Ch.7 Wasn't Letting Go
Ayanna's POV
When I got home, I was tired and exhausted. I threw my bag on the sofa and plopped down next to it.
My head was throbbing and all I wanted to do was sleep. But, I was too tired to move.
As I sat on the couch, my mind wandered back to the events of the day.
Travis.
Damn! Just thinking about him, made my heart beat fast. His kiss. His touch. His stupid attitude..... I hated him. I hated him so fucking much.
He infuriated me.
How could he think, he was so good? That his kiss and touch was magical and made all the women fall for him. He was so full of himself.
And I hated men, who were full of themselves. But why the hell, did he have such an effect on me?
I was not a virgin. I was an escort.
And escorts, were the opposite of virgins.
We had a lot of experience and were not new to the pleasures of sex.
So why did I feel that way? Why did his kiss and touch affect me so much?
It wasn't the first time, a guy had kissed me. But none, had such a strong effect.
His touch had made me weak.
And the challenge..... I was so such I won it. I won it. Right?
Yes, he made me feel good.
But, I made him feel better. At least, that's what I thought.
So, technically, the winner was me. I had won.
"Yesss!!!" I pumped my fist into the air.
Yes. I had won. I had won the challenge. Not Travis, I won. I tried to convince myself.
I had seduced him and made him lose control. He touched me and kissed me and his kisses felt like fire in my bones and his touch excited me and....
I shook my head. No. No. No. I shouldn't be thinking about that. I shouldn't be remembering the way his kisses made me feel.
The way he said dirty things to me. The way he talked to me.
"God.. No..No." I yelled at myself.
I shouldn't be thinking about any of that.
I hated him. I hated everything about him.
I was still deep in my thoughts about Travis when I heard a knock on my bedroom door.
It was my roommate, Naomi.
She didn't give me any time to respond before she barged into the room.
"You're back early. What happened?" Naomi said and jumped on my bed.
Naomi was my best friend. We have been roommates for the last three years.
She wasn't an escort like me. She was timid and shy.
She worked in a big tech company. I couldn't remember the name but I knew it was one of the top companies in the country. She was a brilliant engineer and had gotten a job at the company straight after graduating college.
Her father had worked for the same company and had left her a very big inheritance.
So, she was not exactly in need of a job. She worked, only because she wanted to.
She didn't want people to say, she was privileged and didn't know what hard work was.
Naomi had a boyfriend, who was the sweetest man. He treated her well and was crazy about her.
Sometimes, I got jealous of their relationship. Since, my life was not like that.
My relationships were different.
I was not looking for a boyfriend. I was not looking for a partner.
All I was looking for was fun. My life was a complete mess at the moment. And the last thing I needed was, was a man in my life.
But Naomi, she was the total opposite. She had everything.
A stable job, a loving boyfriend and a rich family. While, I was here, struggling with money and trying to make ends meet.
"What happened? Tell me. You always come back late after making those men spend so much money on you. And today, you are early. Did something happen?" She asked again.
I sighed as I remembered Travis and everything that had happened between us.
"Yeah. The guy cancelled the appointment." I replied.
"Why? Did something happen?" Naomi asked.
"No. He's just an asshole." I said and sat up.
"Can you imagine the nerve of the man. He kept me waiting, and then, when I met him, he....." I trailed off as I recalled the events of the night.
She raised her eyebrows.
"What did he do?" She asked.
"He was a total jerk. He was so full of himself. As if, the world revolved around him. Arrogant asshole." I muttered.
"Damn. He must really be horrible for you to be so annoyed like this." Naomi said to me.
I laughed and shook my head.
"Horrible, is not the right word to describe him. He was an egotistical, self centered, man. And when we kissed...." I was still talking, but Naomi cut me off.
"Wait. When you did what?" Naomi screamed.
I winced. Her scream had been so loud, it had almost burst my eardrums. I was shocked.
"Wait a minute. Back up. You kissed him." Naomi exclaimed.
"No...I mean...He kissed me...." I stammered.
Shit! Why did I tell her about the kiss?
Naomi wasn't going to let it go. She was going to continue asking me all kind of questions.
Now, she was going to bombard me with questions.
I sighed. I was not in the mood to talk about the events of the day. All I wanted to do, was shower, change into my pajamas and sleep.
I was exhausted. And talking about the kiss, wasn't going to help.
In fact, it was going to make it worse. It was going to make me remember how I lost control and how affected, I was by the kiss.
I didn't want to remember. It was embarrassing.
An escort wasn't supposed to allow men to have the upper hand when it comes to seduction. But tonight, I failed.
Travis had broken my control.
He had made me weak. Made me lose. His kiss was like fire. It had taken me to a new level. And his touch had left me wanting more.
The worst part was, that he had known. He had known that his kiss and touch had affected me.
I was sure that he was probably laughing and mocking me right now.
"Ughhh... The bastard." I yelled and kicked a nearby cushion.
"Aya! You're not making sense. What happened? Who kissed you?" Naomi asked again.
"The man. He kissed me and we did this challenge of seducing each other and I enjoyed it. He made loose control, Naomi. His lips, his touch, they were amazing. And I loved them. I wanted more. I wanted him to kiss me harder. I wanted him to fck me." I said.
"But then, I realized what was happening. I realized, that if I let him do, what he was doing. If I allowed him to keep touching me and kissing me. He would win. So, I stopped it." I was breathing heavily and my face was flushed.
Naomi was quiet.
I turned to her and saw her staring at me with wide eyes. She opened her mouth, but didn't say anything.
"What is it, Naomi? What's wrong?" I asked.