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“…my daughter has been so care-free. She’s the sun, and we were the poor plant who needs her. The light, and who bring joy to the family. This is the painful eulogy I’ve never imagine to do. As a mother, I hate to see her slowly living away. Even she would stay far away from us—for too long or too little time— the pain and the sorrow I’ve felt couldn’t measure any time.
We are wearing green today because this is another fresh start. New beginning. New life.
One life was gone, and two live remains.
To our dear Hope, we are in deep pain as we heard the news. We, Anderson Family, couldn’t be happy cause why two angels have to suffer badly. Our daughter had her heart attack before New Year and you died after New Year. I wish I could save you two but I couldn’t.
My daughter was bravely accepted it that all I could do is close my eyes and try to reimagine her smile before the sadness could take me, wholly.
Hope, I don’t know how to begin this I know you are watching us from above. I am painful and never wish bad something from you. I wish as a mother, that you all live longer but fate has different journey for the both of you.
Your heart would be in perfect place. All your dreams will continue and fulfill as my daughter wanted to live through you and her. You’re not alone and she’s not alone. You were each other’s heart in one life. I love you both.
To my daughter’s heart, and to Hope, may our gratitude leads you up. Please, guide us always. ***
My mother stepped down while holding a white Lily.
Hearing your loved ones give you their own eulogies was really strange. I thought I would never those heartbreaking speech but still did. I was a crazy girl at the back, listening and crying.
My brother, the girls, and my best friend are in the front seat. And, my mother was the last one to deliver her speech, and beside her was dad standing, giving strength.
I stare at them, and they still crying. I already warned them not to shed a tear or cry and yet they were sobbing like there’s no tomorrow.
The last time they buried my heart as well and they were crying. They had buried my heart while I was fighting mine and having a heart transplant. Nothing has change, and they still cry.
I thought it was the end of me. I already accept my fate. My brother lost his wife and me that time. I lost mine and Kairus as well. The words that Kiarus left triggered my heart to give up.
It’s so frustrating that I’ve never had the long chance or time with Kairus yet his impact towards me and towards my heart bring disaster. I thought it wouldn’t hurt or big deal since it was just lust and attraction. It was a very shallow emotion but never imagine that it would affect me to the point that. Him, walked away kills my heart.
They walked out while my brother was begging me to wake up. The fight we’ve been through couldn’t compare the fight that Hope have been through as well. She died and her body found in the river. Her parents were mourning, poorly.
They called my parents and announce the bad news. My parent became strength to Hope’s parent.
We both dealing death and one must been save.
I’ve woke up hours ago. My heart and the feelings I have feels strange and different but I couldn’t feel any pain right now. It was like I just woke up from a deep nap.
My eyes darted to my brother who just walk away. He still have something to explain to me. I know that what I was thinking is so bad and dangerous but I want the truth, and I would never forgive him once I proved it right.
He have a lot of things to explain to me about his scheme to his wife and to Hope.
Did any instant…killed her? Was it coincidence how Hope died after I was having a heart attack, is that something weird, strange and questionable?
If this life, this new life coming from evil or bad action then I will not accept this. I have no right to accept this and continue.
I hope what I just think was wrong. My brother won’t do that. I’ve been telling him that I rather die than live while he’s doing bad to give it to me.
My brother is holding a phone. He was talking silently, and weirdly. My father slowly came towards him and Andrew ended the call and hid it.
I looked up from the sky. Hope, I don’t know how to talk to you. I want to hear your thoughts, your ideas, and about you. Don’t worry your parents didn’t lose you, I’m here and you’re still here, and you will never be away. Your heart lives with me and I live with you.
I’ll fulfil your dreams, and the things you never done because of your illness, we will do it now. We will achieve it all. I will make you happy. I will make your family happy.
I smiled and watched my funeral one last time. I walk away together with the nurse that my family hired. I left before they would see me that I woke up.
I know they will be happy to see me awake. My heart aches to imagine again about my parents. I’m sure they will go in pain again with my decision. I will live with Hope’s family and live with her dream.
I know they would understand. They knew I left my homeland to fulfill my heart donor’s dream. I wouldn’t survive without them and it’s only right that we will live together.
“Ma’am aren’t we going to text them?” the nurse asked. “For sure, they would rush to see you.”
We were already in the car, and our driver slowly start driving away.
“It’s fine. I know they were going to see my anyway. Do you have Hope’s number? I’m sorry I have to ask you with this. I want just to secure them.”
The nurse nodded.
My eyes darted to my nurse. She’s reading something in her phone. My mouth and my hands feel itchy. I wanted to stalk Kelsey and Kairus. I’m just curious.
I wanted to check to Kelsey and I wanted to be angry with Kairus but I think I shouldn’t do that.
*Our paths will never cross again. I will never see him again. I will never look at him the way I looked at him. I will never stare at his eyes and I will forget him…forever.
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