly as he walked to her. Although he enjoyed every bit of the kiss, he is afraid that this will create distance between them and that distance is one thing, he doesn't want to happen.
Beauty! He called and grabbed her hand, she took her swollen lips in without looking at Beck, she is no longer in control of herself, if she make the mistake of staring at Beck, she might end up initiating the kiss again, she could hear her own heart pounding as if it's in race. Her heart was giving her so much concern that she almost felt the pain of her heart.
Ah! She winced and held her chest
Are you okay? Beck asked her.
I am fine, please let me be, I just want to be left alone. Beck signed inwardly as he heard Alexia ask to be left alone.
Hope, you are not going to feel awkward around me. Beck asked, she shakes her head, as he walked out of the shelter, he run his hand through his hair in frustration, he felt bad and he regrets ever making the move, for not being able to control himself, for not being able to avoid her completely, what if she felt he is taking advantage of her because they are lost in this place? How stupid he could be? Who kissed a girl that he barely knows? Is this how stupid love is?
Hey, Beck slow down, you are not in love. Beck scolded himself for picking the word love. As he walked towards the water, he regretted his action. He regretted every bit of it because he felt this is not going to end there and it might be the beginning of it. His desires seem to be building up as the day goes by, just by staring at her, his heart race.
His thoughts are filled with her, his love was growing wider and it's taking the better part of him. He can't control it, no matter what, it was a bad connection. He is scared of letting it out, he is scared of what people will think of him, taking advantage of a girl in distress but his heart wouldn't let him.
Kissing so deeply isn't just mere attraction or mistake, but he is growing something in his heart for her. This is forbidden, how can he be the predator, when he is supposed to be protecting her? Yes, he is supposed to make sure of her safety.
He sit close to the fire, his head seems empty, with no idea of what to do next but it came as a surprise how she too reciprocates his kiss. Why did she do that? She would at least push him away maybe, he would have gotten his senses back. He sighed loudly as he closed his eyes while burying his head between his folded legs. Oh! Beck, you are a soldier, not a lover. He said.
Alexia was lost in her thought, guilty of kissing another when she is supposed to have a fiance, if not for circumstances, she would have been married to Xander
What is wrong with me? Why is my heart racing face? I haven't felt this before, even with Xander. She closed her eyes but the kiss kept coming back to her memory.
I kiss him back. Why did I kiss him? Why did he even kiss me in the first place? Xander, I am sorry. She said mentally. The kiss was too long to call a mistake, the reason, she responded wasn't something she could tell.
When it's getting late, there is no way they could stay apart, she moves slowly from the shelter to the fire to get warm and eat.
Beck didn't even bother to take a glance at her, his eyes are fixed on the ground as they eat silently.
All of a sudden, he raised his eyes and panic clouded his eyes, as he shouted, "Don't move"