Chapter 64 Just an Omega
ZORA
When I entered my room, Courtney was waiting for me.
I collapsed on the bed and pulled her close to me in a hug.
"Gosh, I missed you so much." I whispered in her hair.
"I thought I was never going to see you." She murmured back, holding me tight.
"I'm here and I'm going to protect you guys. I won't let that connard hurt you."
"Seeing your abductor up close, he's too devilishly handsome to be called an asshole."
I broke the hug, "I call him connard."
"A sweeter name for asshole." She wriggled her brows.
I rolled my eyes and sat up, pulling a pillow to me.
"Thank you." I told her sincerely, "For taking care of them and never giving up on me."
She scoffed, "I don't need your thanks, I need all the deets!! First, are you sure I'm safe? I'm literally the only human here."
"I promise, you are fine. Just to have enough leverage on me, the connard will protect you."
She nodded, "So tell me all about what has happened. "
I took a deep breath and told her everything.
From the abduction to the mind reading to the bond, skipping only the graphic details of what we've done.
"Tell me you read all that from a novel."
I groaned and plopped myself down on the bed, "I wish that was the case."
"So both of you are exclusive?"
"No!" I answered sharply, "Not really. I mean, I've not agreed to the mating bond."
"What if you agree, like say yes, do you think that might help with the bond's cravings?"
Actually....
How come I've never thought of that.
But that would mean being stuck with him forever. I don't want that. Not when I can with the person who has stayed with me through thick and thin.
"No." I shook my head, "It's not going to work. We hate each other, and I'm not going to spend the rest of my life with my enemy. "
"He's the father of...." I hurriedly clamped a hand over her mouth.
"Don't complete that sentence."
"Don't you think it's good if you let him know?"
"I shook my head. He's a beast. What if he doesn't like it and ends up killing them?"
"What father wouldn't like his children?"
"I think he killed the former Luna, and now, I have her following me everywhere in my dream."
"But..." Courtney protested.
I frowned at her, "since when did you become team Ryker?"
She scoffed and stood up, "I'm just trying to be logical here. Tomorrow is a new day. We can catch up then. I need to rest. The journey here was tedious."
I pulled her into a half hug, "I understand. Sleep well."
She nodded and made to leave, then stopped at the entrance, "Your family. Have you gone to see them?"
Right, I didn't say anything about them.
I can just tell the truth about them,instead, why do I feel a deep sense of shame?
I smiled at Courtney when I realized she was still waiting for my response.
I shrugged, "Can we not talk about them please?"
I bobbed her head and flashed me a toothy smile, "How do you feel if you wake up tomorrow and hear I've turned??"
"I kill whomever does that to you." I said deadpanned.
She chuckled and waved me off, "Byee."
After she left, the room was silent and almost deafening.
The bond chose that as the perfect time to churn with need.
I wanted ‐the bond wanted to be with Ryker, to hug him, to smell him, be engulfed with his scent.
Cold sweat broke out on my forehead as I squirmed on my bed, trying to fight off the feeling. No way in heck am I going to meet Ryker.
Maybe just seeing him would do?
No, No, the bond wouldn't let it rest at that. It might take control again.
Pain exploded in every part of my body.
I stood up mechanically and went outside, only one place in mind. His room.
He wasn't where when I entered.
I sighed in relief even though the bond wasn't pleased.
I laid on his bed instead, basking in his scent.
That seemed to calm the bond a bit
The instant I stood up, however, the need and cravings for him hit me with full force, knocking me off my feet.
I noticed his underwear on the floor near the foot of the bed.
The smell wafted to my nose. It wasn't washed or a new set.
The bond was elated!! Happy!! Especially when I took a sniff.
Gross, I know, ‐maybe but it was calming.
I hid the underwear under the shirt of my night wear, rummaged through the laundry basket for a couple more, and bolted out of his room.
Sure, taking a sniff out of his used underwear was better than making out or sex.
I slept peacefully than I ever have in my entire life, holding Ryker's underwear close to my nose.
It was intoxicating and refreshing!
Soon, one boxer wasn't enough anymore.
Not even two was.
I needed more. The bond needed more.
The pull gets stronger every day.
I couldn't even concentrate with my children or even Courtney.
I lock myself up in my room and go out to steakhus boxers when he's not in the room.
I have a full basket of his underwear. My room no doubt smells like him. Still, it's not enough.
I realized in a chilling truth that I made a mistake, thinking his underwear could quench the desire or thirst for him.
Goddess!! I've never been so wrong in my entire life.
It's all because of this bond!!
Not even wearing it was enough.
The servants are talking now.
I can't stay with my children for long because my eye colour changes were getting more frequent.
Usually, a blazing red, which I've come to realize is for desire.
I've not seen Ryker for a while, so going to meet him and asking for— wasn't possible.
How would I cope when the heat season was just three days away.
How do I cope?
After all, I'm just an Omega.