Chapter 71
Sharma grinned at my surprised facial expression "Don't be so surprised Lucy, this is what we have always wanted. To save humanity from every monster in this messed up world" she said folding her arms.
No, that's not what I wanted right now...maybe back then but not now. Now everything was different, I couldn't lose him-his people needed him as well. I was not willing to be this selfish "So you were never really going to help us with the banshee problem?"
She shook her head "Oh no, you are wrong I am going to help because I do owe the King after all but that won't stop me from continuing my own plans"
"Killing more than half of this world is wrong and does not make you any different from the monsters that wiped out half of humanity" I told her.
She scoffed "Don't tell me you are starting to feel for those monsters little Raven. He will never love you so don't you bother feeling anything for him or his kind"
My heart dropped as she spoke...she was wrong I didn't feel anything for him... "I don't, but that doesn't make killing them right and you know it. Why are you being like them?"
Her grin suddenly dropped "Do not dare compare me to them, If your parents knew you were falling for a monster they would be so disappointed in you. Choose your people Lucy, choose your own"
I couldn't stop the tears that fell from my eyes as my legs stood up or the words that fell out of my mouth after that "Don't talk to me about those strangers and how they would feel! I do not care about you or them. None of you know me at all so don't act like you care or as If they ever cared! Just stop with all this bullshit talk!"
I ran out of that room as If my life depended on it but the tears did not stop. Everything was blurry at this point , I wish I didn't care ...about anything. 'I don't' she was wrong , I did not give a damn about my so called parents , the witches or any other demon that existed . Why should I? Nobody cared about me , not even 'him'. Everything was a lie , who was I? What was I? It's all a lie , my whole life. If my blood really did awaken a monster that would kill monsters did that make me a different kind of monster? I was so confused ! I held my head , what was happening to me. My heart felt like it was burning, the tears streaming down my cheeks felt hot yet everything seemed so cold. The walls around me, the people around me...the beasts all around me- emotionless is how I would describe this world.
I closed my eyes , everything turned blank .I opened them, my heart stopped burning - it felt cold. I didn't think about anything as I stepped inside his room without even knocking, of course he knew it was me as he stood in the middle of the room...watching me. I didn't listen to anything, not my head , not my heart, nothing. I was like a blank slate as my feet slowly made their way towards him until I was standing right in front of him. I could feel his breath on my cheeks as I looked up at him. He might actually be the one being that has never had any reason to hide his true self away from me because he didn't care and maybe that is what I needed all along -truth.
I wasn't scared anymore , I placed my hand on his warm right cheek without any hesitation. He did not move away , he wiped away my half dried tears with both his hands. Suddenly more came streaming down my cheeks but I didn't feel embarrassed. I didn't care, my hand slowly made its way to his chest. Right were his heart was while his hands remained on both my cheeks. I wanted to ask him so many things, would he ever love again. Would he ever give his heart a chance at love again, did he still hate me. Deep inside I wanted him to always hate me because I was afraid of love. I was afraid of these emotions. I thought my life was simple, an orphan girl who was loved by her parents now it turns out I am not that girl. I was never that girl, who was I now.
I hated revelations, it was always so scary. Well fuck my life...I did not blink as my lips immediately smashed on his lips. Surprisingly he did not move away at all, so I went in for more and more. Everything was so fast as I tried removing his shirt but he ripped it off . I couldn't stop myself even if I wanted to , its as if I was possessed . My body had its own mind now, his lips were so warm and soft .He bit my lip a little so I could let him in and I did. His tongue was on mine in seconds , my whole body felt like it was on heat. I was on him in a second and he carried me. I was going crazy but he understood as he quickly ripped my clothes off after dropping me on his soft luxurious bed.
It felt so cold in those two seconds that he was ripping my clothes off ,so I pulled him down until he was laying on top of me but making sure his weight wasn't crushing me. I attacked his lips again and it felt so right. Everything in this moment felt so right, this was were I was always supposed to be with his warmth protecting me from the cold world. I moaned loudly when I felt him suddenly enter me while biting my neck softly. To say that It felt like heaven would be an understatement, of course there was a sharp pain as he entered me but it quickly turned into intense pleasure as his teeth sunk into the flesh on my neck. I felt like I was on some kind drug as he continued to move his hips I think I might have scratched his back badly as I moaned louder .I might have even screamed when his teeth sunk into the other side of my neck but it was all in pleasure . I felt a euphoric sense of freedom as I looked deep into his beautiful eyes . I held on to his soft skin as I reached my climax -pure euphoria is how I would describe that feeling and it was the most addictive feeling I have ever had.