A Lust For The Hated Alpha

When we arrived at the house, Lenalee almost dropped the tray of the tea set before she looked back at the direction of the tea room and at me. I could only give her a weak smile and I had a mental note to myself to fill her in the details as soon as we were alone for a chat.

"You may leave early."

Confused with his words, Lenalee didn't have the time to speak as Varick pulled me away and headed to the bedroom.

When the door was closed, Varick shoved me to the door, making me gasp, flinching with a slight sting of the impact.

Next thing I knew, soft lips devoured mine as my eyes widened at the sudden affection.

"W-wait!" I tried to pull myself from the kiss but he held my head, trapping me between the door surface and his body as his tongue entered into my mouth, exploring its cavern.

I unintentionally released a moan as he enticed my tongue to another dance but instead he deepened the kiss as he sucked my tongue with his mouth.

"Hng!" I wrapped my arms in an embrace after feeling the strange sensation I felt from his action but he pulled me to him, our bodies pressed tight as I felt the coldness of the metallic rust of his armor.

His hands snaked below and went under my dress as he caressed my skin, making me engulfed with the heat once more. He, then, lifted my thighs up in the air, without breaking our kiss.

My legs unconsciously locked like a knot around his waist as he carried me to bed.

When I was dropped on bed, my eyes filled with lust, stared at him as he pulled out, leaving a trail of saliva before it dissipated. Then, he started removing the heavy armor as he swiftly pulled it off over his head.

This moment of release snapped me back to reality as I grabbed his shoulder.

"W-wait…"

I prevented him from removing his chain mail and I slowly raised my upper body up.

"A-are you mad, Varick?"

"Do you want me to be mad?" He challenged me.

"N-no!" I waved my hands in refusal. My cheeks flared up from the intense feeling of his tongue inside of my mouth but I need to calm down and…

….talk to him.

"Can we talk first?" I was just testing the waters from this statement. "We have all evening for the intercourse so I just want to ask because…I am confused."

If Phineas did teach him not to stress me out, then I would take advantage of it.

However, Varick's expression darkened and I could see that he wouldn't like breaking off the foreplay midway.

His fists clenched tight and maybe I was wrong for angering him.

I flinched, shutting my eyes tight before he would hit me.

"It better not waste my time, church maid." He tossed himself on the side of the bed next to me.

His arm raised behind his head as he lied there comfortably.

"Well?"

Okay, I sighed in relief that Phineas indeed saved me from his savagery.

But I had so many questions that my husband was like an unknown scripture that needed to be deciphered.

"First of all, why did you decide to execute that woman, Jerri?" I asked. "If anything, she shared the same ideals as you and wished something greater for the pack."

"It was without doubt that she was the cause of your actions. Anyone against the luna is severely punished even if you are a Hatiist follower."

"But she didn't cause me to break down, you did." I immediately clasped my mouth after releasing those words.

I really needed to stop speaking so carelessly.

He raised his upper body to meet me at eye's length.

"I have noticed this lately but you were acting less like a nun and more outspoken than I gave credit to." He ruffled his dark hair. "Perhaps that was the reason I had forgotten that you were a Hatiist nun."

That was because any mention of Hati would anger him. The worst thing that happened to me was my meeting with Kozart when I thought he could kill me.

But now, I have another question.

"Varick, d-do you still detest me?"

"Do you?"

I stared at him for a moment, reflecting his past behavior.

I nodded.

After all, despite him trying his best, it was harder to forgive someone so easily.

Yet, at the same time, I couldn't help but to sympathize with him for the impending death the prophecy gave him.

"Then, we have something in common," he said, giving a wicked grin as he cupped my chin.

"I hate your group, the Hatiist cult for the sole reason of causing the start of this war. That being born in this pack was more a curse than a blessing."

"Even seeing you boils me with anger…" Then he started caressing my cheek as he leaned as our foreheads pressed.

"...yet, why is it that my anger and disgust disappeared last night when I held you more than once?"

I shivered as his finger trailed on my lips as he played it with his gentle touch.

"Is it truly because you are my mate?"

I nodded, yet his finger continued to distract my way of thinking.

His fingers moved down, trailing to my neck as I shivered at this heated touch and he cupped my right breast.

"Or is it because seeing you riled up with pleasure made it enjoyable for me?"

I didn't expect Varick to enjoy such things when he blatantly said he hated intercourse.

He fondled my breast from the cloth and I lowered my head to lay on his shoulder.

"Or is it because sex wasn't bad if we both wanted it?"

I looked at him with teary lustful eyes as I gripped his chainmail. A thought came to my mind.

He was clearly teasing me and seeing his eyes never stopped looking at my expression, I knew he enticed me for a session.

He let go as he smirked, "So, Rosaria…do you still want to get the same pleasure last night from the same man you detested?"

The heat between my legs continued to throb and I was at his mercy.

At the back of my mind, it would be more reasonable to experience this lust and humiliation than to experience the pain I had to endure from those past weeks.

So, I nodded.

"T-this is for the sake of giving you a child," I said as I started undressing.

"I thought the same thing, Rosaria." He pulled the dress out and tossed it on the floor. Then, he made me drop on the bed as he started removing his armor.

"Now that I have you for myself. I won't let you sleep tonight."

My heart raced and I knew this was wrong. So wrong to find pleasure from this.

As he gave me a passionate kiss and I reciprocated, I knew lust had overtaken my reasoning.

Hati, forgive me for my sins as I will be drowned with carnal desires.

But all of these was because of my duty as the Luna of the Skollist pack.