Sakshi PoV:
I woke up late in the morning. I found myself on the bed. I slept on the floor last night. Is it my Randhir who put me on the bed? I looked around but didn't find him.
I got ready and found a chit pasted to the mirror. By handwriting, I can say it's written by him.
"Good morning, Mrs. Randhir,
Breakfast is ready. Have it. Don't go alone to the office. Security will accompany you. If you go alone, no need to return to me again. I have important meeting in the morning. So I am leaving early.
Your's Randhir."
I smiled. I know he hates me. But still whenever he shows a bit of love, I will be overwhelmed with happiness. I had food prepared by him. It's really so tasty. I went to the office.
I am in a meeting at the afternoon. Suddenly I got a call from Randhir. I know I shouldn't interrupt the meeting. But if I cut his call, he will kill me. I received his call apologising those delegates.
"Randhir."
"Come home. Just within ten minutes," he said.
"But I am in a meeting."
"Don't make me angry, Mrs. Randhir. Just remember you are my wife. Don't try to behave as Sakshi. You know well I won't spare you."
His voice is so harsh and words too. I know I am his wife. But it doesn't mean he can hurt me everytime. Whatever I need to go. I asked my PA to continue the meeting. I went to home. Randhir looked at me.
"Come in, Mrs. Randhir. I know you didn't deserve to be a wife and can never be a good wife. But today I understood you are not even a good mother. It's my biggest mistake to marry you."
I couldn't speak a word after hearing his words. I tried to speak clearing my throat filled with sorrow.
"Randhir, What happened to you?"
"Baby got fever and you are busy with your meeting. You never change. You are always behind money and profits. For you meeting is more important than baby."
I looked at the cradle and took baby into hands. Her body is burning with temperature. I took my mobile to call the doctor.
"What are you doing now? I already took her to the doctor. Medicine was given. Doctor said she needs mother. So I called you."
"I am sorry. Really sorry. I am upset yesterday. So......"
"Shut up. I am not interested to know reasons or your problems. But take care of my baby. Atleast be with her when she needs you."
"I always take care of her. But sometimes it may happen."
"I know it's your habit. You always leave the one who loves you, when they are in need of you. I understood you and now living, without getting emotionally attached to you. But baby doesn't have that maturity. She is too young to understand your true nature. She wants her mom and thinks her mom loves her. So don't break her so early. However, when she grows up, she breaks down surely knowing about her mom."
"Just today I didn't check on her. How can you say that I don't love her? I love my baby."
"If you love our baby then you should take her responsibility. But you didn't and proved that you are not a good mother "
"I am really sorry. I accept my mistake. But please don't say that I am not a good mother, please."
"Then prove yourself as a good mother by not repeating this. Take care of baby now and stop arguing with me."
I stopped speaking further. I hugged my baby to my heart caressing her. It's true that he always misunderstands me. But this time I too felt bad. I should have checked on her before leaving to the office. How can I be so careless? It's my fault.
"No it's not your fault."
Randhir said standing beside me. He sat on the bed along with me.
"Actually I didn't mean to say that you are not a good mom. Sneha called me and I returned to home. Baby's body is burning with temperature. She is crying continuously. Seeing her in that condition provoked me. It's not your fault. It's our fault. We should be careful about baby from now inspite of our fights and conflicts," Randhir said and looked at me.
"Ok. I will take care of baby. I am just tired of everything going on in my life. So....."
"Don't make me repeat my words. I have no concern about you or your problems. I am just worried about my daughter. Our relationship is confined only to our baby. That's it."
" Randhir, I am your wife. Doesn't I have the right to share my concerns with you?"
"Wife? Till yesterday I thought whatever you do I must care for you. Just remember your yesterday's behaviour. It proved clearly that you have no respect for me. You are not thinking that I am your husband."
"Randhir......"
"Let me complete."
I became silent sensing his anger.
"Yesterday you challenged me. Without my permission you went out. You warned me saying you will file case against me. Obviously you have to face for it "
I left without answering him onto balcony keeping baby in the cradle. He came to me. He pulled my hair tightly.
"Randhir, leave me."
"How dare you to come like that while I am talking to you?"
He pulled my hair hard making me to shout in pain.
"I am habituated to your words. Saving my parents is not wrong. Saving myself from your torture is also not wrong. So I don't regret." I said with same seriousness which he has in his face.
He tried to slap me.
"Don't raise your hand at me. Because if I do the same, just think what happens to your respect."
He looked at me shockingly. I am sorry, Randhir. I didn't mean it. But you need to understand. I tried to change you by accepting your torture. I even became a maid in your house just to get your love. But you didn't change. So now I chose to be strong.
He dropped his hand.
"I think now you became so courageous. Let me guess the reason."
I saw him with confusion.
"Maybe because your ex husband came into your life again. If I leave you, you can go to him. Wow, you are very special. You have choice in choosing husbands. You are such a shameless woman "
His words pierced my heart. I sat on the floor of balcony bursting into tears. His words are enough to kill me.
When will he understand me? I love him. Only him. If I want to leave him, I can do that long back. I am bearing his words and torture with a hope. Hope that one day he will understand me and my love. But before that I may die with his words. He went off leaving me there closing the door.
I didn't know how much time I cried. It started raining. He didn't open the door. I knocked on it. He opened the door and grabbed my wrist. He took me outside and left me there. It's raining heavily.
"Stand here till the rain stops or I ask you to come in."