Upon hearing her words, Georgia hugged Elsie again.
"Stop saying that. You are a good woman. Please don't be bothered by your past. I know how pure your heart is. If Wilson loves you truly, he won't mind."
"It's different, Georgia. I know clearly what's so different. When I didn't love anyone before, I disdained love. Back then, I never cared about any man. Nor did I realize any problem about my past.
"However, it's different now. I'm sure I like Wilson. When I like him, I'm always humble. I hope I can face him with my best side. I hope I will smile the most beautiful when I see him. I hope all my memories will be about him. However, those were just my wishes. I wasn't a good woman in my past.
"Those were the memories that I'm not willing to recall. I know I was too filthy in my past. I don't deserve him at all."
Elsie hugged Georgia and wept again.
She felt so upset that she almost exploded.
Although she was thrilled when coming back with Wilson. He also kept holding her hand all the time. She thought that they could be like this forever.
However, after her fear faded away, her reason went back to her.
All things that had happened earlier still appeared in her mind. Although Elsie hated Jane, she had to admit that Jane had said one thing correctly.
They were the same in the past. They were both whores. Neither was nobler than the other.
Elsie believed that she was just lucky, so she met her family and friends, who treated her well. They made her struggle against her tragic past and have a new life. Otherwise, she would have ended up in the same way as Jane did.
Probably, she would still stay in that kind of place, looking for clients. Then she would lay on the bed and earn money relying on her body.
She used to be so shameless and led such a life because she had never wanted to struggle.
However, Wilson was different. He was an outstanding man, not only in terms of his career. He could always be perfect in the study, his life, and making friends.
When she traveled with Wilson, he could speak any language. At that moment, Elsie always felt upset.
Back then, she didn't know why she felt so. Now, she understood. She was self-abased.
She had faintly thought that she didn't deserve Wilson. However, if she started working hard now, would it still be helpful?
Even if she could learn seven languages and reentered a college, Elsie didn't think she could get what she wanted. She couldn't change her past.
In the future, if Wilson would encounter her previous clients, what should he do?
Elsie wondered how she could face those things naturally and calmly.
"Elsie, in this world, a perfect past didn't mean you could be happy in the future. Love is always between two persons. However, a married couple could divorce. The love birds who used to love each other deeply could also end up hurting each other. Whether you and Wilson would be happy has nothing to do with your past. It only depends if you can operate your marriage well.
"Now I'm with Robert. If I never cared about him but only looked after our children or stayed in the lab, probably he would stop loving me gradually as well. Besides, I used to have a first love. Robert has his son, Leon. Those are the things that couldn't be wiped off between him and me. That was the meaning of our existence. Elsie, you must be an individual first. Your past made you mature. The most important is that I can tell he cares a lot about you.
"If he cares about you, it means he doesn't mind about your past as he knows your past well."
Upon hearing it, Elsie burst into tears again.
"Georgia, I also have sensed that he cares about me, so I felt more upset. How could he like a woman like me? I'm joyful, but I feel sorry for him. I'm not an outstanding woman. I even don't work hard. I only rely on you guys to raise me. How could he like me?
"I also wonder if he would stop loving me in the future. He doesn't mind, but how about in the future? I fear the most that after he loves me but will mind about my past in the future. What should I do then? I plucked up my courage and asked him to hold my hand forever. However, I insisted on sharing the bed with you because I suddenly had no guts to face him.
"I don't know what I should do next."
Georgia could understand how Elsie was feeling. Everyone would be so hesitant in this case.
When people were in love, they would wonder if the other party would love them back.
After confirming that the other party also loved them, they would wonder if their characters fit, if they could be together for all lifetime, or if they would be happy forever.
The loved ones could divorce and become the ones who would harm each other the most deeply.
However, Elsie's situation was different. Georgia was her friend, so she didn't mind. Neither did she think Wilson would.
However, Elsie was the one who minded her past the most.
Hence, hugging Elsie, Georgia said, "You've plucked up your courage and held his hand, and he also confessed his love to you. Why don't you just be brave and have a try?
"If you failed in the future, you could come to Vanessa or me. You could spend the rest of your life with her or me. Without love, you still have us. I don't think we would hurt each other. So, please go ahead and enjoy your love. If you truly failed, you could come to your besties and shed tears. Then we would take you out for fun. Would you feel upset if Wilson couldn't be with you?"
Upon hearing Georgia's words, Elsie suddenly asked, "Suppose, I meant, If, one day, you and Robert suddenly hurt each other. Can you still face love in the future calmly and naturally? Can you still be strong enough to keep on?"
Her question startled Georgia. Then she smiled.
"Robert has died once, hasn't he? I was almost broken down at that time. I truly felt I couldn't hang on any longer. But I thought about my daughter and mother. My life is not only for a man. I have my career, children, family, and friends. Elsie, don't you think you can be a strong woman?"
Elise's eyes lit up when listening to her.
Thoughtfully, she said to Georgia, "I seemed to have stepped into a misunderstanding. I agree with you. In the future, if I truly needed to break up with him, at least I had already enjoyed my current life. We haven't been together yet. Why should I jump to a negative conclusion? Probably my past was too miserable. I'm afraid that my memories in the past would be harmful to my future life with him."
Georgia smiled.
"Your worry makes sense. A short-tempered person will wonder if she will lose her patience with her husband and kids in the future. Everyone needs to work hard. If you just tried to sign up for a contest but didn't attend it in the end, what was the use of only signing up your name? Even if you were not happy in the future, at least, right now, you and Wilson would be happy together."
After the conversation with Georgia, Elsie's mood seemed to become much better evidently.
They fell asleep. The sadness and hesitation faded away from Elsie's mind gradually.
Elsie was still uneasy, but she believed that she could overcome this difficulty.
That night, Elsie had a sweet dream. In her dream, she and Wilson got married. They laughed so happily at their wedding. Wilson, the iceberg man, even grinned brightly. Elsie slept soundly.
When she woke up the following day, Georgia was still sleeping.
Elsie put on her clothes and knocked on Wilson's door.
Shortly after, he walked out of this room. She found that he was still wearing his clothes the previous day, and there were dark circles under his eyes.
Elsie asked worriedly, "Didn't you sleep well last night? I saw your dark circles. What happened?"
She wondered if he regretted agreeing to be with her. Her face paled.
Wilson explained helplessly, "Last night, you suddenly insisted on coming to Georgia's villa and sleeping with her. I could tell you were upset, but you didn't want to tell me. I was bothered by this matter for a while at night. I wondered if I had done anything wrong and made you upset. Hence, I stayed up the whole night."
Upon hearing it, Elsie laughed happily.
"Silly man! I did have some questions, but it was improper to ask you. Hence, I asked Georgia. Now, I have a question for you. Can you answer me?"
"Of course. Go ahead," answered Wilson.
Elsie asked directly, "Last night, when we were leaving the room of Prince Tate of Svero, I was waiting for you at the door. You talked to him in private for a while. However, after you came out, you walked forward in anger and ignored me completely. What on earth happened? Were you mad at me, or did you feel upset about something?"
Wilson's expression changed a bit while listening to her.
Elsie said sadly, "Was it really because of me? Please just tell me directly. If I have done anything wrong, I can change it. I know I have a lot of shortages. I don't want to be indulged and ignore my shortages. If it's my bad, I can correct my mistake."
Upon hearing it, Wilson held her in his arms helplessly.