Taylor Portwalt
I tried to give my big smile to Christian when I saw him as soon as I got out from the airport. I couldn't sleep yesterday and it was crazy that I kept thinking bad scenarios in my head.
"I miss you" He said and he hugged me tightly
"I miss you too" I smiled and he kissed my cheek
"How's your flight? Tired?"
"A little, how about you? How's your flight?" I asked and he opened the car door for me
"It was good" He smiled widely
With that girl?
"Get in, I want to take you to a new restaurant" He said and I nodded. I got inside the car and put my seatbelt on. He got inside too and I started to get suspicious.
I moved back my seat and my eyes landed on a red hairpin. I took it and turned to Christian
"What's this?" I asked
"Oh my friend's, she once asked me to drop her and she accidently drop that in my car" He said and I raised my eyebrows
"So how's Ohio?" I asked and threw the hairpin back. My emotion was already burning inside
"Ohio was good, we got the deal quickly"
"Only went for a meeting there?" I asked
"Of course" Lies
"Why are you so quiet?" He asked when none of us said anything. I didn't even want to talk because of my jealousy. A friend? What kind of friend he has until he gave a driving service for her
"Taylor?" He held my hand and I looked down to his hand
"Huh?"
"Are you tired? Do you want to rest?" He asked
"I need to be alone" I said truthfully
"Alone? Are you okay? Did something wrong with work?" He asked worried, I can't believe he's really good in acting
"I'm just tired that's all, work got me good" I lied
"Let's just order takeaway, I'll cuddle you to-"
"No need" I cut him and tried to smile
"Huh?"
"You're busy, you don't need to be with me. It's fine" I said
"You're being weird Taylor, I'm your boyfriend. It's my job to comfort you when you're tired and-"
"I'm just tired Chris, can you at least understand that I need time alone?" I asked coldly, turning my head to him. He looked at me disbelief and sighed
"Okay fine"
Suddenly his phone rang and I glanced down to see 'Zoe' on the screen. He immediately rejected the call and that got me suspicious.
"Why reject it?" I asked
"I can deal with work later on" He said and I scoffed secretly. If it's work why don't you just answer it in front of me?
"Just drop me at my house and I'll see you at dinner" I said and he didn't answer anything. The tension was thick. None of us said anything.
I sighed silently and closed my eyes. I'm so tired because I couldn't catch a sleep yesterday. Work was piling up but I still went here to New York just to see Christian for a moment but I got this.
Is he cheating on me? Will he be the same as the other guys who went for me? They love the process but when they get me.. they will throw me away because I was too plain and too perfect for people until they get bored easily?
They always told me that I'm boring because I kept being perfect. There's no ups and downs in relationships. I rarely get jealous when I'm with them because I trusted them. I rarely get mad because I was trying to understand their situation. I rarely text them or call them asking to go out because I don't want to be a clingy girl.
Christian was the only person that lasted the longest until now. 2 months and still going. I wondered what's inside his head when he wanted to date me? Am I just for fun? Or he's just guilty because he took my V card 2 years ago? Now he's even looking at another girl
Am I that boring?
Rea always told me that I'm too good for a girl, too innocent. I'm your typical good girl. I'm not bad like Joan or Autumn who can wear a sexy dress trying to seduce men. I can't be like that because it's not me but now I realize how that makes you not plain and innocent.
Guys hate a girl that's too innocent and too plain. I realized that when they only after me because I'm a girl that's hard to get. That's the challenge for them. I sighed big time about this
"We're here" Christian announced and I turned to see my house. I opened the seatbelt and opened the door
"I can't have dinner with you tonight, I have an important meeting"
"Okay," I said and got out of his car. I took my luggage from the back of the car and walked inside the house without looking back to Christian.
When I heard his car left, I opened my phone to find the nearest club. It's too early to club and party but.. I need a drink so bad.
Suddenly I really want to change, I've been hurt a lot because of this and I want to change. I'm sick getting this treatment. For now, I need to treat them how the treat me.
I might sound like a 17 years old girl that just went through puberty but imagine if you're in my shoes. Men broke your heart as easy as throwing a glass to the ground. They didn't care about your heart emotions, all they wanted was challenge.
Experiencing this for years and now I've had enough. I have pass my limit and I can't hold it anymore. It's time for a change.
If you're planning to break my heart Christian, I'm going to break your heart first. I'm not going to let someone break my heart again.