Forgive Me
WARNING :- This chapter may contain mild sexual content not suitable for children.
I feel him. Every inch of him deep inside me. I feel the weight of his body upon mine while his strong hands fist my hair. His thrusts are deep and fast. With each hard thrust, his body gives me I take it all with the push of my hips. His teeth bite deep as his arms keep me caged under him. My moans mix with his grunts and my appetite has been filled.
The sound of a loud ring disrupts us as I begin to look around for the source confused. "Get up, Lumina." Deimos says his face serious as he walks away from me.
"What?" I ask frowning still not awake from the haze.
"Get up now!" The boom of his voice pushes me off the cliff and I fall as my eyes snap open. I find it hard to see with the sunlight striking my eyes but as the haze shifts, I see Deimos looking down at me frowning. His arms are folded as he stares with his hard gaze.
I shift up to a sitting position as the covers slip and pool down to my hips. With a sigh, I finally look up at him silently preparing for what is to come.
"Are you in hibernation of some sort? How is it you didn't wake up to the alarm or Elriam's calls? Do you think you are a princess that I have to come with my busy schedule to wake you up?" He questions me without a break.
I close my eyes as my head starts to throb. "To answer your questions, I haven't been sleeping properly. I have very disturbed sleep at night."
"Why is that?" He asks me. My anger spikes while my frustration burns. Because of you! Why must I suffer because of this male? To have this same dream every night while he sleeps peacefully. Why are my mind and body pushing me to the edge while his does absolutely nothing!
I look straight into his eyes controlling the words I wish to spew out of my mouth. "Nightmares." That is all I say as Deimos nods in understanding. I scoff for he understands nothing. Nothing of the torture I undergo every night for his choices.
I shift and fluid from my core slides down my thighs. This is the outcome of my dreams. My core is sore as if it actually was ravished last night. It's ready waiting for the pleasure he can give.
"I have not forgotten about their visit. I will be down before Alpha Rastas arrives." I say quickly rushing to the washroom. I do not wish for him to smell my want. He has made something mates find as seduction embarrassing for me. He makes me think I am weak.
I hear Deimos leave as I begin my morning activities. Looking at myself in the mirror pleased with the result I head down the stairs walking to the gates. I can sense the excitement of the unmated wolves and I smile encouraging them.
Striding at Deimos's right I do not meet his eyes but I feel the heat of his gaze taking in every part of my body. He shifts closer putting his nose into my neck. "You look beautiful." He says as he holds my hips and brings me into him inhaling my scent.
"Thank you." I say softly with a small smile moving away from him putting distance between us making him frown with my movement. It's not that I do not wish to be near him, I want to. To the point of desperation but lately, I feel all over the place with my dreams I am scared of what I would do.
But before he could question me the sound of the gates opening has our attention and we watch heads held high awaiting their arrival into the gates. Cars and trucks of wolves and resources ride through and I watch quietly.
As they come to a stop Deimos walks towards the polished black car. The door opens and a tall male along with a petite female exit. Deimos nods as a gesture of welcome and the tall male I presume is Alpha Rastus bows and smiles in return.
Alpha Rastus wears a tight white shirt that sticks to his body like a second skin and light blue jeans that encage the muscle of his thick thighs perfectly. His blonde hair is brushed back with gel giving the view of his perfect jawline. His female, on the other hand, looks like a juvenile. Quite petite with her brunette hair and thin lips. Her floral dress flows softly as she smiles in greeting.
I walk towards them as Deimos introduces me to them. "My Luna, Lumina." He says as Alpha Rastus nods in greeting and I meet with the blue of his eyes. He looks too beautiful to be a male. He turns to his female holding her to his side.
"My Luna, Eliana." He introduces her to us as I put my forehead upon hers. She stares at me with a soft smile but her eyes seem to speak words.
"Nice to meet you both." I speak.
"It's wonderful to meet you, Luna Lumina." They say bowing in reply.
We separate quickly as Luna Eliana and I move to the left near the tree and Deimos and Alpha Rastus move to the right across us engaging in their conversations as wolves from our pack and theirs mingle in groups in the middle.
"You are stunning." Luna Eliana says and I quickly turn to her.
"Thank you and so are you." I say smiling looking down at her. Such a petite female perhaps just five feet.
"No, I mean I have never seen such a tall beautiful female before. The females in my old pack are of my height so it's my first-time meeting one." She compliments me with her big doe eyes staring up at me.
I chuckle in response to her as her eyes take me in head to toe. "I heard you are an Alpha. The first female Alpha to have ever lived." She continues as I shift a little. My wolf begins to pace preparing for this tiny female's remarks.
"Yes, I am." Is all I say staring her down.
She bows softly. "I am humbled to be in your presence not because you are Alpha Deimos's mate but because of who you are." She says and my eyes widen. My wolf sits down abruptly stunned as if this female had just slapped us.
I once more put my forehead upon hers as a sign of acceptance from me. I look back at the males on the opposite side of us and they still seem to be deep in their conversation. But I am distracted as my nose picks up a smell. It is nothing but a small scent though it's different.
I look at her stomach and finally understand the source of it. "You are expecting." I say as she blushes nodding. I didn't even notice perhaps the different scents of wolves mingling overthrew hers.
"Congratulations." I say.
"Thank you." She replies softly looking at my stomach eagerly as if I would tell her, it is the same case for me. I wish I could but we live in different worlds I suppose.
"When did you meet your male?" I ask her as my eyes find Alpha Rastus again.
"Two months ago. We met by coincidence." She replies looking at him. Her gaze filled not with lust but... love. Something I long to possess from Deimos.
"When did you both mate?" I ask her as she turns to a deep red. My eyes find her freshly marked neck. No shame comes from me. This is a normal question among my females.
"The day we met." She whispers looking down at her feet as if it is something she has never told anyone. Jealousy burns and like a wildfire it destroys me completely from within. Anger and dislike towards my mate thunders and I wonder why.
Why must I suffer like this? When others can have their mates freely day and night why must I yearn for something that is my right? Questions strike deep within my heart pulling me into self-pity.
My eyes watch Alpha Rastus as he laughs to something Deimos said. His fingers slide through the softness of his hair that glows in the sunlight. His tongue darts out to lick his dry lower lip and I wonder again. Wonder what it would be like if he was my mate. If he were the male who was meant to be mine would he have taken me the second he saw me?
Alpha Rastus frowns looking around mid-conversation as his eyes find mine. He felt someone staring at him and now he has his answer. This stops the conversation and Deimos searches for where Alpha Rastus is looking until he finds me. Me staring at another male. With hunger.
Deimos's chest begins to heave as he walks towards without hesitation me in quick steps the wolves in the middle making way. Reaching me he asks Luna Eliana. "May I speak to my mate?" He questions her never leaving my eyes.
"Of course." She says gently and scurries off to her male as he gathers her in his arms kissing her forehead softly.
"That's enough, Lumina." Deimos warns.
"What's enough, Deimos?" I question him.
"You think I didn't notice the way you saw him from the minute he stepped into our territory! It disgusts me. It leaves a vile taste in my mouth." He says scrunching his nose as smelt or tasted or something bad.
"I do not know what you are talking about." I reply to his accusation but somehow my eyes land on the lovely couple opposite us once more.
"I said enough!" He commands me holding my wrist harshly in his big hands as I begin to tug it away. He tightens it and I flinch. "Don't make me punish you, Lumina." His eyes keep switching from pitch black to the green I love.
"How does it feel to burn with jealousy Deimos? This is how I burn when I see other mates!" I snarl my anger finally breaking free from its cage.
"I have had it with this! With you always demanding something from me!" His voice booms and I flinch away. He sometimes acts like what I ask of him is annoying and frustrating. Like I have asked him to bring me the stars. All I want is his heart!
My anger burns to the edge and I fight for dominance. My wolf pushing me giving me her strength. The Alpha within me soaring. I will bring blood first.
"I am the Alpha here! Do not do it, you will regret it." He growls. His canines pushing through his gums for he will make me bleed if I cross the line. He holds both my wrists in his grasp so I will not be able to strike him for he will return it.
I lean towards his ear. "You are no Alpha if you cannot do your female." I say as his body shakes with his control. His nose flares as his chest heaves.
"Stop it, Lumina." He says clenching his jaw tightly as his hold on my wrists tighten and his claws scrape my skin bringing blood. I bleed but I pay no heed to it. I want him to bleed. I will make him bleed with my words so he can feel my pain.
"You want to know the meaning of Alpha Rastus's name in Greek?" I ask him licking my upper teeth with a wicked smile on my face.
"It means 'the loving one'," I say and that was enough for my male to lose his control. He snarls grabbing me harshly and hoisting me upon his shoulder. I twist and turn upon him punching and scratching his back screaming for him to put me down. He takes me away from the field to the calmness of the castle grounds.
His steps are loud and harsh on the hardwood floors of our castle. He bangs the door to his room open and slams it with his leg. Dropping me harshly on the bed I bounce to regain my balance.
He removes his shirt quickly pulling his pants and boxers down. He bares himself as he stares at me his anger rising. "You want me to take you so badly. I have no problem with that, Lumina. I will grant your wish." He snarls as he pounces on me.
"Wait. Stop. Deimos!" I say. He tears my clothes off me leaving me naked shivering beneath him. But when his eyes look at me it's not the way he sees me. It's filled with a void coldness and lust. Nothing more. He doesn't touch me or make me feel good.
Holding my hips harshly he shifts me in one move so that I am on my hands and knees my ass facing him. "Deimos waits. I-." He doesn't let me finish as he thrusts two fingers into my core. It startles me and I get a bit scared. The pain and pleasure engulf me but fear plays the most part.
My lips begin to wobble as tears seep forth. I don't want this. Not this way. I turn my head around to look at and kiss him but he turns away from my lips pushing my head back on the pillow harshly. "I will take you the way I would have when I first met you." His voice holds the coldness of the first time we met.
His fingers continue their thrusts but I do not moan my pleasure as my heart feels empty. This feels empty. Holding my hips high up in the air he pumps his cock up and down and he brings it to my core. He fists my hair tightly tugging it from behind harshly.
I cannot see his face. I cannot hear his voice. I cannot see his soul for his eyes are behind me. There is no gentle or loving touch from him.
I feel like a whore. Tears break free as I feel the tip of his cock upon my entrance. I sob into the pillow as whimpers come from deep within me. My wolf hating the way our mate is treating us.
"Say it, Lumina." He says his voice now holds a tone of gentleness.
I sob more as tears leak continuously down my cheeks. I hiccup and choke on my tears as his touch now softens and soothes my skin as if comforting me.
"Say it!" He commands once more.
"I-I do not want this. I d-don't want to do it like t-this." I say the truth we both know in between sobs as he finally moves away and lets go of me.
The strength in my knees weaken and I fall onto the bed crying. My hair covering my face. I hear Deimos putting on his clothes and zipping up his jeans.
"You pushed me to do this, Lumina. I can take only so much from you. Perhaps now you understand." He says, his tone gentle but stern. He leaves the room closing the door as I curl into a ball and sob until my tears dry and hiccups come.
Getting up slowly I put on my clothes. Looking at the mirror my eyes are red and puffy as I wash them and put on some ice to reduce the swelling. I need to head back. It is my duty.
As I head back to the fields my females come to me knowing my distress but with a shake of my head, they stop in their tracks. My eyes search for Deimos and find him helping the juveniles. His eyes find mine but they quickly look away and never look back at me for the rest of the day.
At sundown, our meeting finally came to an end and we said our goodbyes to Alpha Rastus and Luna Eliana for we will see them again next year again as a sign of pack friendship. Several Alpha's and Luna's shall come this way to meet with Deimos and me just to show their loyalty, respect and obligation to him.
Deimos does not spare me a glance as he walks away to the castle. Taking a deep breath, I follow him like a lost pup without making any noise. He heads into his room and I hear the sound of water running. I change into the pair of nightdresses that I keep in his room.
I sit on his bed waiting for him to come out. It takes some time but the door finally opens and steam envelopes the room. He comes out with a towel wrapped around his waist. He knows of my presence but he still doesn't look at me as he opens the drawer taking out his boxers.
I slowly walk behind him and he flinches when I put my hands on his back. He doesn't move away giving me the sign that I can continue. My lips meet with the soft flesh of his back as I kiss up his spine slowly and gently.
My fingers wrap around his arms as I turn him towards me. He looks down at me as I lift my head and kiss his lips. A soft peck at first to see his response. He still stares at me making no movement. I lift my head once more but this time to devour his mouth. My lips mound onto his perfectly as I bite his lower lip softly sucking it. He grunts in response as I let out a soft deep moan.
He shifts his head to the other side so he can have more of my lips and he leans down further giving into me holding my hips bringing me into him. Raw passion. It is what we have at the moment as our mouths clash eagerly to taste the other. He bites into my cheek and his lips move down sucking and biting the nape of my neck.
"I am sorry." I whisper as he stops his ravishing and clenches his jaw. "I crossed the line and I shouldn't have done that despite our problems. I am sorry and I hope you can forgive me."
Deimos sighs as he holds my face softly looking deep into my eyes as his thumb slides across my cheekbone. "Did I hurt you, my female?" He asks me gently and I shake my head no smiling as he kisses my forehead softly.
I place my hand on his beating heart and I meet his eyes once more. He looks at me brushing my hair away from my face.
"Forgive me, my male." I whisper in the darkness of the night.