Chapter 94 Change
>>Asher
I tried to distract myself, focusing on the distant sound of rain and the faint echoes of thunder. But despite my efforts, my mind kept returning to him – to the delicate image of him changing, the intimate act of vulnerability in such close quarters, and the sound of his pants unbuckling
My wolf howled and I couldn't control myself.
OH! Shit!
I couldn't help but stare... I slowly turned my face around to look at him as I kept my body unmoving. I had to make sure I wouldn't get caught.
From the corner of my eyes, I noticed that he was looking the other way as he sat on the ground and I took that as an opportunity and kept watching.
When he took off his jacket, I saw how the white shirt he wore under that clung to his skin. I bit my lip in hunger seeing his skin through that transparent wet shirt.
He was thin but somehow curvy. His damp hair was pulled back, and the air felt charged with an unspoken tension, a newfound awareness that hung there like a delicate thread
I pursed my lips tightly when he grabbed the bottom of his shirt and took it off, revealing his pale skin.
I gulped.
My wolf started drooling
I saw how beautifully his spine curved. It made me want to slide my tongue along it. In that moment, I felt a magnetic pull, an undeniable attraction that defied rational thoughts which I tried to hold onto very dearly. I couldn't afford to act on my impulses just yet.
His shoulders trembled softly, most likely because of the cold and I wanted to close up to him and take him into my arms. As we sat there, a tense silence enveloped us, punctuated only by the sound of raindrops on the cave entrance. The flickering fire cast dancing shadows on the walls, adding to the surreal atmosphere.
I struggled with the emotions swirling within me. There was a delicate balance between attraction and respect, a fine line I didn't want to cross but BY GOD, I had to put everything in my brain and lock it together to stop myself from getting closer to him.
My heart was beating wildly, hammering in my chest. My wolf kept growling, wanting to go near Nico and honestly, I was so tempted, I chose to look away.
My emotions were getting out of hand the more I watched him and I came to a realization that I wanted Nico more than anything else I've ever wanted.
I've never had such strong emotions for anything or anyone before!
I gulped,
I did not realize that the mate bond held so much power.
>>Nico
My body felt weirdly hot. I was cold, yes, shivering even but at the same time I felt so hot.
I gulped
My shirt rested in my lap. I had just taken it off to put it out and dry it next to the fire but my health seemed weird. I didn't know what to make out of it. I should be cold, or maybe getting a fever but no,
This was different.
There was something inside of me that was burning.
I looked down at my stomach and placed my hand under my abdomen.
Right here...
My eyes went wide in fear. My wolf was quiet so I didn't notice before but she was trying to pull something here.
And it was at that moment, I realized that the medicine wasn't working.
Oh shit!
My pupils began to shake as my body started to get even hotter. One moment, I
felt like I was being cooked alive, and the next moment, I felt like I was in an icehouse, making me feel like I was situated between two worlds, icy and hot. My body was drenched in sweat, but then I started shivering and this feeling just became more and more intense, but I lost it when I felt something wet oozing out between my legs
!!!!
I wore the shirt I took off back and stood up in horror. Then I turned around and saw Asher sitting in the same position I left him, staring out the cave.
I gulped.
No
I have to run away. My wolf didn't like what was going through my head and she screamed at me.
My thinking began to muddle up and I knew I had no time to waste.
Rain poured like a cascade of silver needles from the ink-black sky as I bolted out of the damp cave, a cacophony of thunder echoing the turmoil within.
"Nico!?!?!" Asher stood up when I ran past him, "Where the hell are you going!!?" The air was thick with the scent of wet earth and the taste of my own regret.
I shouted at him, the rain and my tears merging into a symphony of chaos. "Don't follow me!" I pleaded, my voice barely audible above the tumult. But my plea was swallowed by the roar of the rain and the drumming beat of my own heart.
My thinking began to bog up and I found myself running not only away from Asher but myself. I felt so afraid as the heat of my body began to engulf all of me and even though I ran in the open fresh nature, I felt suffocated at the same time.
I sprinted into the forest, each step a painful echo of my racing thoughts. The droplets stung my face, blending with tears that were indistinguishable from the rain. I ran as if I could outrun the weight of my mistakes, as if the downpour could cleanse me of the guilt that clung to my every step. I don't know why up until this point I didn't ask Asher to reject me when I should have gotten it all over it. I should have spat the words on his face rather than simply denying the chemistry and the bond between us.
But I didn't do that and now I was in the deepest manhole I could ever be in.
"Nico!!!" Despite my plea, I heard his footsteps behind me, the sound of a relentless pursuit that mirrored the haunting echoes of my regrets.
OH NO...
"Don't come after me," I whispered, almost to myself, the words whisked away by the wind, "I can't have you coming after me." I was so scared at the moment, I didn't know what else to do but run.
"Why are you running!!" He yelled, "What happened!?!?" He didn't stop his pursuit.
It must be confusing for him. Everything was fine until a few moments ago and then the next moment he sees me running away with no explanation.
I shook my head.
But, I had no time for an explanation. And, even if I did, I would not have told him the truth.
I quickened my pace, the muddy ground slippery beneath my feet. The forest felt like a maze closing in around me and I was scared that I'd get lost and he'd find me since he's familiar with the woods. Desperation fueled my every stride. I needed to escape, to find solace in the hidden alcoves of the woods. I didn't care where, I just wanted to be away from Asher.
My wolf screeched at me, gnawing in my mind, yelling at me for doing the opposite thing.
Asher was persistent though, matching my frantic pace. "Stop!" I cried, my voice choked with a mixture of frustration and fear. "Please, just stop!"
"Why?!" His voice held panic and confusion, "Did something happen?" I could tell he was worried. "Let me help you if something is wrong."
"NO!" The rain caused the forest to fog up and at this point, I knew I had started creating distance between us.
"Nico!" He called my name and my wolf begged me to stop, "Don't run away from me!!"
The trees blurred into a chaotic dance around me as I ran harder, my senses heightened by the pounding rain. I darted between the trunks, searching for a place where I could be alone with my thoughts and the remorse that clung to me like the rain-soaked clothes on my back. I needed to get away from Asher to calm my heat down and not give into my instincts.
I spotted a rocky overhang ahead, hidden away by thick heavy vines, a haven from the relentless downpour. Without a second thought, I darted toward it, the damp ground slipping beneath me. The shadows offered a temporary concealment, a momentary respite from the confrontation I sought to avoid. I crouched there, and listened for his footsteps, hoping against hope that he would heed my plea and stay behind. Yet, deep down, I knew he wouldn't.
The bond between us wouldn't let him but I didn't want him to find me either.