Nine Months
Emerald eyes dig deep into my soul, he is not alone his beast that resides within makes himself known through Deimos's eyes. His iris is split into two halves one emerald the other pitch black. Both my males registering the words I just said.
He seems to be engulfed in a haze unable to spew words. Taking in huge gulps of air through his nose chest expanding filling himself. His eyes travel down from my eyes to my stomach and linger there for a while. My soul feels everything he does yet I wish to hear from him directly.
"I do not deserve this." The first words to leave his mouth. Eyes shut close hiding his truth from me. My feet take me a step closer to him. We both tremble our bodies swaying in unison the news affecting us equally.
"Perhaps the moon goddess favors me now. She keeps blessing me." He utters cheeks flushed breath held in his throat. Placing my palm upon his cheek my touch awakens him, lifting him through the cloudy path his mind sits upon.
Placing my forehead upon his we drown in a comforting silence our marks springing to life sending jolts through our flesh. His eyes are wet as he holds his emotions back not allowing a single drop fall down his cheeks. Fists clenched at his sides struggling to take proper breaths. The first I have seen him this way.
"A pup." I chuckle through my cries. Snuggling into his neck my lips upon his mark. His scent pulling me into a restful warmth.
"Our pup." He whispers with a chuckle of his own. "I will be a father, Lumina." He continues pride surging through like an electrifying current. Eyes looking above him as if he is sending his prayers to his father who stands with the moon.
"A wonderful one." I say meeting his eyes my tone soft filled with love I have for him.
"And who else best to raise our pups but you. A mother. I cannot even imagine this. Thank you. Thank you." He closes his eyes praying to whisper his thanks over and over again unable to contain the overflowing joy he possesses that I could almost taste it upon my tongue.
I remember the days I ached for this wondering if this day would ever come for me. I remember the days my mother tied me to the pole to whip my back I prayed that if I ever had a pup of my own I would place my life at its feet. A family. The last of my dreams had come true.
"We are having a pup, Lumina!" I startle to his sudden booming voice, hands around my thighs he picks me off my feet. A light playful screech leaves my lips head dizzy with happiness. Forehead placed upon my stomach. Eyes closed he remains still.
Running my fingers through his hair I gaze down at him my soul feels different. As if it has reborn filled with new life the scars of my past dying. This life I will give shall be the first step to an everlasting future.
"I will teach our pup everything. How to swim, how to chase butterflies, how to catch wild hares." Deimos whispers his heart pounding with excitement. "And most of all I will make sure to lead our pup upon the right path." He gazes up at me.
Eyes shining with immense uncontrollable emotions. Bending low I swoop down taking his lips into mine with a soft kiss. He slowly brings my body down my feet landing upon the cold ground, his hands around my waist head bent tasting my flesh.
A soft knock interrupts us gently from our happy bubble. "Alpha may we come in?" Elriam questions her voice filled with concern. Ragon stands along with her. They are nervous I can smell their tension wafting through the air.
"Enter." Deimos voices out gazing down at me, hands around my hips with a soft smile gracing his face.
The two wolves enter quickly as Ragon shuts the door behind him. Elriam has her eyes upon me never taking it away her heart pounding with fear. Fear for my diagnosis.
"Is everything alright? Did the medicine have any effects?" She questions looking back and forth from Deimos to me. Ragon stands behind her arms behind his back watching calmly.
"We bear news for both of you. You both will be the first to hear it." Deimos speaks. The two betas watch and wait for the words to hit them. "We are going to have a pup."
A sharp shaky intake of breath from Elriam has my attention. Hands clamped upon her mouth she registers the words within her mind with wide eyes. Then she laughs for a while until the laughter turns into loud sobs.
Ragon smiles showing his strong set of teeth eyes sparkling as he regards my male. They both bow deeply in unison hand placed upon their chest. The first greeting to the new parents. Elriam doesn't cease her cries but calms once Ragon's hand is placed upon her shoulder.
"Elriam. Come." I open my arms to her as she takes slow steps to me. As soon as she is within my space I place my forehead upon hers in greeting.
"I am so happy for you, Alpha. This dream of yours has come true. I have seen your journey till here and I cannot be any prouder than I am now." She whispers.
"Thank you, Elriam. For everything, for being by my side. I never see you as merely a beta or a friend. You are my family, my sister." I tell her as she soft whines are let out from her wolf who regards me from beneath the surface.
I look towards the side and Ragon slaps his hand in Deimos's. A males' way of congratulating. "I need to make a quick call." Deimos says removing his phone from his back pocket leaving the room with a final glance towards me. Ragon following my male hands tucked in his pockets.
"I remember you told me that this would happen only in your dreams, but you have it now. A family, Alpha." Elriam says wiping her eyes.
"Miracles happen. I believe in them now. Perhaps my time was now to open my presents sent from the moon." I reply.
"The females will be so happy about this. We must celebrate our way, Alpha." Elriam utters.
"I wish to but Deimos said we cannot leave yet. Giovanni's training is yet to complete." I give her a soft smile.
"We must inform them at least." Elriam whispers.
"There is no rush. We can take our time." I reply to her. I just heard the news today, I don't want it to become the center of all talks between wolves. I wish to give it some time.
My male enters swiftly after his quick call, holding a wide smile upon his face that lights up the entire room. He cannot hide his joy he wishes to show his pride to every wolf.
"I would like to take you somewhere, Lumina." He says. His sudden remark has me frowning in confusion. All of a sudden? We just got here. But I can go wherever, the healer's medicine had calmed my nausea quickly. I should have come here earlier.
"Come." He says opening up his palm for me to take. I look towards Elriam. She nods softly with a smile upon her face leaving us.
"Where?" I question as he guides me out to the parked car. Steps urgent with a slight bounce to his feet. He cannot wait to get there.
"To a place that holds meaning." Is the answer he gives me. There is no driver to take us, Deimos drives us there. Just the two of us.
The drive to the destination is a peaceful one with soft music playing and Deimos tapping his fingers upon the steering wheel with urgency. His eyes forward never wavering. His heart is beating with an anxious rhythm.
First, he was excited now he is nervous? What awaits us? Curiosity seeps forward and I can't help but combine my emotions with his, my heartbeat matches his pace.
He drives us into a secluded area, a land bare of any traces of life. It possesses no houses, no roads just a tall silver gate with sharp spikes on top prohibiting forced entry. Vines have grown to wrap around the poles of the gate the color rubbed off giving it an old and rusty look.
"Come." Is all he says grabbing my hand. Shifting his hand in his pocket he extracts a small key. Thrusting the key into the hole he unlocks the silver gate that opens with a large painful groan. This place has been unvisited for years.
Entering into the vast land my eyes find a stony path leading forward engulfed with trees on both sides. I cannot see anything further than that the sight hidden by the thick green bushes.
"We have to walk for a bit." He whispers.
"What meaning does that place hold that you had to bring me here immediately?" I question keeping my eyes forward inhaling the fresh air trapping it within my lungs.
"I will tell you when we reach there." He replies. He knows his path guiding us with confidence showing me he has been here several times.
"How many times have you come here?" I question clutching his hand tighter pulling him to me. He stumbles to my sudden action quickly regaining balance.
His arm comes over my shoulder bringing me closer to him as I wished. "Twice. I needed to come here twice."
"Why?" I ask.
"To learn." He answers.
"Learn what? I don't understand." I say confused as to where he is coming from. He gives me short frank answers without explanations. Patience he says is a trait I don't possess, my curious mind always a problem.
"We are almost there, Lumina. You will have your answers." He whispers with a soft smile as he gazes down at me.
With a soft sigh leaving my lips I walk within his hold following his pace my curiosity simmering but waiting. The only sounds I hear are the soft crunches of our feet upon the stone path. The cold silent path slowly disappears replaced by one filled with beauty and color decorated with all kinds of flowers.
My eyes widen as I look at the sight. I immediately leave his side and rush towards the area. Beautiful. From the view to the smell drowning me within its deep rich fragrances.
"I have wolves who come here every day to take care of the land." He speaks, his breath fanning my neck. Hair rises as soft tingles vibrate through my flesh to his sudden closeness. Hands wrap around my waist bringing me to his chest.
Thrusting his nose into my neck he nuzzles taking in my new scent lips placing a soft kiss upon my mark breathing into it life. "Do you like it?" He questions.
"Yes, it's beautiful. Who chose the types? Who even possessed the seeds for these kinds?" I question my love for gardening perking up. These flowers are very hard to find back at our pack, perhaps it is found here easily.
"My mother. She bartered with packs all around the world to get these. She shares the love for gardening just like you." He whispers his chin placed upon my right shoulder. Every time he talks about his mother the more my want to meet her arises. She seems like a gentle wolf who might have accepted me with open arms.
"I would love to meet her." I utter eyes scanning through the different colored petals.
"You can, I will take you to her. She is probably really angry at me that I still haven't officially introduced you to her after all these years. If I was still a pup I would be in timeout at the bad pup corner as she called it." He chuckles with a shake of his head reminiscing on his fond memories.
"Bad pup corner?" I ask raising my eyebrow in question.
"Yes. I had to turn my back to her and stand facing the wall for about an hour or more." He says speaking of her punishment.
"And how many times were you in timeout?" I ask.
"Too many to count. What can I say, I was a bad wolf. I still am but... a different bad. A bad only my mate can see or...get." He speaks meeting my eyes a smirk playing upon his lips.
A soft laugh erupts from my belly to his words. "You find this funny? I am serious though, my female." He says in between my laughs as he begins to chuckle as well.
The further we walked inside more beauty laid about ready to be appreciated. I drank it all in with every breath I took engraving it within my mind.
"A lake?" I ask him as we stop by the calm waters. Did we walk all this way to see a lake?
"Remove your clothes, Lumina." He instructs hand reaching behind removing the shirt in one pull off his body. He pulls down the zipper to his baby blue jeans as I watch him dumbfounded.
No explanation again but I pay heed to his words removing my clothes keeping my undergarments on. My breath hitches as he pulls down his boxers standing completely bare in front of me.
As his eyes meet mine he says, "Bare yourself completely, Lumina." With a curt nod, my fingers unhook my bra allowing the straps to fall down my shoulders. My panties go next and I stand still in front of him.
My eyes find his chest, the hard muscles that paint it. The soft pink nipples perking up to my gaze as well as the hard ridges upon his stomach showing years of physical work. Trained to perfection. His body is everything a female dreams of.
Bending down digging into his jeans back pocket removing a small golden round container. He quickly opens the lid giving me the view of a black filling. It isn't powder but like the texture of paint. Understanding looms within me, it is charcoal paint. Taking a step closer to me he dips his fingers in taking it upon his fingers.
"I was trained to do this for when my female becomes pregnant. It is our tradition." He says as he begins to apply the paint upon my body starting below my eyes, down to the bridge of my nose above my lips. After he is done with my features, the paint is spread all over my face.
"This place has been kept within the holds of my family for so many years. My father brought my mother here the second she said she was pregnant and performed this ritual." He continues.
He dips his fingers in and begins to cover my neck whilst my mark sizzles as it sucks up the paint. My breasts are next but he applies it with a struggle, his hand often twitching trying to control the urge that rises within him. Eyes focusing on covering every inch of my flesh.
"Will you apply this all over my flesh?" I question gazing down at his stained hands that is painting me like a canvas.
"Yes." He answers whilst staining my stomach black. "Sit, Lumina." He says and I immediately sit waiting for his next instruction.
Biting my lower lip I watch my male turning me into a piece of art. "Spread your legs." He says finally meeting my eyes.
My body trembling thighs shaking I spread them apart slowly clutching the grass beneath my fingertips. He rubs the paint within his palms and starts from my inner thighs. I take a deep breath in caging my moans of pleasure at the base of my throat and so does he doing his best not to look at what is seducing him.
It is hard not to get excited by such slow caresses. It affects me just as much as it affects him. But he keeps himself in check never wavering from the process. It takes some more time until he is finally done with it.
I am standing up facing him whilst he throws the empty container upon the grass floor. Taking a step towards me he bends hands under my thighs and lifts me with ease so my arms are around his shoulder head placed upon his chest.
He takes small steps towards the lake and I sway in his arms. His feet enter first into the calm water and he continues to stride deeper until I am half submerged within it.
"Breathe with me, Lumina." He whispers looking down into my eyes. When he inhales a breath so do I. He immediately bends submerging my entire body into the water without warning. Keeping me there for a few seconds he lifts me back up.
I come up with a gasp looking at him through blurry vision my hair drenched body shivering. "Again." He says and I follow his breathing pattern once more before he takes me slowly deep into the water.
This time I am under for a few more seconds, I can see him watching me from beneath the water his gaze gentle, fulfilled, and happy.
I hold my breath for a little while and he immediately brings me back. If I were a wolf who didn't know to swim this would have been a very difficult task for me.
He slowly lets me go so I can stand on my own. Cupping some water into his hands he pours it softly upon my head allowing it to trail down my face. He does it one more time his eyes sparking up with joy.
I look down at myself, the black paint washed away. "You are reborn." He says and I startle looking up at him. "You are not an ordinary female anymore, you are not just a mate. You will birth a pup greatest of all. Your darkness, fears, faults, and past scars are washed away. Now, you are only left with light. Share that light with our pup and I will share with you mine." He says. From the way he spoke it I knew he had to learn these words by heart. Words that were taught over and over as a pup until he could say it on his own.
A soft smile graces my lips to his words. "My light." He whispers nuzzling into my cheek forehead placed upon mine.
"The word happiness cannot even be used to describe what I feel at this moment. It is surging above clouds, Lumina. Thank you. Thank you for filling the void in my soul and making me whole." He whispers.
"My male." I utter tears brimming within my eyes to his words that sink into my soul.
His palm goes below water as he places it upon my stomach. A soft smile on his lips as he looks at the flesh eyes shining.
"Nine months, Lumina. Nine months until I can hold our pup in my arms." He whispers biting his lower lip to stop its quiver.