Evan I walk in the shadows alone, hoping I have time to walk to her house and go back to the lake. The thought of running to get to her place faster is denying in my head. I want to take my lovely time in the human world and to take in those enchanting smells of humans and nature. It flutters my insides and it hits me in the guts when I smell human blood. My mouth waters quicker than I can hear the pulse of the human's, it's blood pumping in it's veins. While walking in the woods it's not just one human I see in a small black tent with a small flashlight on. It's two, a couple. I walk on pass them, trying to escape the amazing smell of their blood, something that turns on my true instinct as a vampire. My desire to satisfy my thirst. It must have been months since I have changed but I still haven't gotten in control. Even thinking of her, I can't help but sneak in the human world and watch her as much as I can with happiness. She was my first love and I can't let her go. I finally reach her home, the street lamps dimly on but able to hide me without letting out alarms as a walking stranger at close by neighbors. And there she is, standing in the middle of her bedroom. A faint song is on from where I can hear, climbing onto a nearby tree. Coming here numerous of times, I have finally caught on with human music. She's listening to Afraid by The Neighbourhood. Such a mellow and vibe song with such sad words. Adeline is humming to the music, her voice cracking a bit while she clears it. I don't think she has realized that some total pervert can be watching her out the window because you can see everything she's doing. Not like I'm a pervert now, I'm her vanished love, the man she has forgotten. Not in a creepy way but a lover way, I watch herself slowly undress. She must have finished working at her father's café and ready to go to shower. She stands in front of her mirror, analyzing her pale beautiful skin. She looks down at her body, seeing the scar that she got wounded from with the bone and the small marks from the vampire bites. They haven't fully healed and watching her stare at her body in embarrassment of no memory hurts me inside. Especially when she breaks down and cries because of it. I feel like it's driving her nuts and I just want to go inside her room and sleep with her for the whole night. I see her sigh, shaking her head and looking away from the mirror. It seems like she's looking for something on her bed, still in a bra and underwear. Eventually she wraps a towel around her body, leaving her bedroom door ajar and lights on, vanishing down the hall. I sigh. "You know, coming here almost every night isn't going to change." "I wish one day it will. One day at night I can bump into her and she can fall for me all over again." "You know I won't allow that, Evan." I turn my head to Chandler, seeing that he has sat down besides me on the thick large branch. Our feet are swaying below us to the music she has left on in her room. "I know but a man can wish right? Just watching her here enjoying every second of her life makes me wish I was by her side enjoying it too. And those other times where she can't remember anything and cries so much about it and I wish I can sooth her pain." "I'm sorry that I did it." "How many times are you going to apologize?" "As much times until you forgive me." I sigh, bringing my gaze back to a group of drunk teenage humans laughing and screaming down the block we are on. They must be passing by to go somewhere. I feel my fangs slowly draw and my senses coming to place. "Evan?" I snap my gaze away from them and back to Chandler's. "Yes." "Did you hear what I said?" I shake my head. "No, what did you say." "Happy birthday." Yeah, he's right. It's my birthday. I turn nineteen today. How my vampire school goes, because I'm born in November, they put me a grade behind. "Thanks." "Are you going to do anything special?" I sigh. "Nothing but stay here until the sunrises. Or maybe feed on drunk humans to pass some time but besides that... No." "Shouldn't you be going home." I bring my gaze back to him. "Chandler, you know what happen after the accident. My parents hate me because Miles is dead... Well to them but to me he's still a demon. I don't even know what he's doing, probably lurking in the Underworld. And because my mother's favorite child is gone, she's disappointed and left, saying that she needs time alone. And look that this, my father, the King has lost his Queen. I don't know if she's ever going to come back but if she does, it's for the loving of my father... Not me-" I pause, seeing that Adeline has come back into her bedroom but with pajamas on. "-So no, I kind of don't want to celebrate my birthday with my quiet father who gives glances towards me every night during dinner without a word. Or thinking that I will never see my twin brother ever again even though I think of Miles every night because I miss him so much." My voice shakes so I stop talking. I watch Adeline fix her blankets and bedsheets, slowly going in them. "Evan, time heals wounds. Yours just takes much more time." I shake off his hand that's resting on my shoulder. "Yeah, yeah I get it. Using cliché references just like in the movies and books." Chandler sighs, jumping off the tree and landing on the ground. "I'm going back to the lake. Are you coming?" He asks and I look back up at Adeline writing in some kind of journal. She seems so concentrated, ignoring the ringing of text messages on her cell phone that's besides her.