Chapter 102 Should've Known Better
I should've known this was too good to be true! I try to blink the tears away, but I'm sure one escapes anyway. My chin trembles as I try to keep my lips pressed tightly together. I don't know what I was thinking to trust a man who grew up telling me I was worthless.
Every single damn time I think I've finally found something solid it just slips away. Mom and Dad were taken from me. James practically threw me away. But Rick...
I look down at my ring. I should throw it in his face! But I can't bring myself to remove it. It held so much promise. He made it for me! I thought... just maybe... I might have found something worth holding on to.
Was he planning this? Was this all some sort of joke to him? I look up at the man who stole my heart. Now there is a hole in my chest that I don't think will ever be filled.
I think back to when my new trouble had started.
Stephanie and Anna had come to the shop just to fucking harass me the other day. Were they actually right?
“He’s just using you. I don’t know what he’s playing at, but we know him better than you!” Anna taunted me. "He’s going to use you and kick you out just like every other girl in his life! Has he told you about Julia? They’ve been together for years, and he just ditched her like trash. What makes you better than her?”
No, he hadn't said a damn thing about a woman named Julia. I had to ask him about her, but he told me the truth about her. He convinced me she was just someone to see when he got lonely. I believed him.
Today there was a nonstop of women coming into the shop just to badger me and make me feel stupid for trusting Rick. I thought having his ring would mean I have a shield of some sort. After all none of those women have his ring... But it didn't seem to help at all. In fact it made me feel nervous they were right.
I was tired and just wanted a nap before I had to deal with seeing my sisters. I wanted to confront Olivia about Braxton, but noise from Rick's room had my stomach sinks. I know those sounds... And I know what it means.
However I'm not a coward and I had to see for myself. If he was in fact cheating on me, I wanted to see it for myself. I wanted him to face me with his lies.
And what I saw disgusted me so much I dropped my purse. I didn't know it would affect me this damn much. I think I'm going to be sick. I want the whole damn world to open up and swallow me because really? There is nothing left. Nothing good in this world! It's all a fucking lie, and I can't deal with it any more.
My so called 'fiance' was balls deep inside some fucking slut. He blinked at me. I swear he was confused for a moment. I can't imagine why... Did he not expect to see me getting off work right now? Did he not think that leaving his fucking door open while he was fucking some slut so I could see him was a good idea?
I saw the moment Rick finally registered it was me and his whole face went pale. Actually, he looked sick as hell. Was he feeling guilty for sleeping with her after he finally had me? He fucking should!
What hurt the most was how he made me feel so fucking safe and loved in his arms! And the moment he put a ring on my finger he goes and does something like this! This is literally the story of my life. I'm so damn tired of having my life play on repeat! I just want the fucking off switch!
Maybe it's better to just end it all... Not yet. I can't. I still need to take care of my sisters. I'll have to live for them. At least for a little bit longer...
“Josie?” He blinked like he couldn't believe he was caught. I watch as he struggles to get up, but he can't focus.