Chapter 162 I can't watch him go

Chapter 162 I can't watch him go
Ravyen's POV
It seems she was gone and vanished like thin air. Hastily, I drove back to the hospital to carry her bio data so I could forward to my spies.
All they needed was her face and they had gotten every personal information they needed to know about piccolo's daughter.
The information that keeps ringing in my head was the fact that she had a son from 5 years ago and the father is yet to be identified.
The child battles with heart disease and when she had returned to ask for aid from piccolo, he claims he cannot help the child of an enemy.
It was much discovery but one thing was clear, piccolo didn't send her to me, she came to get money for her child's treatment.
That's why she came in like a business partner. She's a pampered brat and sucks at business. I know of that.
Life must be hard on her that she had learnt to be strong and brave.
Fuck! I screwed up.
Hastily, I got the address of the hospital where she was and drove down there.
I found her, at the ICU, his ward precisely. She was watching over him. I could only get a glimpse of her through the window.
The child was fixed with an intravenous fluid and oxygen as he struggles for his life.
I folded my fists, having no words to say and hating myself that a child got involved. Nervously, I intended to get the door opened but then realized that it was open.
I was greeted by Vanessa. She had almost rammed her head on me but stuttered back a bit, stunned to see me.
She gasped, like I was some kind of alien and widened her eyes at me.
Her eyes were sullen, like she didn't get enough sleep and was swearing at me.
She didn't even say anything and intended to return inside, holding the door to slam at my face but I held it firmly, preventing her from doing so.
"He needs me too" I responded, quickly accepting my fate and that was straight up to letting her know that I'm aware.
"Fuck off! Or I'd call the police" She snapped and I scoffed, trying to fight back the tears in my eyes.
"I can't watch him die" i pointed to her and shoved her gently aside while fighting for my way inside.
I finally got to see this kid, he was subconscious, battling for his little life on that sick bed.
I was in shock, scared to even touch him as I couldn't believe I was never there for him.
How do I explain this to Arianna? That I had a kid from 5 years ago. I just didn't want to look at her because she was mad at me.
Hastily, I sat beside him and intended to hold his tender hands but she reminded me to sanitize my hands just to avoid infections.
I did that and returned to sit with him. It seems she had surrendered to her fate and can't chase me away.
Or she just thought of a way to gain her revenge on me after the child regains his health.
I stared at him for a while, he was my spitting image, looking all down-casted and feeble.
"It's okay, I'm here now" I assured and folded my lips, while holding on to his hand.
I just know that his life would be in more danger with piccolo. He just doesn't want anything relating to me to exist.
"Why didn't you tell me?" I questioned in a sober tone as she had drawn closer to me.
"There be no difference ravyen" she muses. It's the first time I've heard my name from her lips and I felt flustered by that.
I rose up gently to meet her grievous gaze at me. Although, she was still scared as though the memories of the night keeps lurking in her head.
"I'm sorry van..."
"No! Just don't!" She fumed swelling up as tears brew in her eyes. She didn't even want me to be close and if she had her chance she would have hit me.
I just didn't even know how to solicite with her because she must be really traumatized after that incident.
She was boiling in rage, and told me straight up that I was heartless. I've heard that countless times.
I drew closer to her and she keeps moving back, shivering. I could feel she wasn't scared of anything except me.
"It's okay, just hit me if you wish" I reckoned pulling her close to me. She sniffed and gawp at me like I was insane.
"You deserve more than being hit" she confesses and I could feel the pain her eyes.
The memories didn't want to leave me again and I hated myself badly for that. I hurt someone I was never meant to hurt.
"I begged you ravyen, the next day was my wedding and you just didn't care...I got my life ruined because of you!" She poured out her heart and the tears she so much wanted to hide stream down.
I had no words to say but just cuddled her in my arms, even though she tried to refrain from my hold again.
That's the best way to watch over her and my child. To keep her with me.

"This is a bad idea!" Frank panics but I was just anxious, watching the maids clean up s room.
"He's my son" I responded placing a wry smile on my lips.
Few hours ago, I had tried to convince Vanessa to stay with me for the meantime while I work on saving my son.
I was unable to save my unborn child and now that fate has brought another one, I should save him.
However, she refuses and tells me I should sign the contract I promised like it wouldn't still be my money that goes in to his funding.
It took me a weak to be able to convince her and the only means I could do that was file for a child's custody.
I knew she wouldn't win against me and so she reluctantly told me would but, we should avoid each other.
Why am I so unfortunate with women trying to make decisions for me? Like Arianna's crisis wasn't enough.
They'd be coming over today and I just let Frank know but then I was still panicking at heart if to inform Arianna yet because she was busy.
I tried calling her but it seems she was purposely ignoring my calls and just texted busy.
"I'm aware but keeping him this close is an issue, I know what happens next, you might start picking interest in Vanessa..."
Frank's voice was on it again. I just didn't know how to understand. Nothing's going to happen between us.
Vanessa doesn't have a place to stay and she has been residing in a hostel since her return.
My son needed a healthier place to lay his head and heal gradually. Speaking of which, he was able to get a heart surgery and it was successful.
I had to stay beside Vanessa and that was Frank's pain because I wasn't coming home throughout.
Though, I wasn't too close to her as she had filed for a restraining order against him.
The only chance I get was peeping and that was so embarrassing and disappointing.
All I did was respect her decision until I broke the restraining order just to learn of how well the surgery went.
The rest of the tale is history because not even the law can stop from being with my son.
I know I still suck at taking care of kids but this felt like a challenge and I could be a really nice dad to him, take care of him before she takes him away.
I placed a jestful face at frank as he was just getting concerned and worried that another woman shouldn't take Arianna's place.
"I'd explain to her, it's just for hundred days until my son recovers and then they'd leave the country"
Frank rubbed his hair, feeling embarrassed as he scoffed reminding me of Arianna's previous relationship.
Elena who resides with them ruined it and now, there's a Vanessa in the picture.
"I love Arianna so much that nothing can come in between us" i assured Frank as he growl and intending to get back in business which was the whereabouts of piccolo.