Helpless

F I A

"D," I was shocked by the voice I heard.

I couldn't even turn around because even though I had my back turned, I knew exactly who spoke.

I can still remember the day I first saw it. The day he accused me of being a slut. A poor woman who doesn't deserve to be his mate. Since then, all my memories have come back. But I realized that he didn't recognize me or even remember me. Maybe he forgot about me because I'm not important.

I'm the only female trainer.

"I-I didn't know?" It surprised me, so I faced his behaviour completely.

There, I could see confusion in his eyes, and it was even pulled out of his hair.

"What do you mean? I don't understand what you're saying." I coldly promised that he shook his head.

"I can remember now! You are D, you are my mate...I killed---"

I didn't finish speaking because anger immediately hissed in my heart.

"You killed my parents." I laughed and brushed my hair. I couldn't even look it in the eyes because I might kill it instantly.

And yes,

Maybe this is the time I've been waiting for. Looks like I don't need to plan anymore. He is coming closer now.

I cannot risk letting him escape today! I need to kill him! He already knew, so what's the point of me hiding?

Now that I can see his memories are back.

I pulled out a dagger hidden in a belt tied around my thigh and played with it with my finger.

Oh, how I wish his blood would stain my skin.

"I didn't m-mean to--" I didn't finish it again.

"You didn't mean to stab their chest? Oh, poor you, my king. Didn't you mean to tell your father where we live? Didn't you mean to let my father die by your hand? Also, You killed them and betrayed me! You made me believe that you are ready to protect me! You are a monster just like your father's darkness." He stepped closer to me, but I raised my right hand to tell him to stop and not think about what he wanted to do.

He immediately stopped, and his mouth opened and closed as if he wanted to say something, but it ended in nothing, and I only saw tears flowing from his eyes.

"I won't do that, D. I am your mate! I will prioritize your safety before my safety. You just don't know what I went through. If I only knew. I wish I would have... I wish I had believed my mother... But I hope you listen to me first, D; I didn't even know what I should do then." I shook my head and then looked up.

My safety? Is he stupid?

He chose to sacrifice us! I see how my father holds his hands.

My father made him look beautiful, but I didn't even see the eyes of the monstrous man in front of me with pity.

He killed them without sympathy.

"Now you are calling me your mate! Funny hearing that! Didn't you reject me before? You rejected me, my king? You accused me that I am a slut! Don't you even know what hardships I went through? I was forced to do that just to live! And now, are you ready to kiss my feet? Because you need a mate?" It's no secret that I know that it will only take a little time for it to become a feral.

"Oh, I remember now, you're about to become feral, right? Without your mate, you will lose everything." Someone woke up, I said, and then I came to him and touched his cheek before going through his neck with the dagger, which caused him to have a wound there.

It was small, but I smiled when I saw the blood gushing from there.

"H-how---" It was confused how I knew, so I grinned and moved away from it a little.

"I am just around your kingdom, my king. Let me introduce myself. I am Fia. I was once a prostitute, a healer walking on your corridor. It's funny seeing your face after thinking that a man is your second mate. Oh dear! And today! I am using the name Louise in the person of an assassin, but I don't plan on killing you." I licked off the blood on my dagger and smiled when I tasted the sweetness of its blood.

Oh, how sweet.

It feels good to be free.

When I look back, I see the change in the colour of its eyes.

The emotions in his eyes are mixed, and he is fighting the urge to let his wolf resurface.

"I love playing with your feelings. Does it feel good to be played with? Does it feel good to look like a fool?" Again, I laughed. Its appearance darkened as if it would attack me at any moment, but I was ready for that. I am ready to fight. My life is at stake here.

In just a little while, I will be able to fulfill the promise I made to my parents.

"All along, you thought my brother was your mate! All along, you thought you had a prostitute for a mate! It feels good to see you struggle so hard to know and find someone who will never accept you as a mate. You disgust me. You are disgusting, Damon." I promised so strongly that his teeth chattered before bowing.

It seems like it is sinking now.

And it's my chance now. This is the only way I can think of to do it. Way to make it hurt even more.

"I, Fia, the healer of West, reject you as my mate, Damon," I said coldly, and I felt as if a rope had been cut from inside me.

I felt the ache in my chest, but I just clenched my fist when I saw the tears flowing from his eyes, and without warning, he looked up and let out a cry full of pain.

He grabbed his chest and fell to his knees in great pain.

I watched it, and for some unknown reason, I felt sadness rising in my chest.

"I love you, D." It seemed like a whisper echoed in my mind.

But I smiled bitterly. You don't love me, Damon.

I would rather die than be with someone like you.

"K-Kill me..." It was a weak promise, so I looked at it again.

"J-just kill me Fia... Suppose that's what you want to do. If you think I deserve it, then do it!" It screamed, but it was already on the ground, and I was stunned to see blood flowing from its mouth.

The breaking bond would slowly kill him. It will kill his wolf.

Isn't this what I want? But why do I seem to have a hard time approaching it?

"B-but it feels good to know that you have become my mate. I always wish that you would be my mate. I wish to have you in my arms. Even if it's wrong, even if I know it's impossible. I prayed every day that I would be given someone like you. I know I don't deserve you, but all I wish is for you to be protected and made my queen." He slowly took out a necklace with a pendant attached that I knew very well.

That is the necklace that belonged to my parents.

"This is yours... Your father asked me to give you this. I think you deserve to have this before killing me." What does he want to show?

And so what? My father gave me? Didn't he take that himself? He robbed it from my father! So, he has no right to present it to me as if it was given voluntarily by my father.

I approached it, rudely knelt down in front of it, and thrust the dagger I was holding onto its shoulder.

He hissed and snarled in pain, but I just smiled. Watching his blood flow.

I put my face close to his ear and whispered to him.

"Quit pretending, Monster." I was about to promise, but I stopped when I felt his arms wrap around my waist and pull me closer to his body.

Shocked, I let go of the dagger that remained stuck on his shoulder.

"I am not pretending Fia." He whispered and changed our places without warning; he made me lie on the ground, and there he trapped me with his body resting on me.

Stupidly, I stared at his tear-stained eyes.

He smiled bitterly and looked at me as if he was examining my appearance.

"You're beautiful..." He whispered and caressed my cheek.

I tried to struggle, but he just grabbed both of my hands and locked them with only one of his hands.

I also tried to kick it, but even my legs were trapped by its weight.

"W-why did you reject me, Fia? Why didn't you let me explain?" I gritted my teeth in anger. But I forced myself to calm down.

I will never beg here just to let go.

If he wants this game, then I will give it to him.

"You deserve it, Damon." I almost snorted a promise, so a bitter smile appeared on his lips again.

"I can't let you go, Fia." He was crying, and a few more tears fell on my cheeks.

"Then what will you do, Damon? I already reject you! You don't expect me to mark you, right? Just to form even a piece of---" I seem to have stopped what I was going to say when he smirked.

"I know you won't mark me, Fia, but I can mark you-just to save the bond we have. And I am willing to wait until you want to mark me, too." I was stunned by what he said.

Damn!

No, it can't be! Once it marks me, it will be difficult for me to hide my emotions.

I would feel an attachment to him. The bond may not be perfect because I haven't marked it yet, but we will still have a little connection. My body and my wolf won't let me kill him.

And I know that if it continues like that, I will be the only loser in the end.

"It looks so easy, Damon, but don't you know the effect of what you do? You will become weak. You will lose half of your strength. What king is willing to be weak--"

"Me. I'm willing Fia." My lips parted in shock. Is he stupid? I'm not fooling around with him.

Until I can mark it, it will be weak in front of others. Even his servants will be stronger than him.

Is this crazy?

To my surprise, I didn't even prepare for him to steal a quick kiss on my lips.

"I am willing to do everything for you, my queen." It has a determined manner, and my head screams danger.

Again, I tried to struggle.

"Leave me alone! Don't involve me in your madness! Are you nuts? Damn you!" I use my strength, but I still can't get away.

"Yes, I am. I'm crazy about you, D. Just let me love you, my queen." He slowly bent down and reached my neck with his lips.

He started kissing that part, so I gasped.

No!

"Damn you! I won't mark you! You think I can't kill you if you mark me! Hell! I would definitely stab your neck!" He was laughing and rather annoyed at what I said; I felt his hot tongue running down my neck to my shoulder.

It seems to taste me.

"I don't know how you hid your scent, but when I mark you, your true scent will come back. I love the idea. I bet your blood will taste sweet. I'm also ready to meet you, D. When I mark you, I will see all the memories you have. Don't you want to know the truth? Don't you want to mark me too?" Saying this made my whole being cringe.

What do I care about his memories? He is a monster, that's all!

"I would rather see you die!" I just laughed at him.

"The Full moon is about to come. You would crave me, D," he hinted, and I snarled.

"I won't!"

"I will wait for your mark, my queen."

I regret it.

"You can mark me now, but I have already rejected you. So, on the day of the full moon. Anyone can have me. They can take me from you, Damon. And we know that your body will weaken. Do you think you can fight for me? It's time for you to mark me now. My scent and my blood will make them crave me more. "I am trying to show him the real score. It's a wrong decision.

"Now, you seem to care. That's good." It smiled, so for the second time, I was surprised.

It wasn't even affected.

"I will always fight for you. Even if I die, D." After he said that, I just felt the pain creep up and its fangs buried between my neck and shoulder.

My eyes blurred, and I seemed deaf.

I know I am screaming, but I can't accept the fact that I am defeated.

I can't accept the fact that I am helpless.

Shit!