Always about a boy
Raven
I never thought my mother would cut me off. Lucien was caught in the middle and I felt horrible for that. The thing was I wasn't about to back down from my mom. Grandma had told me I was allowed to stay at the house for as long as I wanted. I knew she wouldn't make me leave. However I didn't expect her to call mom and tell her I was here. The fact that Lucien had already told her pissed me off. Why he followed me was beyond me. I loved him but he clung to tight at times. Trouble was if I pushed him away I would most likely never get him back. My twin who had always been with me always wanted to keep me safe. Between the two of us I was the stronger. I didn't know what to do really, I needed to figure out what to do. Because mom wouldn't give me the things I would need. Well I thought need but it was more want. Never dawned on me that I was so used to haveing money at all times. That I had taken advantage of that in some way.
I closed the door to my room to sit on the bed. My phone was still working as of right now, I didn't think that she would turn it off. Maybe I shouldn't think like that because it had only been a hours. No way she could turn it off yet. My phone buzzed showing a text from Juilian. A smile spread on my face at the message. He always seemed to know how to make me smile. It sucked that I had to hide him from my family. They would never allow me to date him. I sat on the bed sending a message back to him. No matter what happened he was always seemed to be a light in my day. Since I meet him when I went to grandma's a few years ago. It wasn't a thing then just friends, which we got along right away. Grandma never knew I had a friend over there. When I decided to come home he was upset and wanted to come with me. I had to tell him no that I didn't want to break that news to my family. Of coures he didn't think that they would care who or what he was. That as long as I was happy it wouldn't matter.
"Raven?" Lucien called from the closed door.
"Leave me alone." I called back at him not wanting to see his face right now.
"Fine, maybe I should just go back to mom and dad. Seeing as you don't want me here." Lucien whispered it but I heard him. I also knew he didn't stay at the door. He used to stay until I gave in and opened the door.
It bugged me that he didn't stay this time. I didn't know why it bugged me but it did. Maybe it was because I could have just taken the time to talk to him about what happened. He left mom and dad because he thought I would need him. In that moment I figured out that I did need him. I wanted him to know that I had found someone I really liked. I would almost say love. Not there just yet however, but it was growing. As I sat on the bed I looked around the room seeing that it was still as it was when I was younger. The walls a pink color, with white trim. Photos of dolls and teddy bears hung on the wall. A few photos of the family on the other wall in newer frames. A shelf was aganist the wall full of books, most for kids. A toy box was on another wall full of toys.
In that moment I decided I wanted to be rid of most of the stuff. I went to find grandma to let her know I wanted to donate the toys and things to kids that could use them. She didn't seem very happy about it, but let me take the things out in boxes. I doubt she would donate them because some of the stuff was moms. No one came to help me move the stuff, nor did any of them come to check on me. That would be my own doing sadly, Juilian had told me to stop pushing them away. That one day I would lose all of them and would end up alone. I of course told him that I would still have him. He didn't find it funny at all. Now that I was sitting in this room I felt the tears start to slip down my cheeks. In that moment I understood that I had pushed them to hard. That I would most likely never be in the same room with my mom or dad again. My chest felt tight and I gasped for air as all that I had sad and done slammed into me. I struggled to grab my phone to call Juilian but the phone was dead. Mom had cut it off like she said she would.
"LUCIEN!!!!" I screamed his name the pain in my body cutting through my heart.
Moments went by and I thought that maybe he had left to go back to mom and dad. The door to the bedroom slammed open showing my twin standing there worried. When he saw me in tears he ran over falling to his knees to hug me close to him. He let me cry it out until I was limp in his arms. Lucien pushed my hair back looking down at me.
"Raven, what's wrong?" He finally asked as I pulled away from him.
"I have been horrible. Why did I push so hard? What was I thinking?" I sobbed holding on to him. "So stupid, what was I thinking."
"I can't answer that one. You are who you are. When you push some push back but when you push to hard they will fight back. I never saw mom like that. She never would have hurt you or me in our lives. Then you pushed and something broke." Lucien sighed as I cried.
"I seen her once when she didn't think I would see. Dad had to hold her down as they gave her something. Her eyes went red and she fought like a prize fighter. I swore I never wanted to see it agian, but..." I sobbed. "I knew I could push her into it. The way I talked would push her to hit that wall."
"You did it on purpose?" Lucien pulled away from me for a moment.
"Yes, I did." I could see the shock and worry in his eyes. He didn't understand at all, maybe it is because he did have love yet.
"I don't understand it at all. Why would you do it?" Lucien looked worried about mom and dad now.
I didn't answer him, I couldn't. If I told him the truth then he would hate me. I doubted Mom and Dad would love me either.