Chapter 233 Sweet Dreams
I'm not sure who was texting Trent, but he sure looked pissed about it. He kissed me and told me not to leave the bed, that he'd be right back.
I'm not really sure how I feel about him leaving me right now. I still feel so vulnerable and exposed. At the same time, I really have to admit, I've never been happier in my entire life. He was so gentle with me... well, until he wasn't. And even then, he didn't hurt me like Uncle Jay did.
I'm pretty sure he isn't leaving because we had sex. He looked pretty pleased with himself, actually. And he had every reason to be. I don't think anyone else in the world would've let me take control like he did. He was showing me how much he loved me. He said he wanted me to feel how much he loved me. And I did!
I don't know if I would've given it to anybody but him. The fact that he let me take charge was so... I don't know how to describe it. It made me feel powerful in a way that sex never has.
He promised me he wasn't going to do anything I didn't want. In fact, he was going to hold still until I said so. I could see how much it was costing him not to move. I know he wanted to touch me. I could see it in his eyes. But he held absolutely still for me while I learned his body... Until I needed him to touch me as much as he needed to touch me.
Trent is right. It's always been used as a punishment before, but what he did to me... It was far from painful. It was... enjoyable. And in a strange way, it was completely freeing. It's not this heavy burden on my chest anymore. It means someday I will be able to have my own kids if I wanted!
Speaking of, I can still feel his seed spilling out of me. I blush. I probably should've thought of it earlier, but right now I'm so happy, I'm not even nervous. I feel completely safe with Trent. And somehow, I know that he will be with me through everything.
The way he let me explore him and trusted me to use his body... Heat floods my system. He really did make me feel good. Not just the sex, but he made me feel loved. The way he touched me, it was like he was starting his own religion.
A shiver of longing rushes through me. I want to explore him, and I want him to explore me too. I was too scared earlier. I've only known my uncle's harsh hands. But Trent... I want to know every part of him. Inside and out.
He told me he loves me. I was scared to say it back. Wouldn't it be too soon? It doesn't matter that I've probably been in love with him forever.
The thing is, I think I really do love him, and I want to tell him that. I know Josie almost didn't get the chance with Rick. James had been trying to take her for himself. I don't even know if she told him before he put the ring on her finger.
I don't want to end up like my big sister did. I don't want to have regrets. She doesn't remember a lot of things after the engagement, but I know she wishes she would've told Rick yes sooner.
I remember meeting his mother. Trent called me his girlfriend. Later he told me he was going to marry me at some point. I don't know if he was joking or not, but right now I believe him.
I snuggle back into the blankets with a happy smile on my face. My body is sore in places I hadn't expected, and yet it isn't a bad feeling. It feels... like I've been stretched out in a good way.
Dreams flood my mind, ones I've never had before. Trent touching me, making me feel good. Making love to me. "I love you, Charlie," he whispers into my ear.