It's worse than I expected. Hearing true Hope's death was bumping a wheeler truck all over again. I thought watching our mother cry would be the painful thing to see but watching Mama Elena weep so badly hurts the most. My eyes bleed and my heart was stabbed a million times watching her cry.
She closes her eyes, and she was shouting and no voice came from his mouth. I want to keep this secret and want to hide it from them but I know they deserve to know or maybe I was too fast?
I began to regret my decision. I looked at Kairus, and hee looked at me trying to lift me up. He smiled, and he held my hands. The way he looked at me worriedly makes me think that he know what inside of me and what I felt.
I felt bad. My heart is like in the wide field full of madness.
Mama and Papa fell asleep in the floor. I'm glad that I brought our helper with me. I brought them becuase I feell like hearing it would make you taste death and reminded death again, and again.
"I-I feel like it's a wrong idea to come here and tell them the truth." I said to Kairus as we were in the living room.
He gently smiles, and slightly brush my forehead. It's a rough road to me, and I have to drive in this new different rough road.
"Don't feel bad, okay?" Kairus concsol me. "They need to hear the truth as well. "
I have never talk with Kairus seriously. We have never talk our relationship and about my condition. Since he was there in my concert and I know he already connected all the dots with Hope's parents.
We stayed there and when the evening struck, I went to bid goodbye but I thought I could but I can't. I stopped taking steps ten feet away from them. They were both staring to the wall, and mourning and grieving.
I still did. I want to stare at them before I left. I want to check them.
I continued walking, and softly knocked the door. Their eyes slowly moved at me and I gave them a weak smile. I closed the door and kneel infront of them.
Papa quickly went to hold me and lift me up. "What are you doing?" He asked in a weak tone.
I shook my head. Tears strolled down. "I-I feel like it is my fault."
Mama quicky went to me and hold my cheeks. She wants me to look at her but I can't watch to see her eyes.
"It's fine....we are all fine. We can get over this again..." She whispered, brokenly.
I bowed down my head and hold their hands. "I-I'm sorry for telling you this."
I wish I could just invest medicine so that I can cure the people I loved. I want them to be happy again nor erase the pain that killing them.
"It was just the right decision to tell us, Aim...." Papa whispered behind me.. "We will put that animal in that cell. He doesn't even deserve to breathe!"
Leaving gives me a box for me to breath. Their smiles assured me to have a peaceful drive way back home. I waved at them sadly while letting our helpers stay with them.
I wanted to go to Hayes. I wanted to slap him but remembering what he did, it's very unforgettable. I still feel that fear and tremble every time I see him or when he becomes my nightmare.
I'm slowly trying to fix nor atleast heal what inside of me and what's in my brain. There are a lot of things to do and people expected me. I fele pressured in a good way becuase I wanted to do well but I can't do this with my state. I want to focus more about this, seriously.
It's going mess in the showbiz word whixh I am thankful for. The coming back of Theo creates a mess that I can think he can still make that like that for months. Then, they can stay atleast a little way.
Theo is back and now I am the one who's not available. My manager said that the cast was the best and ideal for the characters that built. It was the best." I said try to console me when I know it's not helping."
A lot of things happened alot after my brithday.
I want to see Kelsey. I want to check my nephew. I want to get some strength.
"Kai..." I called him. He was busy focusing in the car but he still glance at me.
I can't think what's better, him looking just a normal day or in a suit having a meetting. He looks so good. He blend so well. Even he rarely smiles still he looks so handsome. My eyes moved to his strong and big hand.
It looks rough and big to me but it fits very well.
I shake that thoughts away! Maybe I should ignore Kairus all the time. I never knew this was coming. It's my attraction but more and more for me to fall hard.
He chuckled. "What is it?" I didn't notice that I didn't know that paint brush. They were all chuckled.
I softly sighed and smiled ."About....Kelsey."
"How about my sister?" He asked sofftly like a normal conversation.
I want to ask why she lied. I want to ask things too but I know he is not the one who could give me the explanation that could make me understand me. I dumped those thoughts.
"When...when would she let us know Marcos? I know we know him but should she at least meet me or even just my brother.""
I don't know why I heard him sadly sighed. He looked at me and his eyes were already on me. I glance back at the road and glance both. I'm glad that luck come in my way.
The stoplight changed red , and so continued driving.
"If you want, we can go to her. I think she won't be....mad." He say it unsure. I know it would surely be mad.
I quickly shook my head regretting asking about it.
"I will let my brother first. " I said trying be cheerful. "Just tell me about him. Everything!"