We were alone, again. For the longest time, this is the first time that we were in the four corner.
I was leaning, and he was leaning distance beside me. I suddenly feel too cold even though I was wearing a long sleeve fitted red dress. The lower of the dress just fall right on my knee.
“It’s already late. How will you go home?” He asked, trying to have a small talk. I wanted to smirk. I’m prepared to this.
I hummed. “I bring my car-
“Then that’s good.” He interrupted. “I’m not bringing mine so, I’ll hop in with you.” He said, and my lips parted, looking at him.
I really made sure to bring my car because I don’t want to be with him or close to him, and now. He was saying he will hop in because he didn’t bring his car.
The elevator opens. I walked out without a word. Literally, ignoring him. He’s not blind nor deaf and not heartless I think because he dared to hurt us, and for sure he read my action very well.
I stopped and frown when I heard his footsteps behind me, following me. “What are you doing?” I asked, seriously.
He shrugged his shoulder. “I’m saying I could hop in. May I?”
“No.” I replied without a second thoughts.
He roamed his eyes around. “Can’t you see? There’s no cab around here.”
“I can see but I’m not stupid.” I replied. “Book a cab online.”
He looked at me seriously, and he sighed. “I left my phone, and my wallet.” He said, and he even touched his pockets of his pants. “See? I forgot to bring it or someone stole it while I’m walking.”
Wow. Did he forget all of it at this moment and at this day and at this hour? Ridiculous! Impressive!
“Fine, I’ll grab a cab for you.” I said, and took my wallet away. I stopped and froze when hold my hand.
“Don’t. I can be your driver. I know you’re very tired.” He whispered, so soothingly and calmly.
I’ve been so tired and exhausted in all my life, and it’s getting tiring after I woke up from the surgery. Yes, physically not tired. Hope’s heart is very strong and I can feel she’s helping me to live, longer, but this kind of exhausted have no end maybe because what I felt is emotional exhausted. It could heal just by sleeping or taking rest.
What I felt right now, his words, are slowly crawling to touch all the exhausted parts of the veins o my heart.
It was so calming that I couldn’t say no. I snap back and push his hands away. I turn my back from him and slowly hug myself while heading to my car.
I open the driver’s car silently, and after that I walked around to go to the passenger seat.
We were both silent, and his silken was different because it was observing… tracing every movement I make.
“What did Mr. Alfredo said by the way?” I asked him to break the silence. I wanted to ask it too because when I came, I really didn’t talk to him.
“He knows that you’re busy and…he was thankful that you still continue the shoot.”
I looked how calm his hands were, and he didn’t even ask where I was living. It feels like he knew the road and the streets, the way he calmly just drive without interruptions.
Kairus cleared his throat. I darted my eyes, and he bit his lip.
“Are you scared?” He asked suddenly. I scowl, looking at him.
What does he mean about scared? Scared of what?
“What do you mean?” I asked, and I feel the coldness of my hand.
‘After the release of this shoot. Are you scared that you can’t handle your fans seeing with me. Many fans already ship you with…veteran and successful actors.”
Many fans already ship you with veteran and successful actors. Did he stalk about me? Did he stalk me?
“It just a photoshoot. Nothing else.” I whispered, “and in fact, I should be the one to be scared. It’s your first time, and for sure they would be territorial of you.”
Even I was successfully avoided him person or through television or in news but I’m not deaf, I can hear his name around me. He was popular even without setting his foot to the stage. Many wants and looking forward for him to enter the showbiz.
“No…no one will never hurt you.” He uttered seriously like a promise. I smiled bitterly. He did already, one time but the pain ache too long that it never ended.
The silence is back again. The pain I’ve felt right now is so heavy. Kairus presence is already too much and heavy to bear. I thought that was already the end of conversation but my heart and the cuts freshly open, again.
“I’m sorry….” He murmured. I tried to be brave and smile. It was happened a long time ago but the way he drags it was like it just happened yesterday.
“I said words that hurt you just because I want to hurt you brother.”
I shook my head and softly laugh. “Don’t say sorry when you mean it all. Let’s stop recalling-
“I never mean it.” he cut me off. “I know. I was so impulsive. The emotion slaves me well that time that I didn’t think my words. I wanted to hurt him that I didn’t notice that I hurt you-
“Who said that I was hurt by what you said?” I asked him, too. “You were just Kelsey’s brother, and those words are too shallow to be hurt especially that we never get that close.”
He went speechless. It’s contrary to what I felt but I wanted him to think that it wasn’t painful. I want him to think that I have no feelings for him that time.
He chuckled. “That’s too harsh. Here I am still living in darkness thought that I hurt you in all pieces-
“You were already in the darkness before you’d met me.” I said seriously, and I remember how once he used me. “You’ve been drowning with your wife and her memory.”
“It’s the type of drowning that I can still survive.” He said, and my eyes darted to him. He was looking to me straightly. “I was away with you, and it’s type of drowning that I wanted to fight because I wanted to survive….to survive with you.”
He was saying it seriously. We are already here in the parking lot of my condo. I roamed my eyes around to check if my brother is here, and see if he still used me to hurt my brother. when I didn’t see my brother, I break the silence to laugh hard like a witch evil in the movie.
“Do you want to be an actor? Your line is well-written.” I complimented, and laugh.
Hurt and betray the woman first, and to tell you, after that, your words are already too good to believe in.
I shake my head, and wipe the tears on my eyes. He still couldn’t move on from the past? He still wants to hurt my brother and get his revenge? I think, it should be tie because Kelsey got a longtime boyfriend now.
I changed my expression seriously and darkly. I looked at him in the eye. “If you still want to get revenge, don’t use me. Don’t kill me twice.” I said, and leave the car.
I wait for him to get out.
“You can use my car, and if you don’t want, you can leave the keys in the hood.” I said, and left him there.
I thought all the words I said makes him weak but I stopped when he chase me his words that I wanted to here before but hate to hear it now.
“I like you." He said, strongly. "Je t’aime, Jette Aime Anderson.”