Chapter 27 Comparison
Today has been nothing short of confusing. I had hoped it would be just a normal day... But instead, my head is a mess of chaos and distress. Nothing seems to have made a damn lick of sense since I woke up this morning.
I managed to escape Aunt Beth's rage and even put on cover-up. It didn't fool Hailey, of course, but she did say I was looking better. I felt better too. Now if I could only heal completely, that would be fantastic.
I did manage to get some rest yesterday, but I felt bad for ditching my sisters. Mostly Charlie. She's been seeming quieter lately. I wish she would tell me what's going on, but she just gives me a brave smile and says its nothing. I hate the idea that she is keeping something from me. I'm hoping she'll tell me the truth soon.
The morning had been going fast due to the wedding order we are still working on. I love working on flowers. Even just that little bit of happiness is enough to distract me from the darkness that seems to be creeping up on me lately. I wish my life was like a flower shop, full of blooms and happiness. Someday, that will be our life.
Only to get interrupted by Rick... which didn't turn out to be a bad thing... well mostly.
I smile. He finally told me his name, but I still have no clue who the hell he is and why he knows me. I'll get it out of him, I'm sure! I swear I know him, and he knows it too. He calls me little dancer. He told me he knows a lot about me. He even knows my sisters names! But there was one thing he didn't know... Or at least he claimed not to know.
Then he told me about my parents... It shouldn't matter any more. It happened 5 years ago, and yet it still affected me. To know they had been intentionally murdered is different than a car accident. That is some life changing news, even after all this time. Now I'm wondering what happened for them to die like that? Why would someone want them dead? It didn't make sense to me because my parents were wonderful! Why would someone kill them? All their life was dedicated to their family and dance!
I still have no clue how he found this out, or even why he was looking into it. It seemed like he knew a lot about the subject, and I wasn't able to get any of my questions answered because of the scene with James. He didn't say anything about it after the interaction with James.
After James left in a sulk all we did was finish our cake and fill out Rick's form for his order. He must really love his mother because he placed a really expensive order for her. It won't be done until next week! Yet, Rick didn't seem to mind.
Speaking on James, Rick has treated me so different than him. He was respectful and even stood up for me when James was being an ass. I wish I knew exactly what it was James wanted from me. It has to be more than sex. He wouldn't be begging me to forgive him if it was. He could get sex anywhere... So what the hell is his deal?
I don't know why Rick was so sweet to me. He even gave me a birthday cake... sort of. I didn't even get one from Beth.
James, on the other hand, took me to his favorite restaurant for my birthday, and has been sneaking around behind my back. That bastard has been sleeping with someone while he was still dating me! I wonder if he even told her about me? Out of the two, Rick is much better.
I don't even know why I'm bothering to compare the two men. Rick was just being a nice guy and James is now my ex. I have no connection to either of them, so I just push the thoughts away. None of it even matters now.