(Freya's POV)
'I will come back again. No matter if you like it or not.'
'If this is indeed my punishment, I will accept it. As long as I can make you come back to me.'
All of Devan's words before he left my house kept ringing in my head. I can't forget all the words he said to me. I believed that Devan had changed. I also realized my feelings that I still loved him too.
But I couldn't get back together with Devan. Besides it would make me feel guilty for Theo and Tristan, I felt that all the problems that were present were because of me. Maybe it was true that I was just causing bad luck for everyone around me. So I chose to seclude myself and live alone with Adam because I didn't want to sow any more bad luck to the people around me.
"Miss Freya..."
I gasped as I heard Bella's voice calling me. It seemed like I had been daydreaming too much. I haven't even focused on work since this morning. It's all because of Devan's words that I keep thinking about. I couldn't switch it off even if I wanted to.
"Sorry, Bells. What did you say?"
"Are you all right, Miss Freya?" he asked, looking worried.
"I'm fine. It's just that I have a little problem that I'm thinking about. Sorry for neglecting you, bells," I said, feeling guilty.
"Is it because of the man who came that night?" she asked.
I looked at Bella and then remembered that it was Bella who told me Devan was coming here. I nodded in response.
"Is he your husband?"
"Ex-husband. We've been separated for quite some time, Bells." I felt my lips numb. For the first time I said that Devan was my ex-husband and it broke my heart. It slapped me with the fact that we had actually split up.
"But she came here for you." I was surprised to hear her answer. "Actually, before he came and asked about you, he was standing across the street for quite a while. Maybe about three or four hours. But he did it not only that day, but the days before that he did it too and he would leave right before you came home. I thought he was a stalker at first and I was going to tell you, but that night he came up to me when I went out to take out the trash. And he asked you with a sad expression on his face."
"Wh-What?"
I never knew about that. So, he had known I was here and a few days earlier he had been watching me? Somehow this made my chest feel tight. I felt a deep pain knowing how hard he tried to apologize to me. There must have been a lot of things he thought about before he ventured to see me.
"It was even raining and he didn't bring an umbrella. He was just standing in front of your flower shop looking this way as if he was waiting for something," Bella told me.
"Why didn't he say anything about this to me?" I whispered.
"Miss Freya," she called, I looked at her. "I don't know what your relationship was like in the past. But I can see that he loves you sincerely. What man would do something like your ex-husband did?"
I sighed heavily. Bella's words confused me even more. I just want him to live happily in his new life. With a woman who deserves to be by his side. Not like me whose life is falling apart. I was too weak and afraid to live my life so I made up my real identity just to live as someone else. I was such a coward and I didn't dare to go beyond this.
"Do you think he loves me?" I asked Bella.
"If it's not love, then what is it?" Bella said, "Why don't you ask yourself? I'm sure you already know the answer, but you're just scared and uncertain about your feelings."
"Bella, I have a lot of worries of my own."
"Then, you just need to give him a second chance and believe that he has changed? Giving him a chance is not wrong. You'll find the answer from there too."
I fell silent while bowing my head. I didn't know if I could do it, but Bella's words were true. We still loved each other, it was just that Devan dared to step up to fight for me again and admit all his mistakes. He even knelt to apologize to me.
As for me, I was still trapped by the fear I had that I didn't dare to step forward. I'm afraid of getting hurt and hurting others. That's why I built a high wall so that no one could tear it down.
But, Devan ... the wall was destroyed even before he tore it down.
"You can think about it slowly, Miss Freya," Bella said. She smiled slightly before she walked out of my room.
I let out a long breath. Perhaps I shouldn't be so hard on myself, but still.
It's all over...
At that moment, my cell phone rang. I furrowed my brow because it was a call from the hospital. All of a sudden my heart was beating so fast and I felt an overwhelming fear in my chest that made me feel claustrophobic.
"Hello?" I answered the call with a trembling voice and hands. I heard a female voice, which I'm sure was one of the nurses on duty.
"Hello. Is this with Mrs. Freya?"
"Yes, it's me."
"We are from the hospital and we would like to inform you that your son Adam has been in an accident and is currently in critical condition..."
The cell phone that I had been holding fell without a fight, as did I who fell to the floor with broken sobs. My body was shaking violently while my heart was pounding like it was going to explode. It was like there were thousands of knives cutting into my chest and it felt harrowing.
“M-Miss Freya?!” Bella shouted as she ran towards me. It seemed like she heard something falling and looked worried when she approached me, who was crying. “What happened to you?!”
“Bells. How is it … A-Adam … h-he had an accident…”