Chapter 85 I wasn't falling
Madison's POV
As if fucking raw while not on birth control was going to stop us from fucking?
You wish.
We only got more conscious.
Luckily, he didn't cum inside of me - though I wanted that.
But only when I'm on birth control.
Can't afford to carry a child I wasn't sure he wanted.
The next morning, he had a doctor called and we were told a temporary preventive drug to take until I was back to Italy and registered for a monthly or yearly plan.
All I had to do was remember to take my drugs.
It couldn't be that hard.
Just once a day and that was all.
"You look so fucking beautiful, Belle. Have I told you that?" Alessandro stood by the door, holding a cocktail in his hand.
He was in nothing but kaki shorts.
"Everyday since we got here." I chuckled. That was the truth.
"Really?" He dropped the cocktail on the table, climbing the bed to meet me. He laid between my legs, resting his head on my stomach.
"Yeah. I think you're obsessed with me." I teased.
He raised his eyebrow at me, eyeing me. "You're mine. I don't need to be obsessed. Obsession is for people who do not have possession over a thing or a person."
"Obsession in a relationship is more than that." I told him, trailing my hand in his hair.
He chuckled, nodding. "Relationship." My body tensed, my hand frozen in his hair. "That sounds cool. So, you're like my what?"
"I..."
"You're my fianceé." He cut me off. "No no. You're my wife. How did we even forget that we're even married."
"You forgot. I didn't." I shrugged, relaxing that he was taking it lightly.
"So you're like the wife to the Italian Devil?" He smirked, wrapping his arms around my waist.
"More or less."
His face suddenly turned dark and serious. "So, you're not going to run? You don't want my life."
"I don't." I admitted, looking into his eyes. "But I want you and all of you."
"All of me." He repeated, his eyes growing dark. "Or just my cock?"
A loud laughter erupted from my lips.
"See? You can't even lie." He chuckled.
"I swear, it's not just your cock." I said in-between laughters.
"You only knew you wanted me since you tasted my heavenly cock." He tickled me, making me jerk.
"Heaven and Devil are not to be placed side by side." I told him, squirming as he hovered over me, ready to attack my ribs.
"So, hell of a cock?" He offered, his hand hanging in the air.
"Now that makes sense." I nodded before trying to push him away as he attacked my ribs with his wicked fingers, making my gown ride up.
"So tell me, was it because of my cock you wanted me?" He asked, still tickling me. "Is that the only thing you see in me? My big cock?"
"Maybe?"
"Oh wow!" He stopped, looking at me for a while.
"I'm kidding." I said immediately.
"You don't have to lie to me, Maddie. I know how girl are when they see my cock and after I've fucked them. That's the only thing that keeps them coming back." He said, coming down from me to sit on the bed, his back facing me.
Sighing, I wrapped my legs around his waist and my arms around his torso, resting my head on his back.
"It's more than that to me, Alessandro. I see you." I said softly. "I want you not because of your cock or whatever but because of who you are on the inside."
"A monster?"
"A loving, sweet man. A man that would do anything for who he likes. A man that's willing to take sacrifices to keep his loved ones safe." His breath hitched. "That's who I saw and who I wanted."
"And you're sure you got that person? Are you sure you're not hallucinating?" He turned to face me, looking into my eyes. "What if I'm just pretending for you and that's not really who I am?"
"You never force yourself to be what you're not, Alessandro. When I first met you, you never for once made yourself look like a saint. So, if I'm seeing these part of you... then, it's just you." Smiling, I rested my head on his. "And I love it. All of it."
He cradled my face in his hand, smiling softly. "You're so cheesy."
Laughing lightly, I shook my head. "I'm cheesy but you're the one who rented out a private beach resort just for us."
"I did that just so I can fuck you everywhere, without people watching."
Lies.
"You did that to make me feel safe." I called out his bluff. He rolled his eyes, not denying it.
"Kiss me." He demanded, pulling my face to his.
Smiling, I took his lips into mine. His kisses were soft and tender. He didn't rush it... He just nibbled on my lips gently, like I meant the world to him.
My heart was racing fast as I stared into his eyes. They were so cute and loving. Slowly, it dawned on me.
I was falling for Alessandro.
Fuck.
I wasn't falling.
I love him.
"Alessandro, I -"
No. You'll scare him.
As if he could see through me, he pulled away sharply, standing up.
"We...we need to go to the spa. It's time for our appointment." He said hurriedly, turning away. "Come on, I have something planned for the night."
Swallowing hard, I nodded. Maybe he didn't see through me and just wanted to meet up what he had planned.
"Okay!" I hurriedly jumped down, stretching my hand for him to hold. He looked at it for a while, tucking his hand into his pocket immediately, avoiding eye contact with me.
"Alessandro?" I called softly, looking at him.
"Let me get the key to the golf car. The spa is not far." He turned away, leaving my hand hanging.
Now, what was wrong?
Sighing, I just stood there feeling somehow.
"Let's go, Maddie." He yelled from outside.
"You know how to drive that?" I asked him, trying to make a conversation.
He nodded curtly, entering before me.
"Where did you learn how to do that?" I smiled at him, taking my seat.
"Golf."
"Right." I nodded, turning away as I watched the beautiful environment. It was serene.
"I only let people see what I want them to see." Alessandro spoke up. "Sometimes, it might be a lie that I have put out there."
Raising my eyebrow, I asked. "Is this about earlier? Because I figured you out?"
"You did not figure me out." He said, his tone hard. "Nobody can. Women - women have nothing good to offer in a man's life except betrayal."
"Where's this coming from?" I creased my eyebrow. When I placed my hand on his thigh, he flinched. I took my hand back immediately.
"Stop." He said, his breath shaky. "Stop acting like you know me too well. You fucking don't." His voice raised up a bit and then he sighed, facing the road again.
"Just enjoy all these while it lasts."
Here goes my vacation.
L.M.A.O.