Chapter 124 To be Luna
Still unsure of whether or not she had what it took to be Luna, Serena decided to speak to Flo about it. While the kids were at daycare and Logan was at his office, she went over to Logan’s house to have lunch and tea with Flo. “Come in, please,” Flo said opening her front door. “I’m sorry to drop in so suddenly,” Serena said. Flo shook her head. “Not at all,” she said. “You’re always welcome.” “I was hoping we could have lunch together and catch up,” Serena offered, holding up the bag with sandwiches she had brought over. “That sounds lovely. Would you like some tea? I can put on a pot,” Flo offered. “Yes, please,” Serena said. She followed the Luna into the kitchen and got some plates, remembering where everything was from her stay there. While Flo put on the tea water and got mugs, Serena set up plates with their sandwiches.
“I appreciate you coming by to catch up, but I am sensing there is more going on that what you’ve let on,” she said. Serena giggled nervously. “How do you do that?” she asked. “Between being a mother and being Luna, not much gets past me,” Flo said with a laugh.
The tea kettle was whistling, so she took it from the stove and poured the water into the mugs. She sat across from Serena at the table, handing one of the steaming mugs over. “So, what is on your mind, darling?” Flo asked. “If it is about Logan, you know I am a little biased.” Serena smiled. “I know. It isn’t about Logan,” she said. “It is about me, me and my possible futures.” “Your possible future?” Flo asked, biting into her sandwich. “If Logan and I continue to see each other and get more serious, which seems to be the direction we are going in, then I am going to be Luna someday,” Serena said. “Why should that concern you?” Flo asked. “Your mother is a Luna and your father is Alpha. You have a great bloodline and already know everything you need to be a good Luna.”
“I do?” Serena asked. Flo chuckled and nodded.
“Sweetie, I have seen you with the pack, how you run the hospital, with your kids…” she trailed off.
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Chapter 125 To be Luna handled herself professionally. “That is what everyone keeps saying,” she muttered, sipping her tea. Flo munched on her sandwich for a moment.
“You don’t believe them?” she asked after swallowing. Serena sighed, shaking her head.
“I don’t know,” she admitted. “There is just something that I can’t put my finger on about being Luna that has me anxious.” “And you want me to tell you my thoughts on being Luna?” Flo asked. “Were you ever nervous about it?” Serena asked. Flo smiled.
“I was,” she admitted. “I was terrified that the pack wouldn’t accept me, that I would do something wrong, that I wouldn’t be able to stand up to my mate.” “I already know I can stand up to Logan,” Serena said with a laugh. “The pack already accepts you,” Flo reminded her. “How did you overcome it?” she asked. Flo sighed, sipping her tea. “I don’t know if I ever did,” she said. “Even now, I wonder if I could be doing things differently. During the war with Moonshine, I felt like I wasn’t doing enough, I was constantly second guessing whether or not there was more the pack needed from
me”
“That isn’t exactly helpful,” Serena pointed out. Flo chuckled, grinning across the table at Serena. “I’m sorry I can’t be more helpful,” she said. “Being Luna is an incredible honor, but it is also a full-time job. The pack becomes everything to you. The same as it is to Logan in his position as Alpha. It can be complicated at times, especially with a family.” “Thank you for being honest,” Serena said. Flo reached across the table and took her hand. “Everything I know about you tells me you’d be a great Luna,” Flo assured. “I hope your concerns on that aren’t what is holding you back from going all in with my son.” Serena shook her head. “No, not at all,” she assured. “Thank you for having lunch with me.” Serena departed. Flo hadn’t given her the answers she wanted, but she had given her more to think about. There was one other Luna that Serena could call and get insight from. While she walked home, she
pulled out her phone and called her mother. “Serena, it has been a while. How are you, how are the twins?” Charlotte asked. “Hi, mom,” Serena said. “I’m fine, they are fine. Everything here is good.” “Good. What can I do for you?” Charlotte asked. “I wanted to ask you about being Luna” Serena said “Logan and I have been nottino To be Luna closer, and a relationship with him comes with Luna strings attached to it.” Charlotte laughed into the phone. “What do you want to know?” she asked. “Did you ever have doubts or insecurities?” Serena asked.
“Oh, all the time,” Charlotte said. “That isn’t what is bothering you, though. You are confident and a natural born leader.”
Serena’s heart swelled in her chest. She couldn’t remember ever getting such praise from her mother. It warmed her fully and gave her a new feeling of confidence “Then what is bothering me?” Serena asked. “Honestly, I’m surprised you didn’t figure it out, you of all people,” Charlotte teased her. Serena groaned, her warm glow fading quickly. “Come on, mom, don’t drag this out,” Serena said. “Alright, darling, the reason you are having doubts is because of how independent you
are,” Charlotte said.
Serena took a moment to think about what her mother said. Flo had said that being Luna could be complicated because of the responsibility to the pack, balancing that with family. Serena already had kids. She understood Logan’s responsibility to the pack and she’d always accepted it and respected it.
Knowing that as Luna, she’d have to give so much of herself in the pack, she knew
she’d have to give up some of her independence. “Serena, you’re my daughter, and I love you. You’ve always been independent, though,” Charlotte spoke again. “Even before you lived as a human and became so self-reliant, you always wanted to do things your way. There is nothing wrong with that, but as Luna, sometimes you have to rely on others, and you have strong ties to the pack that you can’t just walk away from. That terrifies you.” “Yea, it does a little bit,” Serena admitted. “It is scary for all of us,”
Charlotte admitted. “Having a pack, a mate, a career, and a family to juggle…that is why most Luna’s don’t have another profession. You know that, and you know you don’t want to give up your career in medicine.”
Once again, her mother had hit the nail on the head. Serena had worked so hard to become a doctor and have a professional career. She didn’t think she’d be able to balance that with being Luna. How could she give up something she’d worked so hard for?
“What should I do?” Serena asked her mother. . “You’ll have to figure that out on your own, love,” Charlotte said. “But the truth is, Serena, if anyone can balance all of that, you can. Being a doctor and being Luna might have a lot of overlap, caring for the needs of the pack and their medical care.” “That’s a good point,” Serena said feeling a little more optimistic. “I know you’ve worked hard for your career,” Charlotte elaborated. “If you can’t make it work alongside being Luna, that doesn’t mean you’ve failed. Sometimes when one thing doesn’t work out, what you get instead is something better.” Serena sighed. Her mother’s words were making a lot of sense. It helped her think through her fears and concerns much more than her conversation with Flo. “Thank you, mom, I have a lot to think about now,” Serena said. She said her goodbyes to Charlotte and finished her walk back to the house. Her mother had known her concerns and fears before she had. It was refreshing to hear someone else tell her what she was thinking and feeling.
Now, she just had to figure out if she was willing to make that sacrifice. If she chose her career over Luna, she’d have to give up Logan, breaking up her family. If she chose being Luna over her career, she’d have her family but she’d lose something she worked so hard for.
Serena sighed. She didn’t need to make any snap decisions. She had time to weigh her options. Logan hadn’t made any indication that he wanted her to be Luna someday, even though it was silently implied if their relationship progressed. Until she was in the position to decide, she vowed that she would attempt to balance things as best she could.