(Freya's POV).
I didn't know it would turn out like this. For a long time, I tried to forget Devan. But what happened was that he kept coming and getting deeper into my life. And I'm getting confused with the feelings I have.
I don't want to get hurt again and I don't want to fall twice into the same hole. This situation makes me even crazier when I know how Tristan feels about me. What would happen if Tristan knew that Devan was my ex-husband? And what if Devan knew that I was Freya?
I can't even imagine that happening and it scares me even more. Am I such a bad luck woman that the people around me keep getting hurt and experiencing bad things?
I shouldn't have been in their lives in the first place, so their lives wouldn't be so horrible.
"Vivian?"
"Oh, hi," I smiled as I greeted Devan who had just woken up. I moved slightly to the side as he sat up and looked at me. “Morning, Dev.”
"What time did you wake up?" he asked. He glanced at his cell phone on the small table beside the bed.
"Just a few minutes ago," I said.
"What about your fever? Are you still feeling dizzy?" I froze as I felt his warm hand on my forehead, then down my cheek.
"I'm all better, Dev. Thanks to you." I threw him a smile and he frowned.
"Did something happen?"
"What do you mean?"
"You look different today. You're not usually so sweet to me," he admitted.
I guess he's more sensitive than anyone who knows me. But it just makes me sad that he cares about me so much. It makes me feel even worse for him. I'm sure he'd be very disappointed and hate me even more if he knew that I'd been lying to him.
"Would you rather I be cold to you?"
Devan shook his head. "No, I don't. I like the way you are. But, I hope you'll let me know if you're having trouble, Vivian. I meant it when I said I would take care of you. Even with my own life."
I paused as he took my hand and kissed the back of my hand gently.
"Can you accept my feelings and not reject me again? I promise I'll never hurt you, Vivian," he whispered.
"I'm not sure I can do that, Dev," I said. I pressed against his chest as he pulled my body closer to his. Our faces were so close that I could feel his breath caressing my cheek.
"You just have to try, Vivian. You can't be stuck in your past. Your husband is dead and he can't come back. You need a man in the future and Adam needs a father figure in his life."
What Devan said was true. I can't live alone for the rest of my life. It would be nice if there was a male figure in our lives, but I couldn't if it was Devan.
I shook my head with a sigh. "I don't want to make a mistake... I don't want to...." I couldn't finish my sentence because my throat felt choked.
He whispered against my lips. Kissing me softly before letting go, strangely, I didn't even hate it. "I can give you time. I'll wait as long as you give me an answer, Vivian."
"You don't understand, Dev. It's too complicated. You don't even know what kind of person I am."
"I know and I understand. I just need to trust my heart and I don't want to lose my chance either. I want to make you mine."
"Do you want me that much?" I asked in a trembling voice. I wanted to know Devan's true feelings for me. Although I've often heard him declare his love for me, all of that can't make me sure and only makes me more indecisive.
"Yes. I want you so much, even now," he whispered. I could feel his breath getting hotter against my lips. I felt his arms wrap around my waist, pulling me closer while one hand covered my face.
"Kiss me, Dev," I pleaded. I swallowed, gripping his plain shirt with trembling hands. As he tilted his face and kissed my lips, I could feel the warmth radiating through my body. I shook like I'd gotten an electric shock, slightly startled and panicked.
The kiss was soft at first, then turned more intense and demanding. I don't know how long I've been under Devan while he's been on top of me. He crushed my lips like someone who hadn't tasted water in a long time. He was like a madman thirsting for something he had been waiting for.
I couldn't even push against his body, asking for a pause as he continued to crush my lips relentlessly. I moaned, sighing, trying to catch my breath, but I was running out of breath.
"Dev, breathe," I moaned. I kept trying to push against his body and I was transfixed when he broke the kiss and looked at me with his black eyes that seemed so scary.
He looked at me like the eyes of an eagle that had marked its prey for the pounce. I got goosebumps when he licked my swollen lips. It was the first time he had ever looked at me like that. Even when I lived as Freya, I never saw this side of him.
"Vivian. I want you," he moans as he burrows his face into my neck. Pressing his lower half against my groin. I can feel him stiffen, so hard, so hot, right through the pants he's wearing.
I looked at him closely, then wrapped my arms around his neck. Pulling him closer to me so I could kiss his lips.
“Do whatever you want, Dev,” I whispered as I broke the kiss. “I am yours.”
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(Author's note.)
Hello!
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