Rage in the castle
Raven
I have been here for a month, a fucking month of my grandmother is enough to drive anyone insane. She is pushing and pushing until grandpa tells her to stop. They don't understand why I have these feelings about my mother. Hell I'm not even sure. I know that she loves me and wants the best for me but I just...I don't know. She had tried to stop this from happening but Dad put his foot down and said I needed to figure myself out. To deal with the emotions that I seem to spew at my mother. It is strange that i can't seem to just love her. She almost died bringing me into the world but something in my hates her. Maybe it is because she was human once and she gave that up. Granted she didn't ask to be turned. I hate the night, I hate being stuck not seeing the things in the light of day. I know that Elyisum thinks that I might be like mom and able to walk in the sun, but no one wants to test the theroy. The one time I almost tried Dad stopped me. Getting burnt himself.
Maybe my feelings are more about envy then hate. I look toward the door hearing her coming toward my room. They had put me on the far side of the castle so that I wouldn't have to deal with them all day. Nice thought if she would stay on her side of the house. It wasn't like we ate dinner or anything. I love the candy that mom created but that is about the limit of the food I have eatten. The door opened without a knock..AGAIN!
"You know it is rude to barge into a room." I looked over at her with a glare.
"Oh yes, it truely is. It is also rude to talk like that to your elders." She snapped back at me. "Your father called, he wants to know if you wan to talk to them?"
"Not really, they shipped me off like I didn't matter. So I am not talking to them." I grumble out at her.
I didn't expect her to just turn and leave the room. Closing the door softly behind her. Maybe she wanted to see if I would rush after her to talk to my family. No I wasn't going to do that. I sat glaring at the wall wanting to have my laptop and phone back. Trouble was I couldn't pay for them and Dad told me I needed to learn to apperciate the things I did have. So here I sat all alone with my thoughts. They just kept running in circles around my head. Making it hard to think about one thing over the other. Not talking to Lucian was hell though, and I knew that if I had taken the call then I would have been able to. He wasn't happy with the way I had been treating mom. That was love, the way they talked to him. Treated him like a king. I guess if I looked at it that way I was treated the same just as a queen. Mom had done everything in her power to help me to get to school. Even buying out one of them so I would get the classes I needed. Was that love or was that buying my affections?
"UGH!!!" I screamed throwing a pillow across the room.
No one would hear me scream or die for that matter. I was all alone in the east wing of the castle. When I say castle I mean like the ones on TV shows. Stone walls, with large fireplaces on one wall. A bathroom had been added to this room, and a closet both had wooden doors. No pictures hung on the walls, just tapestries. It was strange to see noting but stone. From the floors to the ceiling. So much grey. The windows that had been in the walls had been covered with tinited glass. Though they didn't let might light in if any at all. Over the years they had started putting black out curtains over them. I sighed as I looked up at the ceiling with nothing but my thoughts for company. I sat up stright when I hear food steps comeing toward my door again. Not like her to try a second time to talk to me. A knock sounded and it shocked me so much that I almost forgot to answer.
"Who is it?" I knew for sure that it wasn't my grandmother.
No answer, but they knocked again. I growled as I climbed out of the bed to open the door. I was so shocked that my mouth hung open.
"Wow you have turned into a fish." Lucian laughed as I stood looking at hm.
"What are you doing here?" I ask not letting him come into the room. Was I pissed off at him now too?
"Well I see that the stay hasn't changed you at all." He joked but I didn't take it very well.
I slammed the heavy wood door in his face. Turning I went back to the bed to wallow in self pity. That is what my life had turned into a big puddle of self pity. He knocked again but I ignored him. Sooner or later he would leave and I would cry because I didn't want him to leave. I don't get why I couldn't just be happy he was here. After the third knock I heard him turn and head back down the hall. I wanted to jump up and chase after him, but I didn't. I sat there having a big pity party for myself. I did wonder if it was just him or if mom and dad came too. I didn't leave the room to find out however. I sat on the bed with tears in my eyes because I was to stupid to get over myself to see my brother. We had never been apart this long and I know it was hard on me. So it would be hell on him. I was the strong one, I did the stupid crap so he didn't have to. This time however the stupid shit had landed me in this god forsaken castle with a vampire who was a fanging bitch. Mind you I loved her, but she was getting on my last nerve.
For the thrid time tonight I heard footsteps comeing toward my room. I knew that it was grandma and she wouldn't knock on the door. She was pissed because she didn't normall move that fast. She was a high born lady and ladies didn't rush to go any where. The door slammed open hitting the wall. I looked up at her seeing the fire in her eyes. That scared me to my core.
"It is one thing to be rude to me, but Lucian didn't do a dam thing to you. You slammed the door in his face. What the hell kind of sister does that to her TWIN!!" She roared at me fire building higher in her eyes.