Things ain't good

RINNA'S POV .

Yesterday Axel and l broke up . Every word spoken between us was so raw , honest and vulnerable . Tears mixed up in every kiss we shared as we let go of everything we have been holding back . Our bodies connected for hours and when the sky went dark , we finally gave in to the sleep we so desperately needed .

At that I felt so crushed and broken but also it felt like I had lifted up the weight off my shoulders . Axel my love , he meant everything to me and more . He knew it , we both knew it but we also agreed , everything between us started for all the wrong reasons . It was just sex , lust and desire . As good as it was it both consumed and blinded us from the cracks that were beginning to etch themselves into our hearts .

" Uhmm " , I sighed while sitting on the front steps that led to my house . Before the sun had the chance to rise l left Axel while still asleep . At that time part of me wanted to run back to him ,tell him that this wasn't right decision but the other part agreed with our decision . When I walked out through that door , l knew it that it was the final. .

Who am l kidding it was already final . I heard it in his voice as we were making love . Axel needed this , he had given up so much already and l didn't want to take away the last chance he had to make something for himself . I also needed to concentrate on my studies . That was all the convincing l needed to walk away from him .

To say the next few days were hard was an understatement . My heart crushed , everyday my stomach turned in to knots and my head was consumed by every fucking memory of him . No one told me that a break up felt like this . It wasn't even a serious break up but l seriously missed him .

Xenia tried her level best to be there for me but l essentially spent my time reading the same chapter of " helping a broken hearted friend " , all because of her . She didn't admit to me how she felt about Darius . She didn't need to . She instead followed suit in eating ice cream , watching movies and crying so Much . Sympathy tears that's what she called them while dabbing the tissue paper on her eyes .

" I know " , l rolled my eyes while looking at her . We we're both helpeless but she was worse . Per now we were curled up on my couch watching another rom - com. It was just reaching the cliche part where the guy declares his love for the girl all dramatic like . I rolled my eyes at the theatrics before looking over to Xenia . Her eyes were all glued to the screen but then l all of the sudden watched have her eyes tearing again .

I guess l was lucky , Axel and l had a closure . Sure it still hurt like hell but l knew when we stood with each other . Xenia on the other practically asked for Darius's heart , stomped on it and handed it back . I Know that sounds harsh but it was the reality of her situation . I think that was making it hard for her to admit that she missed him .

Since her confession to both guys she had gotten nothing but silence. She never cared to check back on the messages from Jason but then on the odd l saw her scrolling through Darius's messages . It pained everytime to see her sigh , she already knew it that she will find nothing but still she still hoped .

As much as it was l was glad that Jason now had too little effect on her. It was now going to make school tomorrow much easier . We were close to the graduation , l could taste it but with everything that we had gone through , we had forgotten our end goals . Luckily we were now single and though heart broken , we had our attention on studies .

" Xenia graduation " , After zoning out for a while , l lastly turned my attention to her and whispered out . " Our ticket out of here " , She replied while looking at me . At the start of the year the only thing l had in my mind was to get out of the house that reminded me of my dead mother .

" Let's go and sleep Xenia , we do have to school tomorrow " , Recalling school , l murmured before standing up from the couch . With me up , Xenia also joined me in my bed . Just like best friends we slept soundly until when I woke up in the night .

Opening up my eyes , l peered at the snoring Xenia . She was deep asleep and yet it was dawning . A moment later my 7am alarm rang . " Darn it " , Xenia groaned while peeping one eye open . " Please tell me that l dreamt that alarm " , she groaned out again and I burst out in to a fit of laughter in response .

" Nope " , l said popping up the p in laughter . " School my goodness ! ", As if being stabbed by an epi pen , she instantly shot up from my bed and stretched her hands over her head with a loud yawn . " Shower and get dressed quickly today is the beginning of the end " , l shook my head at her morbid wording but l understood what she meant . The end of highschool and the start of our own lives was approaching .

After showering quickly , soon enough we were in Xenia's car singing along ' slow down the song ' of Selena Gomez , a song that always put us in a good mood .

The drive flew by as we zoned out to the music that played . I was so into the song that I barely noticed Xenia parking the car until when it became silent and she pulled the key from the ignition . " Ready " , she turned to me with confidence radiating from her as she pulled the bag over her hand .

I smiled at my best friend feeling happy to have her as l gave her a nod . " Ready " ,With that we jumped out of the car . Locking hands we walked in to the school like queens . We weren't that popular to say that but still weren't disliked .

Walking to my locker , l sighed before opening it up . Xenia shockingly just leaned against the metal casing beside me and of course I knew why she was like that . After her break up with Jason , rumors were all around and Xenia was the center of attention . " Just ignore them you know how much highschool kids love drama " , l spoke in a sad voice . " Yeah l guess am the new flavor of the week " , she laughed besides me but still I knew it that she was faking it . Behind that plastic smile , things weren't good on her side .

Pushing my locker shut , l looked at her while trying to understand her expression . " You okay ". , I whispered not wanting to draw attention from the already watching eyes .