Chapter 44

Aleksander’s POV

Hurting Chris so badly wasn't my intention. I just couldn't let him be. Right now, I'm feeling so bad even with all the running I've done. I knew I totally ruined him and I was so depressed. I then decided to return home so that Elisabeth wouldn't start to worry about me.

She just woke up and the last thing I would do to her is to make her worry about me. She hasn't even recovered yet. I then got into my car and went home.

I didn't see anyone in the living room when I got back. I looked at my watch to see if I was very late but then it was still early at night.

I hurried to my room to go see the woman of my life but then when I got inside she wasn't there. Maybe she is with Ava. I know those two were very close and have a lot to catch up on.

I was too lazy to go to Ava's room so I just called here

"Hey, Alek" it was Victoria that picked up her call.

" Why are you with Ava's phone?" I asked her.

I was just too tired to talk with anyone right now. All I just want is to check on my baby.

"She's in the restroom and I had to help her pick it up," she replied.

She seems like she's excited to hear my voice. I had forgotten that Ava wouldn't be in a good mood because of what happened to Chris. It would be bad of me to bother her.

"Give the phone to Lisa," I said to her.

"She's not here," Victoria replied.

I could sense resentment in her voice but then I knew what Victoria wanted but then I couldn't give it to her so it's normal for her to be jealous.

"Where is she?" I asked her.

Lisa just got up and I don't want her to stress herself.

"I heard she's planning to spend the night with Nicholas," she replied.

Hearing that, I was angry and I ended the call. How will she want to spend the night with Nicholas? That shouldn't be! I then went to Nicholas's room. I heard her laughter there.

Nicholas is a male, how will she be indoors with him? I was in a bad mood already and I thought that she could at least help me calm down and now she's spending the night in my brother's room. That's really annoying.

I didn't even knock before I barged in. I saw her and Nicholas seated on his bed. They were facing each other and nothing was usual. But it still got me angry because I expected her to be in the room waiting for me not sitting here and laughing with my brother. I felt this uneasiness in my heart.

I know that she really loves talking with Nicholas and they've bonded the very day they met. This was really a bother to me.

I stood there glaring at the two. Nicholas didn't say anything, he just kept looking at me. Lisa stood up and came to meet me.

"You are back," she said, smiling at me.

I didn't reply to her, I only walked out. I didn't know what was wrong with me. This isn't me. I'm not the one that overreacts to little things. Maybe it's because of my bad mood.

Lisa followed me and was walking behind me. I know she would be wondering why I am acting like this. When I got to my room, I went straight to the bathroom. It was then I noticed that Lisa had stopped following me.

"Did she return to Nicholas?" I asked myself.

The anger I was trying to smother was coming out. Did she choose Nicholas over me? I didn't even know what to think right now. I went into the bathroom gritting my teeth. I felt like my heart was going to shred me to pieces. I was so unhappy.

Today I had lost my old friend and now the woman I love didn't think I matter to her. This was really painful. I let the cold water run through my body just so that it would flush my anger away but then it became so much worse.

I didn't know if I didn't deserve to be loved. There's no way I would fight my brother over a woman. Maybe Nicholas doesn't know that she's my mate but then he knew that I care about her a lot.

Noan would stay without food for two good weeks for a woman he doesn't love. I was so sad. I didn't even know how long I let the water run before I finally came out of the bathroom.

By the time I was hot out, I saw Lisa seated with food on the table. Tjisade me to pause for a while and I looked at her.

"Why did you stay so long in the bathroom?" She asked me.

Her beautiful little face was already melting my anger. I didn't even know why I can't get angry with this woman. She seems to be my doom.

But then I wanted to show her that I wasn't happy with the way she was with my brother so I didn't reply to her. I just passed by her and left for my wardrobe.

I know she was looking at me but she said nothing. When I was dressed in my pajamas, I went to the bed ignoring her.

"Are you angry at me?" She asked me in a soft voice.

I chose not to reply to her. I felt it was obvious enough for her to ask him.

"An...... Alpha, have I done anything wrong?" She asked me.

I could hear the worry in her voice and I was glad about it. At least she should be unhappy that I wasn't happy with her.

I was so proud of what I was doing but then I was not happy she called me alpha. She already has me a nick that I long to hear every day and now she's already back to calling me Alpha? I don't like it at all.

"What have I not done wrong ?" She asked me again.

I still chose not to answer even though right now, her smell was driving me nuts and all I just want to do is to grab her and kiss her hard.

Even though my eyes were closed, I could feel her coming closer. She then slowly laid her head on my chest. I wanted to wrap my hands around her immediately but it took me all my will not to. I folded my palms into a fist beside me.

"I don't know, maybe it's because you are having a bad day or because I got you angry. In any way, I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to Ander" she said with a shaky voice.

I sensed that she was crying but I didn't want to believe it. I didn't want to believe that she would shed tears just because of this trivial matter but then, her Tera dropped on my chest and I was shocked.

"Lisa, are you crying?" I asked her.

She didn't reply to me. She just lay there silent. I pulled her up and looked at her and truly, she was crying. Now I know that I overreacted. This isn't me.

"I'm sorry, please don't cry," I said to her with heavy guilt in my heart.

I cleaned her tears with my thumb. Now I felt like a terrible husband. We haven't even started a relationship and now I'm already making her cry

"What did I do wrong?" She asked me to sniff.

"Nothing baby. I'm just in a bad mood. It has nothing to do with you" I said

Well, that was lying but then how would I have been able to open my mouth and tell her that I was jealous that she was with my brother? That's too childish of me but then I couldn't help myself.

She gave me a pitiful look.

"Is it because of Chris?" She asked me.

I gave her a slight frown, as I remembered what happened with Chris. Even if it's my handwork it was still so saddening.

"Ava and Nicholas too are in a bad mood. Ava just cried herself to sleep and then I went to Nicholas to see if I could chew him up. He too isn't in a good mood but not as worse as Ava '' she said.

Now she was holding my hands with pure emotions running down her face.

Now I knew that I had really overreacted. She only went there to console him and not as I thought.

"Were you planning to spend the night with him?" I asked her.

I wanted to be sure that she isn't just cajoling me.

"Ander...." She called with a little smile on her lips.

I know she must have noticed my jealousy but I didn't care. I just want her to reply to me.

"Why would I sleep in Nicholas's room? I was just there because you were not around and I was only doing the part of a good friend just like I did to Ava

So don't think about things" she said to me with a mocking look.

I looked at her with a pout for a few seconds before I spoke.

"I'm not thinking about anything. Didn't you want to stay with him earlier?" I asked her.

" C'mon Ander don't be a baby" she pushed my head and rolled her eyes.

I pulled her to me.

"I'm sorry, I thought you sir want to stay with me anymore. Maybe after you found out what I did to Chris" I said to her in a low voice.

Yes, that was exactly my fear. The way I had punished Chris was still hunting me for it, talking more of others. Chris's punishment is just the least of the ways I punish people. I'm like a demon when I punish. I didn't know if she knew this part of me she would want to be with me.

She touched my nose with her finger and gave me a smile.

"Don't blame yourself for what you did to him. He deserves every bit. I know he is your friend but then you are also a leader who should get justice for his people" she said .

Her words really lifted the weight I had on my chest and it was as if it was her medicine. I didn't even say another word, I just clash my mouth on hers and kissed her deeply. My body vibrates as our mouth meets. This wan always wakes all my system up and it's only for her my body does react as if they've never met a woman before. I was intoxicated by it and I didn't want to stop but she did stop me. I showed my dissatisfaction but she wouldn't listen to me.

"You have to eat Ander," she said using her hands to trace his lips

"You are my meal and I want you," I said to her.

I wanted to return to the kiss but she wouldn't let me. My body was already screaming so hard for this woman and I don't think I want to waste another time.

"Not until you finish your dinner. You've been starving yourself for too long" she scolded me as if she was my mother.

The look she was giving me showed that she really met what she was saying. I grudgingly looked at the covered dishes. They seem to like my enemies right now but then I didn't have a choice.

I watched her as she opened the dishes and I saw that they were all my favorite meals. I know I didn't tell her that they are my favorite meals.

"Who cooked this?" I asked her.

The person must have known that I love to eat these dishes a lot.

"I did," she replied with a bright smile.

" You cook?" I asked her surprised

I've never heard her mention that she wanted to cook. So I thought that she couldn't.

"Do you think I couldn't?" She asked with disdain.

I just shrugged.

"Ava had told me all your favorite meals so I decided to use them to cheer you up," she said, squinting her eyes at me.

I kissed her cheek and smiled at her.

"Thank you," I said to her.

This was another gesture that warmed my heart. I have always hoped for a woman that I would be able to treat well. I never mind if she doesn't know how to treat me well because I know that I'm so hard to please, but with Lisa, everything she does pleases me.

"Eat," she said, handing me cutlery.

I shook my head at the cutlery.

"Feed me," I said in a seductive voice.

"Ander" she called me, widening her eyes.

I moved closer to her ear.

"Love that Nick and I just want to make you scream it loud beneath me" I whispered to her ears.