Chapter 27: I’m Sorry

Kaitlyn

“Tell me Kate. What do I mean to you?” he asked me and I went into deep thoughts. I didn’t know what I should say. I didn’t wanna look like a stupid girl to ‘love’ him after what he did to me. I can never forgive him. I just can’t.

I didn’t wanna be a bad person in his eyes either. But I know what I should say. No matter what he thinks of me, I can’t forgive him because he supposedly understood his mistakes.

“Uh…” I stuttered. I felt bad saying it. Maybe I can say something better, like friend or something?

“say it”

“Leave it”s

“Tell me”

I took a deep breath. Okay then, if that’s what he wants. 

“Nothing”

He looked at me and sighed. “Okay”

I kept my bed aside. I was relieved that he didn’t get mad but I also feel guilty. Maybe I should have said something better like maybe friends or something. But I can’t do anything now. uh!

“How are you feeling?” I changed the topic.

“Good”

“That’s good”

He nodded and laid down. It felt like I ruined his mood. But I can’t do anything. He can’t really expect me to forgive him like that.

“By the way” 

I looked at him. “Hm?” I asked.

“I am sorry”

“For?”

he sighed. “You know that”

“Oh…” I sighed. Really? A sorry can literally change nothing. I wish he knew that. 

“Hm. Well, are you gonna go or stay?” He asked. I looked at the time. It was early at 6:26. 

“Well, I will go, but later. At 8 or 9 maybe”

“Okay”

I nodded and then the nurse came and the doctors too and performed a check up. I just hope he gets well soon. Maybe I can not forgive him but I still want him to get well soon. 

he may think that there is some hope but I know.

There is no hope for us.

I went out of the ward for a few minutes and saw that same man who tried to assault me, coming out of his ward. I wanted to go back but decided to not seem like a complete coward.

I took a deep breath and kept going in the direction I was going, which was unfortunately the same as his. 

Before he could see me, he turned around and started moving forward, while I was behind him. Somewhat far away. 

I had to go to the medical store out of the hospital to buy some painkillers. 

I kept moving, but suddenly that man turned around and saw me. I took a step back on impulse. I don’t know why, but I was scared even though I was sure he was really hurt and wouldn’t be able to even think of doing anything.

He started coming towards me, while I was frozen at my location. Going back seemed to be too awkward. I could have gone, but I don’t think he can or even will do anything. He should have learned his lesson. If not, I will surely report to the Police.

he came to me and at a decent distance, he stopped. 

“Mrs. Sullivan?” he asked.

Oh wow, so much respect? Bloody shit.

“Hm,” I replied.

“I am sorry for what I did. I am ashamed”

“Well, do you guys not understand that sorry means just nothing?”

He looked down. Oh damn. I am just so frustrated. I mean, how can you just ruin someone’s life and then be like ‘I am sorry’? That just makes no sense!

I can not forget that he shot him! He is the one because of whom we are here. 

“I know, but I can do nothing. But if you ever need any help, you can or Mr. Sullivan can contact me because I want to repay”

“Okay”

“I will always yearn for your and Mr. Sullivan’s forgiveness”

I sighed. What’s with his drama? because frankly, I don’t believe in a change of hearts! He can’t possibly become so good and generous this soon! 

“What’s changed?” I asked him. He looked at me and sighed.

“Wel, it seems… you know, understandable… rational…” he looked hurt. I don’t know what happened. He stopped speaking, so I asked again.

“Hm?”

“My wife… filed for divorce”

I looked at him in shock. Well, yeah, rational, but he might be really hurt because now I do believe that he is sincere in his apology.

Afterall we understand our mistakes after we have faced the consequences.

“Hm… that’s sad… see, I forgive you for… you know, what you did but I can’t forgive you for shooting Daniel”

“I will wait and also ask for forgiveness from Mr. Sullivans--”

“No. Don’t eventry”

He looked at me shocked. “Uh…”

“See. At least not anytime soon. He is in a really bad mood and he will not forgive you. You will only make things worse for yourself by doing so”

“Oh… okay… sorry again…”

I nodded and he left. 

I know people can change by huge losses. If I have to change Daniel, I know what to do.