Chapter 4 — Chaos
“TELL ME how you plan to use me to acquire your revenge.”
I should be over the moon now. I am finally having my first ‘real’ conversation with Cain regarding what I came here for. But never in my wildest imagination did I think that this was how our conversation was going to be. Cain was licking my nipple while stroking my clit.
The sun was about to rise anytime soon. Ever since I succeeded in waking Cain, I had lost count of how many times we did it. Since he was hungry, it was hard, fast, and rough. But to my surprise, I no longer felt any discomfort. It was like his entire body was design to only provide pleasure in women. In just a few hours, I had experienced having orgasm after orgasm.
I had proven how hungry Cain was. In the future, I must make sure not to starve him otherwise he would certainly deprive me of sleep.
Just like today.
I feel so sleepy. My eyelids were starting to get heavy. And just when I thought my body could no longer afford to respond to Cain’s touch, I was feeling tingly all over again as his hot, soft tongue rolled around my nipple. I moaned softly. No part of my body was spared last night. He made sure to devour every part of me, every corner, from my fingers down to my feet that I felt like I had already been familiar with his touch and kisses.
That’s why I couldn’t believe that I’m getting carried away again. My body had been surprising me in so many ways after meeting Cain. I had no idea that I could go on and on with having sex with him for hours.
Or was it because of him? It was like Cain was feeding me through sex, too, and was sharing some of his energy with me. For how else could I explain how my body still had the strength to go on after he filled me up inside over and over?
But despite all that, he was still… as hard as the first time we did it.
I bit my lower lip when Cain’s fingers made small, rough circles around my clit, making it impossible for me to think properly. “D-do we really have to… talk this way, Sir?”
“I’m still hungry. It will be efficient for us to talk while I’m having my meal.”
“How many more hours do you think you need to feed, Sir?”
“Hours?” He chuckled. “Natasha, I was asleep for a hundred years. I need to be fed for weeks or months at least before I can completely regain my energy. But don’t worry; I will let you sleep after this.”
Weeks or months? I turned pale. How long was that supposed to be? Does that mean that I would need to stay in his bedroom that long? What about my family then?
“I will take care of your revenge plan for you, Natasha,” Cain added as if he read my mind again.
The way he called my name was so sensual, like it was the only name he knew. But of course, this must be nothing special to him. Cain was probably used to this. He was used to playing around with women. He bit my nipple before sucking it like a hungry baby. My chest heaved as my toes curled.
How could he expect me to focus when he was being like this?
“You can still feed me while your revenge plan is in motion, right? After all, I have made up my mind. I will fulfill your wish but I want your body in return, Natasha. You will have to feed me whenever and wherever I want. The expiration date of our contract will depend on the extent of your wishes. Now, think about how you are going to make the Ricafortes surrender. I can make every one of your enemy kneel in front of you before this day ends if you want me to, Natasha. But that would be boring, wouldn’t it? Besides, I can tell that you want something more than that.”
Cain’s mouth went down to my belly. I gripped my pillow while trying to think straight.
“Why are you so quiet? Hmm?”
And he had the decency to still ask? Now I knew that he was a Beast in bed, too. And he seemed to have this intense liking in torturing his partner this way. He lifted my leg and put it on his shoulder. He was now licking and biting my inner thigh. I shut my eyes. If this was how he was going to feed on me all the time, will I still be sane until our contract ends? Or was this some sort of a test to prove my determination?
In any case, I ought to thank Cain somehow. I was able to forget all my troubles even for a few hours. In his arms, I was able to put my mind and my heart to rest somehow. I had been desperate to forget even for a moment.
But the spell was over. I needed to remember now.
I took a deep breath and struggled to remember the reasons that brought me here even if it meant rehashing the emotional storm I had just gone through for the past weeks.
“I… I need money, power, and connection to fight the Ricafortes. And you are right, Sir. Making them kneel will not be enough as compensation for all the things they did to me and my family. I want to break them, too, the way they broke me.”
In an instant, my mind went back to my father who was currently in jail all because of Governor Leon Ricaforte. My father had served as Leon’s loyal driver and bodyguard for more than ten years.
One day, Gwen, a college student suddenly accused Leon of rape. According to my father, Leon and Gwen met at a resort in Cavite to talk about her scholarship. That resort was owned by the Governor himself. But the Governor ended up forcing himself on Gwen, who had caught his fancy two years ago when he first came to her University. Her family was poor; that’s why she accepted the scholarship that he'd offered, thinking that he was only being a compassionate politician.
Two years later, when Gwen turned eighteen, Governor Ricaforte called her to meet with him. And the innocent Gwen agreed because she looked up to him like I once did. She also thought that the other students who were also beneficiaries of the Governor’s scholarship would attend as well. But the old filth secretly spiked the drink he gave her and brought her to a cabin when she was unconscious. The crew was surprised the next morning when they heard her scream from her room.
Gwen was alone in the cabin and she had been raped. Leon was gone and all that was left inside the cabin was the envelope that had cash worth fifty thousand pesos. She had no memory of the incident, but she found herself naked and bruised. Her private parts ached, and there was a blood stain on the bedsheets.
When Gwen’s medical evaluation was completed, what she feared the most came true. Her body had been violated. The doctors also found traces of the drug that had been administered and caused her to black out the night it happened. She told her family about it, and they filed a case against Leon right away. And because the Ricafortes were known both in politics and in business world, the media feasted on the news about them.
In the middle of all that, Kurt, my only sibling, was in the hospital. Because of a car accident, he had broken ribs, liver lacerations, and his kidneys had been damaged. We needed money for his medical bills. But even if my father and I combined our savings, it still wasn’t enough.
I am a struggling singer/composer and I had only been discovered recently. At that time, I just finished signing a contract with a famous recording company. And there wasn’t anyone I could ask for help. Joaquin, my fiancé, was in Germany at that time for a business conference that’s why I couldn’t contact him.
And then one day, I was dumbfounded when I found out that my father was imprisoned. Gwen and her family suddenly retracted their statements and pointed my father as the culprit, along with that was my father’s confession about his sins. There were also witnesses that stated that they saw my father entered the cabin while carrying Gwen who was unconscious at that time.
My mother had a heart attack when she heard the news. A few days later and she died. The Governor came to the rescue and helped my family. When he arrived at the hospital along with the reporters, he talked to the doctors. That same day, the doctors operated on my brother.
My twenty-one-year-old brother was now safe but our family was in chaos. Kurt was now recovering, but he was hysterical last week when he found out what happened to our parents from Aunt Cecil, our mother’s friend, who had assisted me and Kurt all throughout the gruesome process.
“Please tell me that Aunt Cecil and the nurses are just lying, Natasha! They were all liars! They were just trying to break our family apart! I know that Papa is incapable of doing something like that! He’s just outside, right? He’s with Mama and they are both waiting for me to recover. Or they could be at the church and praying for my fast recovery. Please tell them that I’m fine now, Tash. Tell them that I’m worried so they need to come and meet me here. Tell them that I’m waiting for them. I’m scared, Tash. I need to see them. Help me, I beg you,” Kurt said in a pleading voice when I arrived in his hospital room.
I sat on his bed. Tears rolled down my cheeks when I saw him crying. I was the older one. I should be wiping his tears now instead of crying with him. But how could I wipe his tears when I didn’t have the energy to wipe my own? I wanted to tell him not to be afraid. But how could I do that when I, myself, was frightened? Suddenly, our future had become so bleak.
I wrapped my arms around him. Kurt needed that hug and I did, too. I badly needed it. I badly sought for someone’s embrace this whole time that I was on my own. I wanted to lie to him to reassure him. But how long would lying help?
“Tash? Why aren’t you saying something?” he asked in a broken voice.
“I… I’m sorry, Kurt,” was all I could say. My brother was smart. That was all it took for him to understand the situation.
“No!” He pushed me away and screamed. “You are lying to me, too!”
“I’m sorry,” I repeated in a hoarse voice.
“If you are really sorry, then bring our mother to me right now. I want to see Mama, Tash. Please.”
“I also want to see her, Kurt. There is nothing I want more than to see her smile like the old times as she tells us that everything is going to be fine. She didn’t want me to sing at first because she wanted me to have a more stable job. Mama only wanted the best for me and yet, I didn’t listen to her. And I regret it now.”
My shoulders shook when I wept. This was the first time I cried after all the incidents that took place. Maybe because I was still in shock these past few days. I had also been in denial. It was only today when I was facing my brother that things were beginning to sink in my tired mind and body. And the thought of it was draining me all the more.
“I should have listened to her. I wasn’t even able to treat her to a nice restaurant. There are still so many places that I dreamt to take her. If I knew this would happen, I should have paid more attention to her. That way, I could have helped our family better. If only she would show up and would tell me to quit singing right now, I would. I would drop everything for her and be a better daughter this time. But it’s too late now, Kurt. She’s gone now.”