Shay's Point of View
After dinner I run Zayde over to Amy's again.
She smiles at me as she opens the door and I smile back at her.
"Hey guys. Come in. Zayde you can head to Jason's room, he's already getting ready for a bath. You can go join him. I'll be there in a minute."
Zayde nods and waves at me.
"Bye mommy!"
"Bye. I'll see you in a little bit."
Zayde nods at me before he disappears down the hall.
I look at Amy.
"Thank you for watching him. Again. I'm sorry I keep leaving him with you."
She shakes her head.
"Anytime Shay. Don't worry about it. We love having him over. And Jason enjoys the company."
"Well thank you anyway. I'll see you as soon as I'm done talking to Zane."
"Take your time. I'll see you later."
I nod and give her a little wave before she closes the door and I head to the kitchen quickly.
As soon as I enter, Claire, the elder cook smile at me and brings over a covered plate.
"Hi Luna. The Alpha's food as you requested."
I smile back at her.
"Thank you very much for this. I owe you one."
She shakes her head and shoos me away.
"Nonsense. Now take our Alpha his food."
"Yes, mam. Good night mam."
I grin at her and she smiles at me again.
"You silly girl. Goodnight."
I blow her a little kiss and make my way over to Zane's office.
Just as I lift my hand to knock the door opens and Jake comes out.
"Oh, hi Shay. Sorry. You here to see Zane?"
I nod and he looks at the plate in my hand. He arches a brow questioningly and I blush a little causing him to smirk.
"He's in there. Go ahead. Goodnight Shay."
I give him a small smile.
"Goodnight Jake."
Zane looks up as I enter the office and gives me a smile.
"Shay, come in. Please close the door."
He says before he bends his head back down and continues to work on something infront of him.
I close the door behind me before making my over to his desk.
I tug a piece of hair behind my ear and clear my throat, causing him to look at me again.
I give him a nervous smile and hold the plate out to him.
"I wasn't sure if you've eaten anything today. And you weren't at dinner so I asked Claire to make you a plate."
He looks at me dumbfounded and I blush.
"You don't have to eat it if you don't want to."
I day and I start to lower the plate but he takes it from me.
"No, it's just.. Nevermind, thank you, very much. I'm actually really hungry. I just didn't expect you to bring me food."
I nod and take a seat on the other side of the desk.
Zane takes a few bites of the food and I just watch him.. The silence between us almost peaceful.
Suddenly Zane looks up and cathes me looking at him.
He gives me a small smirk, putting down his knive and fork and crossing his arms over his chest.
"Were is Zayde?"
"At Amy and Ryan's. She's going to get him bathed and dressed for me."
He nods.
"So what can I help you with Shay?"
"You should finish your food first. It's going to get cold. I'll wait."
I say nodding my head at his plate and Zane nods at me.
"Okay, thank you."
Zane returns his attention to his plate and we sit in silence as he finishes his dinner.
He sets down his knife and fork and smiles at me again.
"Thank you again for this. So, what did you want to talk about?"
I smile back at him.
"It's my pleasure. It's about me leaving. As you know, I'm leaving tomorrow. "
The smile on his face dissappears and a frown replaces it. He nods at me.
"Yeah I'm aware of that."
I clear my throat again, nervously.
"Well.. I spoke to Zayde. He wants to go with me."
Zane sighs and nods his head.
"Yeah I know. It's fine."
I frown.
"That's it?"
Zane frowns at me.
"What do you mean?"
"Is that seriously all you are going to say?"
Zane sighs.
"What do you want me to say Shay?"
I shrug.
"I don't know.. Maybe I atleast thought you'd try to get us to stay. Or atleast try to convince me to let Zayd stay with you."
"You're his mother Shay. Of course he'd rather be with you. I understand that.. And about you.. Well would it help if I tried to make you stay?"
I stare at hom and sigh as well.
"I don't know. One part of me says to get the hell out.. But the other part is begging me to ask you to beg me to stay."
"Do you want to stay?"
I stare at him for a while.
"I don't know. I don't know what I want to do.. Or what I want.. I met a guy today... He asked me out.."
I see Zane's jaw clench but he nods at me.
"I see. That was fast."
"I gave him my number. And asked him to phone me."
"Why are you telling me this? Do you want a rejection so you can go out with this guy guilt free?"
I sigh.
"I don't know.. For a second today I thought about maybe moving on with someone else. I thought with everything between us it would be better to.just part ways.. But then when I came back.. And you stood by me with the Lisa thing I thought maybe there is a change for us.. A real chance if we are honest with each other, if we support each other.. I've been thinking about this the whole afternoon. And if I'm being completely honest, when I really think about doing that, moving on, giving up on us for good.. My heart clenches because that's not what I want."
"Then what do you want Shay?"
I stand up and make my way around his desk. Zane pushes he chair away from the desk and I straddle his lap
I put my hands on his cheeks and I lower my face until our lips are just inches from each other.
"You. I want you Zane. Even with everything going on, everything that happened.. I still want you."
I look into his eyes and bite my lip nervously, waiting for him to say something.
Zane's hand tangles into my hair and he pulls my head back before his lips smashes into mine and he kisses me fiercely.