Silvy
After Viper announced us as a family it was time to party and have a good time. But not for me just yet. The first thing I need to do is use the bathroom. Again. The baby has been using my bladder as a trampoline for the last ten minutes. As much as I was enjoying the vows and what Viper did for Xavier I wanted him to hurry up so I didn’t pee myself. As Gena, Dad, and Xavier greeted guests I ran as fast as I could to the bathroom. Okay, I lied. I didn’t run. I waddled as fast as I could. I waddle now. Goof thinks it is cute. I find it frustrating. But I know in the end it will be worth it. Every backache, swollen foot craving, and nausea will be worth it when I’m holding our baby in my arms. Yes, the baby is ours. I told Goof I’m not going to fight it and I meant it. Speaking of Goof he was waiting for me when I came out of the bathroom to make sure I got to the party alright. Always taking care of me that man.
I don’t think there isn’t anything he wouldn’t do for me. I won’t ask but I’m pretty sure. I know that the talk I need to have with him is coming soon. Defiantly before the baby comes. I have gotten most of my feelings sorted. I am pretty sure I want to try to see if we can make a relationship work between us. That scares me a little. I had given up on having a relationship. I just didn’t want the heartache. It was just going to be me and the baby. That was all I was going to need. For Goof. No, for Micheal I am willing to take a chance. Only for him. I wouldn’t be risking everything for anyone but him. What am I risking? Or will be risking when I talk to him? If Goof doesn’t return my feelings I could lose a potential solid relationship. I could lose his friendship. And that will crush me. I don’t want to lose Goof in any way, shape or form.
I look over at the dance floor and see him dancing with Erin on his feet. Erin was smiling and giggling. Who wouldn’t fall in love with a guy like that? I feel a tap on my shoulder and look up to see Ratchet standing next to me. He knows I don’t sign well so he has his phone out asking if he can sit beside me. Of course, he can. He points to Dad and Gena dancing and holds out his phone “ They look good together. And happy.” I looked at him so he could read my lips “ That they do. And I am happy for them. They both deserve it.” He point to Goof spinning Erin around and took a couple of pictures like the proud papa he is. Ratchet may be a Renegade, a badass biker, but when it comes to that little girl. He is a picture-taking teddy bear. Ratchet showed them to me. It was so adorable I wanted a copy and he sent one to me.
Ratchet places his phone on my lap. I read “ He is a good man.” I turn to Ratchet and mouth “ How much do you know?” Ratchet grabs his phone and types quickly. He turns the phone to me so I’m the only one who can see it. “ I know everything. Before everyone did.” he typed. That has me confused because we have been careful to keep everything quiet until recently. Ratchet turns his phone to me again. “ People tend to talk freely when I’m around. And I have eyes. I have seen the two of you together for some time now.” he typed.
Before I could answer he typed again “ You know he hasn’t been with a skank in over two years. Won’t even look at them.” I know my jaw has dropped. I shake my head. That isn’t possible. That would mean he stopped fucking around before I came to him with my idea. “ It is the truth. And I know you are in love with him.” Ratchet said. I want to deny it. I am not ready to share that yet. I turn my head so he can’t see me tear up. I felt a comforting hand on my shoulder and turned to Ratchet. He smiles and hands me his phone again. On it is a longer message. Either he is a fast typer or I zoned out for a few minutes. Ratchet wiped a tear from my eye, smiled and pointed to his phone. I looked down and read “ I won’t say anything. I want you both to be happy. You two make each other happy. I can tell you are scared. I get it. But if you love him like I think you do give him a chance. I think you might be surprised at the outcome. You have my word on my kutte Goof would go to the ends of the earth for you. Let him prove it.” I turn and mouth “ You think so?” Ratchet nods. He snatches his phone and quickly types “ And if he hurts you Tank and I will kick his ass.”
I have to laugh at that. “ Thank you, Ratchet. I’m scared but I will try. I need to talk to him.” I said. He types “ I got you, girl.” Ratchet holds his arms out to me. I have no problem going in them. Like Merigold and Speed, Ratchet is a hugger. I pull back to see Goof standing there. He smiles at me and signs to Ratchet. “ You trying to steal my girl, brother?” Goof asks. We all laugh because we know that is the farthest thing possible. Ratchet is a great married guy to a man. I am not even in his orbit. Ratchet signs and Goof translate for me “ No, brother, just watching out for my sister.” “ Good man,” Goof said. My heart rate picks up a little when he calls me his girl. It gives me a little bit of hope that this might actually work.
Goof holds his hand out to me “ How about giving me the honor of a dancing babe?” I place my hand in his and as he pulls me up I say “ I would love to.” Goof takes me to the dance floor and wraps his arms around my waist to my back. I wrap arms around his neck and let him pull our bodies as close together as my stomach will allow. I look up at him as we just sway to the music. Neither us of us talk. We don't always need to. But now I do. " Michael, after this weekend. I would like us to have dinner together. Alone." I said. I say after this weekend because we are watching Xavier so Gena and Dad can have a small honeymoon. I shake my head when I realize how stupid what I just said was. We always have dinner together. Most of the time alone. " Let me start again. You always told me when I was ready to talk all I had to do was tell you and you would be ready to listen. This is me telling you I'm ready." I said. Goof places his thumb under my chin making sure I am looking into his eyes. " You tell me where and when. I will be there. And when you do you have my word I will listen to anything you have to tell me. I am always going to be there for you, Silvy." he said. Goof let me chin go and kissed my forehead before he lays his head on top of mine. I soak him up and drown in the smell of his cologne as we dance. I could have sworn he said " You are my babe. I will be here." But it was so low I could be mistaken.