Chapter 29: Right or Wrong?

Two Days Later

Kaitlyn

I was at the hospital and finally was going to bring him back. I have been here from time to time and we didn’t talk much this time. He didn’t ask for forgiveness again and we talked normally.

“Get up,” I said to him. He got up and started going with me. He was much better.

“Thank you, I will,” I said to the doctor who told me to take care of him. Well, I am not gonna take very good care of him because I am leaving but I will assign a doctor.

He went inside and sat on the passenger’s seat in the car. I sat on the driver's seat and started driving. He looked out of the window and I noticed him. 

Maybe this is the first time I noticed how handsome he looked. I sighed. I shouldn’t think about all this. I know what I am going to do and I shouldn’t fall for looks. 

We reached the house and I stopped the car. 

He got out and I did too. He came to my side and I don’t know why, took my hand from my wrist and went inside. I didn’t say anything because I was confused.

He closed the door and I tried to get out of his hold but he held on gently. “Just a minute,” he whispered. I nodded.

He went inside and so did I. We went to the living room and he looked at me. “I am willing to do anything, if the result is you giving me another chance”

“Daniel” I looked down. “Why don’t you understand?”

“Why are you not giving me even a single chance”

“You had it. You had your chance”

“Yeah but…” he sighed. “Now i have changed”

“How can I believe that?”

He looked at me. “So that’s the reason…”

“of course”

he left my hand and sighed. “You are leaving, aren’t you?”

“What?” I asked him. He can literally not know that. 

“You are leaving me, right?”

“I…” I sighed. I didn’t know it would be so hard to confront it. It looks selfish. “yeah but not right now--”

“please” he came near and took my hands in his. “Please don’t leave me”

“Daniel…” I sighed and felt so bad. How can I trust him? “Try to understand”

“I can’t. Please trust me. Please”

“No Daniel” I got away. “I Can't trust you”

“Okay” he sighed and went to his room. I sighed and sat down. I felt tears flowing down. I knew I was hurting him but I didn’t have a choice. I can’t trust him like this!

I don’t know why I feel so bad when he didn’t feel bad while hurting me. How can this make sense? How do we know when someone has really changed? What if we give them a chance and they hurt us? What if… uh. There are no answers to these questions.

I knew I had to be cold hearted so I went to my room and tried sleeping. It was night anyway. I know I should have been with him but, nevermind.

I heard a knock on the door. Why is he here?

I stood up and slowly went towards the door. I can’t face him so many times! I still can’t believe I faced him about the fact that I am leaving. I thought I would just leave and he will only know about it when I am long gone.

And facing him before leaving was so heartbreaking. And he is here again, and he sure has to say something again which may make it more difficult for me to leave.

I took a deep breath as I touched the door knob. I heard the knock again and I opened the door. He looked at me. 

“kate” 

I looked back at him. “Daniel, why are you here?”

“Do you hate me?” he asked me. I sighed. I don’t know. That is the only thing which I don’t know. maybe I hate you, maybe I like you or maybe I even love you and I am completely confused. I wanna leave you for my respect but I know that I wanna stay.

“I don’t know” I replied, my eyes moistening and my voice getting heavy. tears were in the back of my throat and I looked away. 

I heard footsteps. one, two and then he hugged me. I was shocked but it felt good.

“Then know. please, figure it out” he whispered in my ear. I took a deep breath. I knew what I had to do and I can’t get distracted!

“Maybe I do,” I whispered. He didn’t make a sound and for a moment I thought he wasn’t even breathing. Then he got away and nodded. “yeah, right. Why wouldn’t you?” He looked into my eyes. “Funny how when I started loving you, you started hating me”

I wanted to stop him, say that it wasn’t true but my brain was telling me to shut the fuck up.

I closed my eyes as I didn’t wanna cry in front of him. He looked aside. “I will leave you alone, you are free”

I looked at him, but he didn’t look at me and just walked out, while I stood there wondering if I was right.