Chapter 44 Logan needs Luna
Flo was waiting for Logan at his office. Logan groaned when he saw his mother sitting at his desk. He turned the lights back out and tried to back away, but she flipped the light on that sat on his desk.
“Logan, we need to talk,” she said. “Have a seat.”
Logan felt like he was a child being scolded by his mother. Flo had the stern, motherly look. It was more than that, though, she was also acting as Luna. The Luna’s job was to be honest with the Alpha and keep him in line. Normally, Alpha and Luna pairs were mated. Logan had gotten away with not doing that because his mother had outlived his father. “Not now, please,” he said shaking his head. “Logan, sit down,” Flo insisted, pointing to the chair across the desk from her. Logan sighed, moving to the chair and plopping down heavily. He wasn’t used to being on this side of the desk.
Flo had been in that office countless times when his father was alive. She had been much more hands off since his father had passed. Logan knew he could count on her to be Luna when needed. She looked like she belonged behind the desk, and Logan imagined that his father had sat in the same chair he was sitting many times, confronted by Flo. “Okay, what is so important?” he asked. “I heard about Holly,” Flo said. Logan scoffed, dropping his head back on his neck. “Of course, she is just so eager to tell anyone that will listen,” he muttered. Flo sighed. “You need to take this seriously,” she said. “Holly is pregnant with your child. You’ve been Alpha for years no and haven’t declared a mate or a Luna.”
“You‘re Luna, remember?” he asked, looking up at her. Flo glared at her son harshly.
“I don’t want to be anymore,” she admitted. “I was Luna to your father for years. I loved being by his side, but it shouldn’t be my responsibility now. You need to find a mate and make her Luna.” “If you‘re suggesting I make Holly Luna… he trailed off. “You‘ve been together a long time. She is carrying your child. She comes from and Alpha bloodline. Is there a problem?” Flo asked. “I don’t think she is my
mate,” Logan admitted. Flo sighed and shook her head. “I’m sorry to be so forward, Logan, but the time has come to have a Luna, other than me,” she said, “If you had found your mate, I would be overjoyed. Unfortunately,
Alphas have to do what is right for the pack.” “I know, mom, I get it,” Logan said, crossing his arms and pouting like a scolded child. Flo laughed
“Honey, I don’t want you to give up on finding your mate,” she said. “But the pack needs a Luna. What if you never find her?” Logan shook his head. He didn’t want to think about that “I thought I did,” he admitted. “I thought I smelled her a while back, under the light of a full moon.” Flo looked thoughtful. “Did you ever manage to track her down?” she asked. “No,” Logan said moodily. “I don’t know, it was inconclusive.” “Inconclusive how?” Flo asked, amusement dancing in her eyes. Logan sighed, sliding further down in his chair. Discussing these things with his mother was not ideal. She wasn’t there as his mother though, she was there as Luna. “In wolf form, i smelled someone so…intoxicating, but I never found her,” he said. “I couldn’t tell if it was because it was a new smell that made it so delicious or because she was my mate. I couldn’t get it out of my head for days though.” “And you haven’t smelled it since?” Flo asked. Logan shrugged. He hadn’t. At least, not that he was sure of. He had thought he smelled traces of it on Serena’s hair, but it was so soon after the initial encounter, he’d been smelling it everywhere he went. Besides, she’d never done anything to show she smelled something about him. She was dating his Beta! “No, I haven’t. So, then there is the possibility I’m just crazy and imagined it,” he said. Flo shook her head.
“You’re my son, you aren’t crazy,” she assured. She stood up and walked around the desk, leaning back on the desk for support but remaining in front of her son. “Holly is so convinced we are mates, but I’m not, so I’ve been stalling,” he admitted. “Like I don’t know that,” his mother teased. “She clearly loves you. And I know you care about her, even love her. Why not make it official?” Logan snarled. He stood up and walked away from his mother, standing in the corner of his office with his arms crossed. “Can’t you step down without me finding a new Luna?” he asked. “I get it, you’ve been doing this a long
time. First with your mate, now with your son. I’m sure you want a break.” “I want a break, I want to be a grandmother, and I want to see you happy,” she said. “I want to see our family line continue.” “That’s a lot of pressure to put on me, mother,” Logan scoffed. “When you became mated to my father, you also accepted a certain responsibility to the pack. Now you have to fulfill it until the time comes when it isn’t needed.” Flo sighed. Logan glanced back to see her looking at the floor, her shoulders having sagged. She looked old suddenly. She wasn’t the young, energetic Luna he had always seen her as. His mother was aging, she was losing her strength. She needed a rest
“I’m sorry, mother,” he said, walking back to her and taking her hands. “That was harsh of me.”
“Logan, I know you had to become Alpha young, and the loss of your father wasn’t easy on either of us,” she said. “You had to begin your life as Alpha and take on so many responsibilities for a young wolf. It wasn’t fair.” “I did what I had to,” he said. “Yes, and once again, as much as it pains me to say it, you have to do what is needed again,” she said, putting her hand on his cheek. “You can’t wait around for your mate forever.” Logan sighed heavily, shaking his head. “I don’t know if I’m ready to give up yet,” he admitted. “I don’t know if I’m ready to be mated to someone forever.” “I get it,” Flo said. “You had to grow up fast. And time to be who you want to be and live your life your way is not a luxury that is afforded to an Alpha.” “You’re right,” he said, placing his hand over his mother’s. He gently pulled her hand from his face. “I’ll think about it.” Flo nodded and left him to his thoughts. Logan sat at his desk. He leaned back, closing his eyes to digest his thoughts. He’d been selfish, keeping his mother on as Luna when she was ready to step down. In the beginning, it had made sense. He was so young he’d needed an experienced hand to help him. Now, he knew what he was doing and he could carry on without her.
Still, he wasn’t ready to give up on finding his mate. Not when he was nearly convinced he’d smelled her recently and he was determined to find her! Even if just to smell her again. He thought back to the night. How close she had been to him! He shouldn’t have just walked away, he should have tracked her to the ends of the earth. Even his memory of her scent made him salivate.
There was no way he could accept Holly as his mate when he knew his real mate was still out there. But Holly was pregnant with his child. It wasn’t right to cast her aside now. He had a responsibility to her and to their unborn child. There was a part of him that hoped it wasn’t true. He was going to get her medical records to confirm she was pregnant. Until then, he had no idea what he was supposed to do. Being Alpha was pulling him none direction. The direction of the wellbeing of the pack. That was his duty, one he had never faltered in since accepting the role so young. As much as he wanted to provide for the pack, he thought that he was deserving of the change to find his mate. It was the one thing left that wasn’t dictated by him being Alpha. He’d already given up so much to fulfill that, he really wanted the chance at happiness with this one part of his life. He wanted one thing that really was his, not a duty to his pack.
If he accepted Holly as his mate, that would be fulfilling his duty to the pack. If he looked for his own mate, that would be for his own pleasure and happiness. He was being pulled in both directions, his loyalty and devotion to the pack so strong, just as strong as his desire to find his true mate!