Chapter 39 CHATER THIRTY-NINE
CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
ZARIA’S POV
The journey to Crescent Pack took an hour or more, my carriage was already in front of Ethan's house but I couldn't bring myself to step down.
I had hurt him really bad, and I didn't want to mess things up this time around, especially in this kind of situation.
“It would be fine,” Elara reassured, as she tapped my knees slowly.
I had to bring her along for moral support, I know facing Ethan would be very difficult.
“I hope so” I huffed.
I inhaled deeply before stepping out of the carriage and walking towards his house.
This would be the third time I had ever been to his house, which makes me a bad best friend, but I'm not to blame, we don't belong to the same pack.
I lifted my hands to knock when I heard suspicious whispers, I leaned closer to the door and placed my right ear on it, to hear him clearly.
I hate eavesdropping, but it doesn't feel wrong, probably because Ethan was always eavesdropping in most of my conversations.
“You have to push your love for her aside and focus on why you are in the moonshadow pack!” I heard a feminine voice sneer.
That must be his aunt, Ethan lost his mother when he was eight, that was one of the things we had in common.
“I wish I could, seeing her with him always makes me jealous, no matter how I try to control myself” Ethan replied, rather too quickly.
They were having a discussion about me, Ethan’s voice was filled with hurt and I hate it, because it was all my fault.
“She should be the least of your problems, Ethan!” His aunt yelled. “You can't sabotage what we have been planning for years all because of a girl. Focus on what keeps you going to Moonshadow!”
I got confused a bit, his aunt likes speaking in parables, what else would bring Ethan to Moonshadow pack if not college?
I shoved the thought off and continued listening to Ethan’s conversation, waiting to hear him say he had forgiven me a long time ago.
“Someone is listening,” his aunt said, and I gasped immediately after. How the fuck did she know?
Just as I was about to leave, Ethan pushed the door open, forcing me to enter his living room.
Fuck! I felt embarrassed, I couldn't look at their faces, but I knew questions were in their eyes.
“What did you hear?” his aunt asked, and I raised my head for the first time since I entered his living room.
Disgust filled my face immediately, his aunt is the red-haired bastard that Max might have hooked up with, she had a half-smoked cigarette at the corners of her red lips.
I had never seen his aunt before, because the two times I visited him, she was nowhere to be found.
I had to act like seeing her and Max together had no effect on me, I can't give them the satisfaction of seeing me affected.
“I just heard you telling Ethan to focus on what he keeps coming to Moonshadow Pack” I shrugged, acting nonchalant.
“What do you think his reason for going to Moonshadow pack is?” she asked, squashing the cigarette on the floor, as she sprayed smoke in the air.
“College of course” I rolled my eyes.
“No dear, you are wrong” She scoffed. “You are his reason”
“What?” I huffed, searching his eyes, for an answer that wasn't there.
“I would leave you to sort your shit out,” she said, staring out the window.
With that, she waved Ethan goodbye and left us alone.
We stared at each other in silence, waiting for who to speak first.
“I am sorry” We said simultaneously, earning a nervous chuckle from me.
“I am sorry for choosing Max over you, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I hate myself every day for making you feel bad” I said in haste before he could cut me short.
His smile began to fade, until he wore a frown. I didn't even know what I did or said wrong, but my panic level increased.
“Is this because he treated you like shit!” He clenched his jaw. “I thought you came here because you actually missed me”
I did miss him, it took me a heartbreak from Max to discover that Ethan meant a lot to me, and I regret it.
“This has nothing to do with Max, I'm here Ethan, aren't I?” I heaved deeply, walking closer to me.
Soon when we were closer enough, I cupped his face, waiting patiently for his reply.
“I am sorry too, if he makes you happy then I'm happy too” He shrugged giving me a weak smile.
The heartache that I had been feeling since he walked out on me had subsided.
“I don't want anything to do with him, once this trial marriage is over, I will choose you” I said, without thinking.
I may not love Ethan nor feel any connection with him, but I respect him and care for him, while he loved me, cared for me, and respected me. His love is enough for both of us.
“You don't mean that, he has a mark on you, Zaria” Ethan huffed, pulling off the scarf I used to cover the mark.
“Does the mark bother you that much?” I gulped hard, staring at the floor.
“Fuck no, I love you with or without the mark” He replied to my question, making me smile. “But I'm not sure if you are really into this or if this is just some payback to Max for breaking your heart.”
“What?” I scoffed. “That's ridiculous, I would never do anything to hurt you. Not again”
His silence made it clear that he wasn't convinced about my explanation, and I understood.
“Max and I are in the past. I made a mistake choosing him, even when I saw the dangers in it” I added. “I am making this decision because I want to, this has nothing to do with Max”
He curved his lips into a sexy smile and kissed my palms softly.
“Prove it” He chuckled, drawing me closer.
“How?” I shrugged.
“By kissing me” He said, giving me a cute puppy face.
“Fine” I giggled, as I tiptoed.
As our lips were about to meet, but I resisted, turning my head sideways.
Why the fuck can't I kiss him?