Chapter 67 Tainted
I'm not even going to ask how he knew they would end up with Jay and Beth, but I am wondering why he knows, and also why that is so important to him. It seriously shouldn't have anything to do with him. And I honestly don't give a damn about her family. They don't define Josie. From what I remember, she fought it, wanting to go to her fathers' family, but was forced to go live with Beth.
I'm curious what the hell he was ranting about when he said I've got an image to maintain. What exactly is my image? A man-whore? That is not something I want the world to see me as... And especially not my little dancer! I was pissed he brought up the damn dancers from my clubs. I'm pretty sure he did it on purpose, just so my girl wouldn't trust me. He needs to keep his damn mouth shut!
I think about the words I yelled back to him.
“I don’t care if you think she’s nothing, because in all honestly, she’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me, and because you were an asshole and kept her from me, I’ve been miserable for over a decade!” I screamed at the bastard. I do feel bad about that. We were in a privately owned shop, and we were cussing a scene. “I could’ve been happy, dammit! I never would’ve touched the damn drugs! Never touched another girl, because she’s the own I wanted, and you fucking knew it!”
Every single one of them are true. Why didn't I ever see it before? Yes, I knew I'd been deep in obsession the moment I laid my eyes on her, but somewhere along the way, she became my happiness. Even if she was yelling at me to leave her alone. The fact she was paying attention to me at all instead of ignoring me made me so damn happy. It was absolutely insane, but it was the truth.
But, just what exactly is Dad's problem with Josie? I saw those contracts... I wonder if he's hiding more of them. Are they the reason he is so hostile toward her? I'm suddenly wondering if I should start searching his house for more... Or I could talked to Mom about it. But I doubt she'll say anything.
Did Anthony and Dean get into a fight? They seemed close as far back as I can remember. That was the whole reason I was there that night to see Josie!
That can't be the reason he decided not to go through with a marriage contract. We were still young, and I would've been more than willing to marry her if I'd known the truth. But by the time her parents died, I was an adult and Dad was still talking to Anthony. He'd broken off the contract years before then!
“You don’t get it do you? You can’t have her. I’ve thrown all those girls at you to keep you away from her. She was never good enough for you,” Dean smirked. “Look at this filthy little bitch. She’ll never amount to anything! Just use her and get rid of her,” he sneers.
Even the thought of using Josie like I've used the other women Dad sends my way has me sick to my stomach. And then he expects me to just toss her aside after I've finally had what I want? That will happen when Hell freezes over! Once I've finally had my girl, I'm keeping her.
“You’re wrong. The night you brought me to watch Josie dance? I fell in love with her right then, and like an idiot I believed you. I believed she wasn’t worth it. But I was wrong. And so are you! And then we left when she was in pain. I’m never going to forgive you for stealing her away from me,” I promised.
My poor Josie. I want more than anything to reverse time and just... show her exactly what I wanted when I first met her that night. Instead of the sneer on my face, I wanted to go up and smile. I wanted to tell her I thought she was the most beautiful dancer on the stage... But instead, I went and flirted with her annoying little sister. What the hell was wrong with me? Why couldn't I have just looked at her with my own eyes and not my Dad's tainted ones?