Chapter 124 Earning Your Trust
I didn't want to see the blood dripping from her body, or the hollowness in her eyes. But at least I see recognition in those beautiful hazel eyes. Her only movements are from shivering she can't control.
“Josie, I’m so sorry,” I whisper into her ear. “I’m so sorry,” I repeat like a fucking broken record. I don't even know what else I can say to her right now, because my whole soul is mourning. “I love you so much! Don’t ever leave me again!”
My body is racked with sobs as I rock her back and forth in my arms. I don't deserve to hold her like this, but that's not fucking stopping me. She's mine, and I want her to know that.
I have no idea how long it will take to earn her trust again, but I'll do it. I'm going to show her how much I love her. I'm going to go at her speed, and when she's finally ready, I'm going to marry her. I had been hoping for a quick marriage, but my father sabotaged me! It's going to take time to gain back her trust. But I swear on my life, I will do anything for her! (Other than leave her.)
She still hasn't really responded to me, other than to seek out my warmth. I'll take that as a win. She still needs me! And I will give her anything she wants right now.
When I finally pull away, I realize she can't just sit her in the fucking cold! I need to warm her up... Then she needs to see a doctor. I wonder if I could ask her if she wants a trauma councilor?
Maybe I could go with her, and we can fix things? I swear this was not how I wanted to this to turn out. We were going to get married and start a family and be happy!
But my fucking Dad did this to us. And he is going to pay. I have no idea where he is right now, but he better run and hide because the second I find him, he'll be in worse shape than James.
“Sweetheart, I’m taking you to the doctor. The cops should be here any second. They will take care of James,” I rush out. “I have so many things to tell you, Josie,” I mumble, placing soft kisses along her freezing skin, hoping to transfer some warmth into her face. “Baby, you are so cold."
I stand with her in my arms just as the cops show up. I don't really care, they can make their own assumptions. I need to get Josie out of here now.
"How is she?" One asks, looking at my girl in my arms.
“She hasn’t said a word since I found her. The bastard is on the floor. If you want to charge me with assault, go ahead. Just know, I’d do it over again. I’m taking her to the hospital to get checked out,” I state, making my way out to my car.
We reach my car, and I pull out my clothes I've had in my car for a week. I grab the warmest sweater and find a pair of jeans. I don't have any panties for her; she'll just have to wait until we get home.
I am finally satisfied when I pull out a throw, I'd stuffed in the back seat and buckle her into the front beside me.
She still hasn't said a damn word, and I'm starting to panic.
I turn on the car and crank up the heat, and immediately she starts shivering 10 times more. Shit! Is this normal?
"Little dancer, I know you hate me right now. That's fine. Just know I love you. When you are better, no matter how long it takes, we are going to sit down and I'm going to tell you what actually happened. All you have to know right now is I was set up, and I would never do this to you!" I ramble, pointing my car toward the nearest hospital.
I reach over and take one of her frozen hands in mine. "Baby, I understand if you never want to be with me. But I love you. And I will always love you. I'm going to make sure you heal, not just your body, but your mind and soul. I'm going to fix you!" I promise.
This is something I will do or die trying.