Yzabelle.
I think I didn’t want the truce anymore. If the truce would only put us into silence, I didn’t want it.
I’d rather deal with his chaotic character than have this kind of silence.
It was suffocating me.
My whole night was peaceful. I should be happy.
But I wasn’t. I was in complete disquietude.
When I stepped out of my room, breakfast was ready. Stir fry veggies, lemon juice, rice and beef stew.
They smelled really good. My stomach rumbled. I never had a heavy breakfast and I never tried it before. But now, I want to eat a heavy breakfast before going to school.
“Good morning,” he greeted me with a smile.
Since when did my morning become this bright and beautiful?
I smiled back at him. “Morning, did you prepare it all by yourself?”
He shrugged. “Well… It didn’t surprise you, did it?”
“Uhm… actually it did.” I took a stool in front of the kitchen island. Then I put my books and my bag aside. “You didn’t look like the one who would dare step inside the kitchen.”
“Well, I think you should start thinking the other way,” he said, taking the stool in front of me.
I scrunched my forehead, confused. “What other way?”
He used to put me into confusion, my inner self could only roll her eyes.
“The way that you should not judge things and people the way they looked,” he smiled as he said that.
He seemed to have a really nice morning. He kept on smiling. And it made the surroundings brighter and lighter.
If I was my old self, I might have taken his words the other way. I might have been annoyed and thought it had a hidden meaning. I should take it as if he was saying I am judgmental.
But now, it didn't sound like that.
“Well, pardon me for thinking you give off the air of being an alpha male. You know, the one who ruled, showed dominance and used to command everyone but didn’t do anything,”
The smile faded away from his lips. His face tightened. And I suddenly felt nervous.
“Is that how you think of an Alpha? Commanding, ruling but didn’t do anything?”
Oh no, please. I don’t want to put a foot wrong in dealing with him again.
“Alphas weren’t like that. They protect the pack. They dominated and ruled but never enslaved anyone. They are strong and powerful and yet, equally aware of their flaws. They punished the wrong deed and that’s absolutely the right thing, but that didn't mean it's cruelty,” he argued.
Wait? What are we talking about? I have this feeling that we aren’t talking about something simple about an alpha male character.
“Come on, loosen up,” I chuckled the awkwardness away. “What I was just saying is, you seemed to be a person who has been served all your life because your family was capable of hiring someone to do everything for you. I mean no harm. Most from the social status you were in were like that. It was good to know that you weren’t a rich yet know-nothing person. That’s all,” I explained.
I just felt the need to explain. I don’t want us to quarrel over something that was nonsense. My morning starts with his brightly shining smile and I want to end it that way as well.
“I did,” he finally said, loosening up.
“Huh?”
“I did live a life being served in my territory. But that doesn’t mean I am a worthless asshole who did nothing and just enjoyed the things and the power I already have. I did my share of responsibilities in the pack,”
Pack?
I was confused. He talked as if he wasn’t a human but a leader of a group of animals or sort of.
Regardless, I shook the confusion away.
Maybe he had just chosen the wrong set of words. But I totally understand what he meant.
“Sure you are,” I commented and smiled at him. And that’s a genuine comment.
I agreed that he had done his share of work in his household, considering he knew how to cook and clean his house.
“Let’s eat. I’m hungry,” I said and I started digging into a heavy meal.
And sure, he didn’t just know how to cook. But he cooked really well.
“Gosh! I love this stir-fry cabbage and string beans! Where did you learn to cook this?” I exclaimed as I continued enjoying my food.
I saw the bright smile in him again. He looked even more dashing whenever he smiled like that.
“I was surprised you didn’t rebel over the food I prepared,” he said instead.
“Well, the smell was good and I have a feeling it tastes well too, and it did, so…” I continued eating on my plate. “And besides, the most important meal of the day is breakfast. I didn't have enough time to prepare a heavy meal in the morning, that's why I used to eat what I could only prepare.”
“Yeah, you tend to eat junk food. That’s not good. From now on, you’re not having those. I’ll make sure to prepare you nutritious food,” he said and he started digging into his own plate.
I chuckled. For once, I didn’t argue with him. It’s true that I used to eat unhealthy foods. And it felt nice that someone was taking care of my health. It felt like I had a family who was able to take good care of me.
And just now, I realized that I am thirsty…
Thirsty with love from a family.
I subconsciously yearn for it. I just couldn’t spill it out of my chest because at the back of my mind, deep into my heart and far down to my soul, I knew Dad did everything to complete me and my longing.
It would be too ungrateful of me to ask for more when he already gave everything he could.
Yet, unfortunately, it wasn’t enough. I was craving for more.
And that made me feel like I was a bad person. I knew my father loved me, in his own special way. Either with restrictions or without, I knew he loved me.
We finished breakfast and Killian insisted on driving to the university instead of walking. He said we were going somewhere after school so he had to bring the car.
I haven’t agreed to him bringing me somewhere but I guessed he would not let me decline the invitation.
Actually it didn't sound like an invitation to me but his planned trip to wherever it was.
“Oh, that’s Kate! Pullover,” I said and Killian hesitatingly did.
“What’s the matter?” he asked.
“I need to catch up with her before the first subject. I forgot to give her the reports for today,” I hastily said, taking off my seatbelt.
Killian seemed to be hesitating but I glared at him.
“If you don’t let me out, I am not going with you after class,” I threw him my last card.
He sighed and unlocked the door. I quickly got out of the car.
“Let’s meet in the classroom, okay? Go!”
His car moved towards the car park. And I ran towards Kate.
“Kate!” I was calling out her name while running but someone suddenly grabbed me by the arm.
His gray eyes were nailed to me as he whispered:
“Mate!”