#25

“Your dad is going to hear about this and you know that he is going to scold you.” I was

silent all the time she was talking. The lawyer was beside me shaking his head because

He knew I was going to get a word from my father.

“Better come home this weekend because I need to understand why you keep getting in

so much trouble” Hanging up the phone in anger. No, I was so scared to go back home

because There will be a family meeting waiting for me.

I called Emma and told her what happened. She was so sad that she was the cause of all

my problems.

“I am so sorry. I don’t know how I can ever repay you.” She kept pleading over the phone.

“It’s all right, it’s all right” I kept saying, because of that point I really thought I could do

anything for her.

My mother called the driver to come pick me up and take me home. During that journey

home I was thinking of every excuse I could give to calm my mother down. She is going to

be on my neck the whole weekend .

“ I heard you got yourself into a situation with the police James, what's up with that?” the

driver asked.

“Well it was for a legit reason there is this girl yeah and she was in trouble so I wanted to

help her. I didn’t expect the police would get involved and it all went to shit”.

I was at the backseat thinking about everything I will say from when I get into the house

and see my mother.

When I got into the house Immediately We went to the stairs and ran into my room so to

avoid seeing my mother, maybe she would calm down before she came up to my room to

see me.

“Oh my God, I’m back in this hell hole”

Being at home always reminded me of my family issues and how things are not going well

at all. Basically, my family came together whenever they wanted to scold me for doing

something wrong. That is the most time I see my dad with my mother. I guess sometimes I

make enough trouble so I could get them together in the same space, maybe Those are

reasons to solve their issues.

Within minutes of laying down on my bed my phone rang. Emma was calling me on the

phone.

I picked up the phone and answered the call.

“Hey what’s up…Emma” taking deep breaths. my mind was racing. I couldn't keep my

thoughts under control. I guess I was still that scared kid as usual. All he just wanted was

his parents to love him and also wanted the love of a woman. Is that something so hard to

ask for? I ask myself this every single time.

Yes, at this point I am very frustrated. I found love but it came with so many hurdles.

“Are you alright still? because I know you would get in trouble with your parents”

“When you get the response from your father and mother let me know,” she said with a

worried tone in her voice.

“OK, I’ve heard you… there is no need to worry I’ll be fine” I was not concentrating on her

words again I was just thinking of how I’m going to be yelled at.

That evening my mother came back home. I could yeah yelling from downstairs. “Where is

James? Where is James? That boy is going to give me a heart attack” Her voice was

getting closer to my door from the staircase. I could swear my heart wanted to jump out of

my chest.

“Open the door, James!”

Oh, it was so obvious she was so angry with me.

“Come and open the door”

She was hitting the door so hard. She could knock the door down if she had to.

I ran so fast to the door. As I opened the door she was right in front of me. She pushed me

with two of her fingers. I almost fell on my back.

“What’s your problem James, do you want to raise my blood pressure?” She was standing

holding her waist, pointing her phone at me. She was so furious her face looked so red like

it was going to blow up. I just sat on my bed in silence crossing my arms.

“ What is your problem? I sent you to school to get a degree and you ended up in prison.”

Now she is breathing heavily Staring at me in disappointment. I could not Look her in the

eyes. Because I knew how much trouble I got myself into.

“Every time you get in trouble you have to bail out every time you give me headaches…

One day will not be there to help you with all this trouble you cause for yourself ”

I continued being silent because I did not know what to say.

“Ma is not like that” pausing to see if she had calmed down a bit and maybe I could get

some words in.

“What is it like then?… tell me try and make me understand cause I don’t know if you’re

doing drugs now”

“ you know this was a drug case” she emphasised, “when the lawyer called me and told

me everything the police said.”

I was physically stuck in one position sitting for a long while getting the advice of my life.

“What do you have to say for yourself?” she kept asking.

“I… I… I am sorry I did it for a friend she needs is my help she needed protection ” I tried

explaining and reasoning with her to understand my side of the story

“What if you died, how do you want me to feel? what if you got shot by someone or

kidnapped or something? You don’t seem to consider All this every time”

I was silent and embarrassed because I put them through a lot of worries.

“OK I’m calm now, please explain to me why you made such a reckless decision.”

I could not say anything because I was scared I would get yelled at if my reasons were

stupid.

I had made bad decisions in my life and just felt very stupid.

“Come on” she shouted

“I…I was trying to protect someone that I am seeing. She is my girlfriend.” She stared at

me shocked, that's the reason why I decided to be involved in this situation.

“So because of a girl I want to throw your life away” it looked up at Ceiling crying. she

started laughing mockingly and scarily.

“You are lucky this didn’t reach the news” she paused, looking like she was lost in her

thoughts right now.

“This would’ve hurt your dad's business. Imagine customers and partners finding out for he

is the father of a drug dealer”

Exaggerating the whole situation.

“I am not a drug dealer mom” I replied, rolling my eyes.

“Don’t roll your eyes at me” she hits me at the back of my head with her hands

“ I need to meet this girl that is making you go through all this trouble for her”

“OK mom”

I smiled because her anger towards me had calmed down. Trying to soften her heart

further with a face so bashful she couldn’t resist.

“I’m still angry at you James, don't smile at me” I tried hugging it out with her.

“You know our dad is coming to yell at you right and this time I can’t help you” no she

decided to stand up and use my room.

“Try and not get in trouble next time. when you see trouble walk the other way” she shakes

her head as she walks out of the room.

Now my mind can get a little bit of rest before dad Comes home.

I try to sleep all the worries in my mind away. When I get to dinner I will not be able to look

my dad in the eye.