Chapter 5.
I look up at Kai's face and I started to worry. I can't do that, because they will see the color chart of bruises all over my body, and if they look close they will see all the scars I have. I can't do that! No matter how much I trust them, I can't drag them in to that mess. And I don't wanna lose them. If they see that they will think I'm disgusting and don't wanna be around me anymore. I can't lose the only people I consider family. I won't let Victor and Margarethe take that away from me as well. Kai kept looking at me like he was trying to read me like a open book. Then he said in a stern voice "I don't wanna hear any excuses Bunny, take it off now! Do you need me to help you take it off?" I just keep looking at him, and try to look for an excuse to keep my hoodie on.
"Kai, you can just put it straight while I keep my hoodie on! I only have a sports bra on under it and I'm very shy when it comes to my body!" I tried keep my voice strong but it come out more as a whisper. I really am shy when it comes to my body, I feel so disgusted with my own body and I don't want to lose them because of it. "Betty, I can't get a good grep to get it settled with the hoodie on, and we all here have seen a girl in a sports bra on before, a sports bra have even more coverage than a bikini top so it's nothing to worry about. And we are like family, you know you do not need to be shy around us. So either you take off that hoodie or I will!" Kai said this while slowly walking towards me and take a grip on the bottom of my hoodie ready to drag it over my head.
I look up into his eyes and I see he is being very serious. Well this family I have had with them have been good as long as it lasted! I then look down on his hands that is holding onto my hoodie, I give a little sigh before I look back up into his eyes, "please be careful with my left shoulder, and I pray that you won't leave me from what you will see" I whisper only loud enough so Kai was the only one hearing it. When he heard what I said I could see his eyes was getting filled with even more worry and concern. He fixed his stand in front of me a bit before he slowly took off my hoodie starting with my right arm so he could pull it over my head before carefully drag my left arm out of the arm of the hoodie.
When he started taken out my right arm first I quickly coveret my stomach with it as good as I could. I started to hear gasps from Sebastian, Christian, Axel, Silas and Sofia. When the hoodie was off and Kai got a good look at me standing there with my sweatpants and sports bra. He covered his mouth while taking a step backwards. I couldn't take the looks they are all giving me, so i kept my look to the floor. I feel so ashamed of my body, you can see all my bones sticking out, you can count my ribs through my skin. I'm so skinny that Kai could probably hold around my waist if he wanted and his fingers would be touching each other. My skin is filled with bruises in all different color and forms, I have a big ass handprint on my neck from where Victor tried to choke me yesterday. You can even see a carved word on my lower stomach saying 'slut', they will probably call me whore as well now thinking I'm whoring around.
The silence is killing, so I lift my gaze up to look at their faces expecting to take in their disgusted looks, but I have not been able to mentally prepare myself on the looks I saw. Silas and Sofia was standing there with their hands over their mouth and tears streaming down their faces. Axel, Sebastian and Christian was standing there with their jaw dropped to the floor with tears threatening to fall down but they have been able to keep them in check. Then I look at Kai, the look he gave me broke my heart, the guy I consider my brother looked at me with so much anger, I couldn't help the whimper that left my mouth. My brother was angry, he was angry at me, I'm sure he is so disappointed at me for not being able to defend myself. They have all teached me self defense, they have teached me how to handle guns, and every type of weapons. But I have not been able to use any of that with my so called parents, because the little girl in me believe that they will come around and love me, I know I tell myself that it won't happen and I need to get away from them but it's hard because they are the once that is supposed to love me. I look down on my feet while still holding my right arm over my stomach in an attempt to hide the 'slut' words there.
Suddenly I see a hand come into my eye site and I flinched. I fucking flinched when my brother is trying to lift my chin up. I look in his eyes and I saw hurt. I feel so bad. I'm not afraid of Kai, he is my brother for fuck sake. "I'm so sorry Kai, I didn't mean to flinch!" I said with so much sorry in my voice, I'm so close to just break down! I never meant to hurt anyone! "Kai, I'm so sorry, I'm so so sorry" I started to cry while repeating it over and over again. "Kai, I'm so sorry, I'm so so sorry, I know I look horrible, I know you think I look horrible! I'm so sorry!" I said while my knees was giving away.