161. A Life Without You
Benji
Clank, clunk.
Shiiink.
My brain was pounding in my skull as I was starting to wake up. The sounds was making it worse as it grind against my ears. I could hear low voices but didn’t recognize them at all. Where as I? What had I been doing before? I couldn’t even remember the last thing I even did.
What is that awful noise?
“Let’s get ready.”
Who the hell was that? Opening my eyes, a sharp pain hits my temple followed by throbbing. I go to rub my sore head when something weighs down on y wrist. Something was preventing me from moving.
Fear strikes through me.
I try to move, but my wrists, ankles, waist, and forehead were strapped down. I was really beginning to freak out now. Where the hell was I?! I stare up at the ceiling to see nothing but cobblestones and spiderwebs everywhere.
I try to rack my brain on the last thing I could remember. I remember being in the field with all the others, and I remember that we were able to bring the real Safina out. We had been walking back to the mountain. Then, there was a loud sound and smoke everywhere. Then I remember being ripped from Derek’s arms.
Derek!
I try to free myself even more. What the hell happened to Derek?! Is he okay? Did they hurt him?! I was working myself into a nice panic as I start to really thrash about.
You need to calm down.
How could I possibly calm down right now! I growl in frustration.
Making yourself hyperventilate and cause panic within us is not going to help us figure a way out of here and find our mate. Radolf grouches back.
I try to calm my racing heart and my strong drive to free myself to get to Derek. I stop when I hear chanting nearby. I frown at the sounds of voices being heard. I try to look downward but the way I was positioned made it hard to look forward. All I was able to see was the ceiling above me.
Radolf, do you know where we are? What’s going on?
I know as much as you do. I hate to say this but…I don’t think we’re safe.
What gave that away? I snap sarcastically as I once again try to move my wrists.
I jump when the first scream came. “ARGGHH!
My heart starts to slam hard against my chest as I recognized the voice that was making that horrible sound. Another scream cries out as sobs follow.
“What are you doing to him?! Fucking stop! Leave him alone!” I couldn’t help but scream out in anger as the kid’s sobs were more than I could bare.
They completely ignore me as I start anew of trying to get out of the binding straps that was holding me down to a table. Radolf sinks back further into my mind as I sense him trying to mind link Prince Zidane’s wolf, but something was wrong.
What is it? What are they doing to him?! I panic as I feel his fear within me.
Benjamin…I-I don’t know what to do. I can’t reach him they’re…
They’re what? What is it?! I scream at him as I still continue to try and break free, rubbing my skin raw on the thick leather straps.
When he doesn’t answer me, my mind fills with the worse possible outcome and I was afraid they were who I think they were. Of course, they were. If they have prince Zidane and me, then….
Sobs finally break out of me. R-Radolf, please…I can’t lose you!
I-I don’t think we can get out of this one. His voice cracks and wavers as I feel him sinking even more.
Damn it Radolf! We have to try and shift, we need to at least do something! I yell in anguish and fear.
Prince’s Zidane’s cries continue as the chanting intensifies. My body was beginning to hyperventilate as I knew it was only a matter of time before they came for me and Radolf.
I’ve already tried. They did something. I can’t take over. He whimpers inside my head.
Ever since I obtained Radolf when I turned eighteen, he always seemed so much older than me, so mature and sure of himself. But now, now he was acting just as his age portrays him and I hated it. I didn’t like seeing or hearing him like this because it was scaring me. Scaring me to the point that I believed we were doomed no matter what we tried to do.
Another sob breaks out. I can’t do this without you. I can’t make it on my own if you’re not with m-me…
He doesn’t say anything as he curls within the corner of my mind as if that alone could protect him from what was about to happen to us.
“Alright, onto the next one.” A deep voice says next to me.
The panic overcomes me tenfold and I couldn’t help but start thrashing about while sobbing.
Benjamin…I’m scared.
I watch as a man stands over me, staring at me as the chanting starts again.
Raldof! I start to royally freak out.
Something hits in the deep pit of my stomach, as if someone had reached in and starts pulling on my insides causing a massive scream to rip out of me, the pain too much to bear.
“ARGGHHH!”
I start to feel him being torn from my inner being and I start to grasp on to all my strength to keep holding onto him as long as I can. But the pull becomes more intense, the chant getting louder, more indistinct, making me weaker.
No! NO! RADOLF!
I can feel him fighting to stay with me, whimpering from the horror of our soul being torn apart from one another. It was so painful, and I felt my entire world slipping as he is forcibly being taken from me.
I was disgusted with myself that I couldn’t stop it. Couldn’t do a damn thing as his red and orange essence flows out of me, hovering above me in the bright colors of his fur. I was breaking inside, tormented that I had lost him and didn’t lift a finger to help him stay with me.
Seeing him there, apart from me, being put in a fucking jar of all things as they continue that damning chant that took him from me…I felt lost, abandoned…
I felt completely dead inside.