Official First Times

Official First Times
Kieran's POV

“We should go on a date” Xander suddenly said on a random warm afternoon with my head on his bare chest and his arms wrapped around me.

I propped my head up with my chin on his bare chest as I stared at him.

“A date?” I asked and he nodded.

“It would be our first date” he said and I raised a brow.

“That's not true, we already had our first date” I said, in a matter of fact manner.

“I mean, our first official date. We don't have to hide anymore, Kieran. Or sneak around, or anything of the sort. It's so different now.” he said and my eyes glazed over at the thought of how far we had come.

“You're right…” I trailed off, before I continued, “So, where should we go?” I asked and he smiled, before cradling my head and turning us to the side, his hands draping around my waist.

“That, my love, is a surprise,” he said as he kissed my nose out of the blue.

My nose scrunched reflexively as a blush crept up my cheeks.

“A surprise? How am I supposed to know what to wear?” I asked, genuinely getting nervous.

“Don't worry, I'll handle that” he said and for the first time, I didn't feel the urge to argue or tell him that I could handle it. I wanted him to take care of it.

I smiled as I nuzzled closer as I subconsciously sniffed him.

“So, when is it gonna be?” I asked.

“Tomorrow evening,” he answered.

I hummed “How do you know I'm not going to be busy?”

“I checked your schedule” he said as he shrugged.

“What sched-” I started to ask but then froze.

I looked him dead in the eye.

I had a book that I used to plan my day but I never thought he knew about it.

He lickedhis lips as he looked away.

“Xander…” I said as I grabbed his face and turned him to face me.

I narrowed my eyes at him and his lips twitched, on the edge of breaking into a smile.

“Okay, fine! I snooped, but it wasn't a secret book, was it?” He defended and my mouth fell agape.

“You… oh, youuuuu” I wadded my finger above his nose and he scrunched them reflexively.

“Well, it wasn't exactly a secret but still…” I trailed off as I stared at him.

I couldn't keep a straight face. My cheeks were so red. It felt daunting knowing he went through mh little book and my head kept scanning the pages, trying to remember if I scribbled anything weird in it.

“It's okay baby, there wasn't much in there” he assured but the naughty look on his face told me there was more to the story.
I made a mental note to check it later.

He looked at me like he was studying me before hesitating.

“Tell me” I urged and he sighed and planted a kiss on my lips, before speaking.

“I just can't wait to build a life with you,” he said and I smiled.
For the first time in a long while, the idea of settling down didn't sound so bad.
The thought seemed inviting even.

The smile on my face didn't falter as I caved in on his features.
I wanted to tell him that I wanted a family with him too but I couldn't. It was almost like my tongue was tied.

All I wanted to do was jump on him. All I wanted at that moment was him. All of him.

My eyes trailed his bare torso with a slow and precise movement.

I could feel my core getting wet.

My tongue swiped my bottom lip before I finally looked away.

Our eyes met. A beat. Two.
Boom.
Our lips collided in a hot and hungry kiss. Every sense of reasoning jumped out the window and my hands went from his hair to his neck, his back, to his shoulders.
His grip on my waist tightened when I suddenly flipped myself over and straddled him, all the whole not letting go of his lips.

His hands descended to my hips.
The kiss grew hotter and fiercer, like we had been starving for each other.

His fingers skimmed the slightly exposed skin of my back and shivers ran down my spine.

He suddenly pulled away from the kiss and looked into my eyes.

“Are you sure?” He asked and without missing a beat, I nodded.
Oh goddess, how perfect this man was.

He still looked so worried, like he didn't believe me, given the fact that I basically ran off last time

“I promise, I'm ready” I said and finally, a smile laced his lips before he pulled me in close again and within the blink of an eye, he pulled off every single piece of clothing on my body.

I was bare, completely naked, like the day I was born in front of a man I love and who loves me.
Finally, I felt comfortable being naked in front of someone without being triggered.

I would be lying if I said a corner in my mind brought up my trauma again but every other sense in me overpowered it.

A shiver ran down my spine as he stared at me with a look akin to awe.
He looked starstruck and I absolutely adored that look.

I watched as he slowly stripped himself naked too and I would be lying if I said it didn't gladden my heart.

I wasn't used to mutual vulnerability. I was always the object. The one to be mocked and watched. The one to hurt and drag.

So, this was new and different and it felt fulfilling. It felt like I was finally getting my life in order.
It felt beyond anything I had ever heard of.
My entire body sizzled with unstoppable electrifying sparks as I watched him.

He was huge but somehow, that didn't scare me. If anything, it turned me on even more.

Holy goddess.

“I want you Kieran” he whispered as I pulled me in, flush against his chest and I whimpered at the
heat of his kin against mine.

“Then, take me” I whispered back, breathlessly.

And that was exactly what he did.