Chapter 114 Crazy with Guilt
Richard's POV
I'm so fucking sick right now! I don't know when I've wanted the ground to swallow up and eat me more than I do right now. How the hell am I supposed to fix this? My anxiety has hit an all-time high because I know she left me. She was fucking pissed, and I swear I understand where she is coming from!
But now she was stolen away from me, and I don't know how she is doing. I'm so fucking worried about her, even though she hates my guts right now. All I can think is she might be hurt!
Some freak, walked out from the dark, and fucking drugged her and stuffed her into the back of his car and took off with my fiancé! And I fucking couldn't save her! I feel so damn sick right now!
In fact, I'm going crazy with guilt! I never wanted my little dancer to find me with another woman. I swore I never would! She saw Gina riding my cock and then she yelled at her like she was worthless piece of trash!
“You can’t satisfy a man like Richard Kingston. Get lost bitch!” she snarled, like she fucking owned me. Which she doesn't. And I'm going to make sure the bitch pays for what she did to my little dancer.
I didn't even want another woman! I only wanted Josie! I don't understand how the hell I didn't figure it out. I know there had been warnings, telling me to be careful... Not just careful. They were full on flares telling me something was wrong! But I didn't listen... I couldn't listen!
I FUCKING SHOULD'VE LISTENED! Now I'm paying for it... Or Josie is paying for my stupidity. I have no idea what the damn kidnapper is doing to her right now. What do they even want with her in the first place?
Come to think of it, how the hell did the kidnapper know she was going to be coming out of my home right then? Were they just going to kidnap anyone who stepped out? Could it have been Braxton? Was he waiting around for Liv, but got confused and went after Josie?
That makes no sense to me right now. I think my mind is just trying to come up with excuses to fill in the pain in my heart. I don't know if I will ever forgive myself for this. This is all my fucking fault!
And somehow the bitch drugged me, with hell knows what, making me think I was with my Josie. I didn't even know there was something that could do that! One minute she was Gina making sure I fucking took the drink, and the next it was my sweet Josie... Only it wasn't. She acted nothing like my little dancer.
But the second the real Josie showed up, the spell was broken. Why the hell didn't I see it sooner? Why did I let the bitch pour the drink down my throat? Everything would've been fine if I didn't give in to that damn drink!
I would've kicked the bitch out on her naked ass, and I could've had a nice evening holding Josie in my arms. I would've loved her body slowly until neither of us could hold it in anymore and I would've pounded into her tight little pussy, filling her up, telling how fucking much I love her.
And now she's fucking gone!
She didn't just leave me on her own. That I could handle, and I'd just go after her and explain every damn thing to her. I'd grovel on my hands and knees and make her see that what she thought she saw really wasn't what she saw...
Well... It was and it wasn't. I don't fucking know anymore! All I know is I've never wanted anyone like I want Josie and I didn't mean to be with Gina! That has to count for something, right?
I love her and I miss her so damn much! And I'm freaking out because she left me!
No. She was fucking kidnapped!
Charlie is freaking out right now and there is no way I can calm her down when I'm a fucking mess myself! Olivia, amazingly, put herself aside for the night and is holding her sister.
"I'm sorry, I didn't know," Liv had whispered when I came in and fucking yelled at her for letting her leave the damn house on her own. "She was just being... stupid! She shouldn't have run! She should've fucking stood up to the bitch, slapped you in the face for being an idiot and got over it!"