Chapter 69

“I’m sorry. You’re not worthless. You’re…you’re just so beautiful it makes me angry. I’m sure no one ever felt for me the way I feel for you.”

“The way you feel for me? You don’t even like me.”

I nearly gasped. “You can’t think I don’t like you!” I grabbed my crotch. “Believe me, if you could see this, you’d know I damn well like you.” I looked at his dick. “Meanwhile, you’re not even hard.”

“My lust is like moonlight,” he said. “The moon only shines when hit by rays from the sun. So when I’m hit by a man’s lust, especially a man like you, someone older and impassioned, that’s when I’m turned on.”

“Especially a man like me?” I said, swallowing. I rubbed my neck and gave Troy an apologetic look. “Can we…start over?”

Troy didn’t respond except to fold his arms defensively.

“Troy, I’m sorry. I think…what happened is that I think so little of myself that a boy who’s going to let someone like me fuck him must have something wrong with him, too. I deeply apologize.”

“You saw the anti-depressants,” Troy said.

“Yeah, I did,” I confessed.

“That doesn’t mean there’s something wrong with me. I think I’m a good guy,” Troy said quietly. “Maybe you don’t think so, but I like who I am.”

“I guess you won’t believe me now,” I said, “but I promise I like who you are very much, too.”

Troy gave me a doubtful look. “Do you think you know me well enough to really mean that?”

I chuckled. “Okay. I like…that you’re able to stand up for yourself when someone criticizes you…and I love that you enjoy giving up that ass to men like me.”

He laughed. “Oh, you like that, huh?”

“May I show you how much?” I said as I moved to his mattress. Before I fucked up again, I needed to go into action. Ever since he’d told me “especially a man like you,” I believed he really wanted me. And if, in return, he needed me to tell him about all the different ways I lusted after him, I’d be more than happy to oblige.

“Your rump is so delectable.” I said as I unzipped my jeans and gawked at the perfectly curved and smooth mounds of his rear. “God, it’s nice. As nice as the men on your computer screen. I’m very lucky I get to fuck it.”

He moaned softly and began to stroke himself. When he saw my dick, his eyes widened. “Damn, you are hard. It’s kinda big.”

“And it can’t wait to be inside you,” I said. Yes, though also hopped up on Cialis and Enzyte, I knew from my time in the army my cock was a good size to begin with. He reached for a bottle of lube, but I slipped it from his grasp. “I’d like to prepare you myself.” I lay back on his mattress, my cock jutting straight up. “Will you turn around so I can fondle your hole while you suck me?”

“Of course.”

As his lips engulfed my shaft, my shoulders relaxed and I sighed. All boys should be this obedient and respectful of their elders. “You have a talented mouth,” I said, thrusting gently upward. “I bet all the guys line up for your blowjobs.” He moaned but didn’t stop to talk.

I took a dollop of lube and massaged his anus. He arched his back to allow me as much access as possible. I probed in deeper with two fingers, then three. My breathing increased yet again.

I told him to stop sucking. I didn’t want to come yet, and he’d begun to eagerly deep throat me. I had no idea oral sex could feel so pleasurable.

“I’m sorry. I have arthritis in my knees,” I said. “Would it be all right if you straddled me, so I can fuck you cowboy style?”

“Don’t apologize and don’t ask. Just tell me. You can have me however you want.” He had a dreamy expression on his face, and his dick was at full attention. Unlike the other couple boys I’d had, he really loved this.

He fitted the condom on me with an expertise I hadn’t mastered. Then he swung his right leg over my middle and situated his hole right above my dick. I reflexively began to make thrusting motions. I wanted in so badly I couldn’t stop them.

He grasped my dick gently and began to lower himself onto me. As I figured, he wasn’t all that tight, but for my size, that was a good thing. I pulled his hand away so he’d fall onto my cock all the way to the hilt. He gasped in effort and looked at me with wide-eyed surprise.