Chapter 48 Going Crazy
Richard's POV
I couldn't stay away any longer. I've been going crazy staying away from her. If I thought I was obsessed with Josie when I was younger, it was nothing compared to what I feel now. She is my center of gravity and she doesn't even know it!
I woke up last night with my cock at full attention. I'd been picturing being inside her. I'd been showing her exactly what I can do to her tight little body. In my dreams she was incredibly flexible, probably unrealistically so as I pounded deep inside her tight little pussy.
I cursed myself for waiting for her to come to me. I didn't want to push her away, but I also know she's waiting for James to screw up... Because she knows instinctively he will. She just doesn't want to admit it yet.
After the confrontation with James I went back to the Wild Blooms flower shop and stayed hidden in the shadows. I watched her chatting with Hailey and some of their customers that seem to be regulars because they ask about her and her sisters. I wish I could've just gone in there and talked to her, but I didn't. I wasn't going to corner her at work.
Josie looked exhausted. I can't let her keep pushing herself like this when she has a much simpler option. All she has to do is let me in. I could take the burden off her back. I haven't even been going into work the past few weeks and I haven't lost a damn dime! All I do is check my emails while I'm waiting around for Josie.
My dad is a little pissed at me because I've been MIA, but I don't really give a damn. Kingston Muse is MY company and he has nothing to do with it. Plus I've got a whole damn crew that is capable of doing most of my jobs.
At this point I could just sell the whole damn thing and live off what I've made until I die of old age... Maybe that isn't a bad idea! I could stay with Josie a lot more. I could show her how to enjoy life, not just suffer through it. She could slow down and live the life she really wants to live... I wonder if she's ever thought of kids?
I don't care if she wants to work with Hailey for the rest of her life. If she likes it that much, that's great. But the toll that is taking on Josie isn't the work. She's never been afraid of work. It's not being able to provide for her sisters the way she feels she needs to.
I hate that she feels like she isn't good enough. All the pressure to make a living so she can provide for her sisters is just too much for someone so young. And she's been doing it for years now. She was never allowed to go to college. I know. I checked. She was forced by Beth to earn an income to supplement what they were stealing from the girls.
I want to show her that she means so much more than what James is telling her she is worth. He's treating her like she is only worthy of part of his time. There is no way he has any room in his heart for her.
I wait out in front of Beth's house for 20 minutes after Josie walked inside. I can't have her knowing I was following her. That would ruin everything. I wrap my arms around my self to brace against the brisk wind blowing my hair out of my face.
I take a deep breath, not knowing why the hell I'm so nervous right now. It's not like I've never met a girl at their house before. I don't give a damn that it's Beth's or what her opinion of her niece is. She can go to hell if she tries to stop me from getting to her.
It's also not like I haven't fucked girls and tossed them away like they were nothing. Because I'm all honesty, they were nothing. Nothing in comparison to Josie. I'd spent years wishing I was allowed to touch her the way I wanted. Wanting to be deep inside her warmth as I fucked her hard... I wanted to prove that she would be addicted to me as much as I was addicted to her. I wanted to make her miss me.
After I left for Arizona, I stopped sleeping around. Dad noticed once and asked about it. I'm not sure I've ever had such and awkward conversation with my Dad in my life. There was no way in hell I stopped because I was depressed and I missed a honey haired ballerina.
"I see you've stopped bringing girls around lately. You bored of sex already?" He joked. "Or are you just into other things... Like men?" He suggested.