Chapter 91 Silent Admission
Alessandro's POV
Shit
Shit
Shit
"Madison!" I called out to her, running after her.
I didn't mean for it to come out that way.
When my hand caught onto hers, I spun her around.
"Madison, I -" My words got caught in my throat when her hand came down on my cheek - hard.
A sharp sound pierced through my ear, my cheek hot.
"You can't do that!" She pointed at me, her eyes wet with her tears. Fuck. "You have no right to rub that on my face. Who the fuck do you think you are?"
My head bowed down as I listened to the heaviness in her voice. Still I didn't leave her hand - I couldn't.
It felt like I'd lose her if I did and so I held on tight.
"I'm sorry, Madison." Slowly, I raised my head up until my eyes met hers. "I was hurt and I ... I just - I'm sorry."
I pulled her into me, wrapping my hand around her tight. "Please don't leave me. I'm sorry baby. Forgive me."
Then something happened.
Something unbelievable.
My shoulder shook and then a stray tear fell down my eyes, betraying me.
Fuck.
I felt Madison breath heavily, her cry ceasing. Her small hand rubbed me up and down my back.
"Cry it all out, Alessandro." She cooed. "I won't tell anyone, I promise with my life."
That made me smile. Amidst my tears.
"You wouldn't even dare." Pulling away, I chuckled weakly. "I shouldn't have said that to you. I just wanted to hurt you, you know, show you how I was feeling."
She nodded stiffly, her eyes still red. My hand travelled to her cheek, swiping away the tears.
"I'm sorry, baby."
She held my hand, bringing it down to her waist. Then, she held my face in her hand, standing on her toes as she placed a soft kiss on my cheek - right where the tears lingered.
That act alone made my heart explode.
This fucking woman
She didn't even have to do much to make me fall deep for her and that alone was scary as fuck.
"I don't know how I feel about you, Madison." I lied.
I knew exactly how I felt about her.
I was just scared of admitting it.
"And that's fine, Sandro. Let me do the loving for both of us. Just be the way you are with me. I like this you that cares." She placed her hand on my chest. "The real you that I know still lives inside here." She whispered.
"Only you believe some kind of angel is inside there." I scoffed.
"And I know he won't fail me. I know he'll come around and I'll be here waiting for him." She pulled my face closer, placing a soft kiss on my lips.
Shit.
She was too fucking sweet for a man like me who only knew how to ruin good things.
Resting my forehead on hers, I held her face in my hand. "I'm such a coward for bringing up your mother and aunt. It was bad and you can hate me, Madison -"
"I don't." She shook her head, looking into my eyes. "I was hurt you said that but you're remorseful and that means a lot."
She knew the right things to say.
Every time.
"You're too good for me." I took her hand, leading her up the stairs.
"Truth be told though, I'm still slightly mad at you, Alessandro but I don't hate you okay?" She said truthfully and I appreciated her for that.
I wouldn't even forgive myself that easily.
She had every fucking valid reason to be mad at me.
"Totally understandable, Belle."
•~•
"No fucking way this is you!" She pointed at a baby picture of me in my mother's gown.
She looked so happy, having me.
What went wrong?
I had to ask my father properly. Maybe I was a child and was oblivious to certain things but now, there just had to be a reason.
"I feel so embarrassed. Can we do something else?" I tried snatching the album from her but she wouldn't let it go. She was so engrossed.
"Oh look! You had 4 teeth here. You were so cute. Look at your cheeks... So chubby!" She cooed, pulling out those big doe eye shit.
"Aren't monsters always pretty?" I joked but that only earned me a glare.
"You didn't choose to be one, Alessandro. Pain shaped you into one. Responsibilities too." She sighed, closing the book. "Come here." She opened her arms, nodding encouragingly at me.
Rolling my arms, I leaned into her arms, smiling as I watched her small arms wrap around my big frame.
"You're so big!" She whined, trying to fit me in. "Urgh! I give up."
Chuckling, I wrapped my hand around her waist. "And there's still space." I mocked how small her waist was. "Just how I like it." I muttered to myself.
It seemed as though she didn't hear me because she didn't say anything.
Since I told her about myself, I had been anxious. I didn't know if she still wanted to be with me. I noticed she was still mad like she said but she didn't push me away or make me feel anyhow.
Still, it wasn't enough.
She might just be pretending.
"Madison." I called out, unsure of how to put my question so I don't sound desperate.
"Yeah?" Her reply came out strangled.
A small laugh broke out of my lips when I realized I was crushing her with my weight.
"Baby, that's not even all of my weight." Shaking my head, I pulled her into my body, wrapping my around her.
"You're a walking iron or did you swallow those giant dumbbell?" She joked, laughing with me.
"You're very silly." I tapped her nose. We both sighed in unison, staying quiet.
How was I going to approach her again?
"You wanted to tell me something?" This time, her voice sounded groggy.
It felt like she was in-between staying awake and sleeping.
"You said you loved me. I... I don't know -"
"I meant it and I still do love you. I was also serious when I said I'd do the loving for the both of us." She yawned.
"But I can't -"
"Heard that a lot. It's fine if you don't come around but as long as you treat me as your person? Trust me, love is way more than saying those three later words." She yawned again, shaking her head as if it annoyed her to yawn. "A person could say those words and not mean it. It's more about the action and to me, your actions ..."
And the rest of the words were history.
She stayed quiet for a long while. I thought she was thinking until her light snores reached my ear.
I chuckled lightly, trailing my fingers down her hair. "I'm sorry baby. I mean it."
Staring down at her face - taking in all its beauty, I smiled. "I don't know if I can be that man you always see when you look at me..." I sighed, "but i can try. For you."
My heart felt heavy, my eyes pricking me. My voice was croaked as I whispered, "Just don't ever leave me, Madison. Please. "
I love you so much.
My breath hitched when she squeezed my torso lightly.