Chapter 139

Chapter 139
Autumn's POV

The bright lights of the day were shining so much on my face that I couldn't close my eyes anymore. I had to open them. Who opened the window, and what is going on? I thought I was allowed to sleep for as long as I wanted. Why does my body feel so sore? I tried stretching and getting up, but I couldn't.

It felt like another heavy body was on me, so I decided to look around. I wasn't in my room at all but in the private living room where we had dinner yesterday. And how did the private living room even have a bed? I tried to get up, but realizing I couldn’t, I looked down at the bed and I was shocked.

I almost jumped in fright, but I held myself back. If I jumped, I would have woken them up. The three of them were sleeping on the same bed with me, and they were freaking naked. What's going on? Why am I also naked?

Why does my private area feel so sore and painful? What exactly happened to me? I tried to remember, but my memory felt fuzzy. I can’t believe they took advantage of me just because I got drunk yesterday. I remembered I did drink some alcohol, but they could have taken me back to my room. How could they use that opportunity to get down with me?

I got so angry that I kicked all three of them out of the bed at once. They all woke up in confusion, staring at me. They looked at me like they didn’t do anything wrong, and I was fuming with so much anger. How could they do this to me? Was this the only reason they planned the dinner yesterday so they could get me drunk and take advantage of me?

"What's going on with you? Why did you kick us out of the bed like that?" Knox asked with sleepy eyes.

"YOU BASTARDS DARE ASK ME WHY I KICKED YOU OUT OF THE BED? HOW COULD YOU TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME JUST BECAUSE I GOT DRUNK?" I screamed at the top of my lungs.

They all looked at me still in confusion, but when they realized I was serious, they stood up. But they were naked in front of me again, and I screamed. They all rushed into the nearby bedroom with their clothes to change. I also used this opportunity to change my clothes before they came back.

When they came back, I was about to go out of the living room, but I was stopped by them.

"Where are you going, Autumn? Why don't you let us discuss this before you misunderstand things? I promise you, we didn't do anything out of place," Adonis said to me.

I slapped him angrily. But I didn’t want to hit him alone without giving the others a taste of their own medicine. I slapped all three of them.

"Just because you managed to achieve your goal of having sex with me doesn't mean you're important. Don't touch me like this again, and I don't want to see any of you anymore!" I yelled at them and rushed out of the room.

I made sure no one saw me as I rushed back to my room. But I wasn't lucky because Lily was already there tidying up. She turned around to look at me with a smile the moment I arrived.

"You're here, miss. I've been waiting for you all morning. I guess you've been so tired," she said with a smile.

What does she even mean by that? Does she have any idea what happened to me last night? I was knocked out by three Alphas. Even though they are my mates and I’m not supposed to hate mating with them, they still forced me to do it against my will. I'm not going to forgive them for that. Screw the fact that I was actually thinking of forgiving them.

"Why are you saying it like that? Do you have any idea what happened to me? I'm not going to forgive those bastards for taking advantage of me!" I shouted.

She looked at me weirdly and then rushed to sit down beside me. "What do you mean by you're not going to forgive them? Shouldn't you be asking them for forgiveness?"

I furrowed my brows. "What's that supposed to mean? Are you saying I'm the one who violated them?"

She nodded. "Yes."

"WHAT?" I screamed again as I stood up from my seat.

"I know it's hard to believe, but you're the one who actually forced them to do that with you. Don’t you remember anymore? You bothered them so much last night that they had to bring me to take you back to your room, but you refused to leave."

"There's no fucking way I would do something like that. You're probably lying to me, right? Don’t tell me you've taken their side now and you're willing to betray me!"

She immediately went down on her knees. "I promise you I'm not lying to you. You actually did all those things, and it will be good if you remember it. I tried to take you back to the room, but you threatened them with forgiveness and told them that they had to serve you. They told me to leave after you refused to come with me."

Lily isn’t the kind of person who would lie to me just because the brothers asked her to. If they told her to lie to me, she would still tell me the truth. Then, with what she’s saying, I’m the one at fault, and I should be apologizing. 

Did I actually ask them to serve me? I know I haven’t had a man before, and I always fantasized about being with hot men serving me together, but how could I treat them like bar models and force them to serve me? What is wrong with me?

"I… I actually did something like that?" I asked, falling back to the seat.

She nodded. "You did all that. But it's their fault for giving you that kind of strong wine when you don't know how to drink much. They are supposed to serve you whenever you ask, after all they've done to you!"

I don’t know if Lily is trying to make it better or worse. I’m trying my best not to remember what happened, but all of her words are only helping me remember. I started getting flashbacks of last night.

I remembered how I was all over them, kissing them one by one, and how I wanted them to serve me. I remembered how Lily was brought in, and how I refused to go with her, forcing them to serve me using my forgiveness as the price. How could I decide to forgive them just because we all had sex? Am I completely losing my mind?

Why are the images of everything we did together flashing through my mind? My cheeks felt so hot, and everywhere in the room also felt uncomfortable. How can I remember scenes like that? I don't want to remember anything about this, but it's hard for me.

"Do you finally remember everything?" Lily asked me with hopeful eyes. "Then you should know that you are going to apologize to them. You don’t need to fight."

I dragged her hand. "I'm begging you, Lily, don't tell anyone about this. And also, don't let them know that I remembered everything. I'm not going to tell them I remember. It's so embarrassing, don't you understand?"

She nodded in agreement. "Don't worry, miss. I promise you no one will know anything about the fact that you remember or what happened. I'll make sure no one gossips about this."

I smiled at her. "Thank you. I need to get some rest before doing anything else."

"Then I'll prepare you a hot bath so that you can relax," she offered and rushed to the bedroom.

I knew I could count on her for things like this. But how am I supposed to move around this house knowing that I already did things like this? However, I kept thinking about what Lily said. This isn’t something that disappointed them anyway. 

They seemed to have benefited a lot from it more than me, and they seemed very happy with it. They shouldn’t hold this against me. Besides, this is the least they could do for all the lifetime they made me miss. Compensating me with something like this doesn’t mean anything. I should be able to move around the house.

Who am I kidding? I can’t move around the house. Mating with them would only make the mating bond stronger than before, and I might not be able to get away from them, especially with the fact that they already marked me. 

What am I supposed to do now? Am I really going to become the Luna? Would the tragedy of the past life not repeat itself? Can I really trust them not to do what they did to me before and abandon me when I need them the most?