Chapter 30

"I don't believe the witch's part in treating me so special. Because it's clear that every day she's always angry with me!"

"That's because you did something that was difficult to understand, Ella! Besides, why would you think of being a dancer who entertains noble men? You don't know how embarrassed father and mother were when they heard bad rumors about you! People said you were dating and staying at the mansion luxurious several noble men, one of whom was Mr. Henry Albergen."

"So, that man really knows me?"

"Of course! You're the one who made him so obsessed with you, Ella! Besides, you also seem to be in a relationship with Duke Aiden."

"He also?"

"You've received letters from him before, right? And you've also met him in the forest!"

"You're right, but-"

"At that time I heard you say that you really loved someone. I think the man you meant was Duke Aiden. The two of you often exchanged letters and it seemed like you were also thinking about marrying him-"

"Oh no no, Emily! I think you're wrong about the part that I'm thinking about marrying him! I can't possibly think about marrying a psychopath like him, that's impossible and besides how many times can I tell you that I'm not interested in men? So there's no way I can marry that bastard!"

"How would I know if you think that now? What is clear is that before you drowned in that lake, you and him loved each other. That's what I know!"

"Wait a minute, why do you know that much? Does everyone in this house know too?" I asked. I felt that Emily knew too much and it seemed strange.

She immediately fell silent and stopped talking, her expression looked strange as if she was hiding something.

"What's wrong? Why are you silent? Did I ask something wrong?"

"N-no, I-I just-"

"Just what?"

"I-I know because actually I've always wanted to be close to you. I'm two years older than you and I feel that we should be two close brothers. I always try to match you in everything. You like reading books, so do I read books, you study music, I do too, I follow everything you do just because I feel-"

"Feeling jealous of me?" I asked. I don't know why this question just came out of my mouth. 

Emily became silent again, it seemed like I cornered her too much with my question. I honestly didn't mean to, but considering how she knows everything about me to that extent makes me wonder a little, why does Emily know everything?

"I-I don't, I don't at all-"

"Okay, I understand, you don't need to explain it to me. Forget it! Just pretend I never asked you a stupid question like that, okay?" 

"Yes, I understand. Then, I'll go out first. See you later, Ella?" Sh said as she left.

I looked at Emily's back until her back was no longer visible. I feel guilty for her, I shouldn't have to ask if she's jealous or something? I'm so silly, even though so far she's always helped me. She was clearly a very good woman, exactly like my Mary Jane. 

I took a deep breath and exhaled slowly, I looked at the two letters in my hand. Somehow I'm not in a good mood to read a letter like this. But remembering the complicated relationship that this woman named Ella seemed to be experiencing with the two men, I couldn't help but get involved in it.

I opened the first letter that King Zavier wrote. My eyes widened because I clearly knew this handwriting very well. The neat handwriting, but a little difficult to read, is exactly the same as Xavier Stephenson's handwriting. 

"Tch, even the handwriting is the same? What is this?" I muttered.

I started reading it and it seemed a lot different from what I thought a few seconds ago when I opened the envelope.

Dear Ella

Ella, I'm sorry for my bad attitude and maybe making you feel uncomfortable. I wrote this letter right after I returned to my room. I think this letter will reach you tomorrow. 

Ella, I feel like you've changed a little, from the way you talk and the way you look at me. I feel like you don't look at me the same way anymore. Honestly, I really miss everything about you, I'm too naive, but can I miss you? It's okay if you don't feel the same way, but I hope you think a little about me once in a while. I hope it can repay my great longing for you. 

From your friend,

Zavier Alexander De Velgmegeur

Even though he has never had a girlfriend, Xavier is a very kind man and respects women. Even when he rejects declarations of love from girls who like him, he says it as best as possible without trying to hurt their feelings.

"Xavier? I feel like you're Xavier. You're really Xavier, there's no mistaking it."

After reading the beautiful letter from the king, now came the most decisive moment. I had to read a letter from Duke Aiden, the king's half-brother who was very aggressive and seemed sadistic because he was very similar to Keith, the head of the gang who used to bully me.

I took a deep breath, somehow it felt very heavy. I hate that person, you could say that even in my current life, I really don't want to have anything to do with him. But strangely, he and I are actually a couple who love each other according to Emily. 

I don't know if everything Emily said was true, if it was, I would be damned. Whether as a man or a woman, I was destined to be a womanizer.

I swallowed hard several times as I tried to open the envelope of the letter Duke Aiden wrote. This is different from King Zavier's letter which only smells like plain paper. Duke Aiden's letter smelled very fragrant. 

'Ella, my love

Will you lead me tonight? Because I'm sure you will come into my dreams like the previous nights. 

You disappointed me with your attitude, I don't know what your purpose was in doing that. But I really believe that I am the only man you love, who lives in every drop of blood in your body as you always told me.

I know it seems like my brother also sent a letter to you. He acts like he can have your heart and soul. Should I tell him that you are all mine?

I am waiting for a reply letter from you, I love you.

From your lover

ADV

I shudder, the writing in this letter seems to describe his aggressive and possessive personality. Oh my God, I don't know what this woman named Ella was thinking to be so crazy about this crazy man?

"It's ridiculous, oh my, my body is getting goosebumps. I can't believe I'm going to read a letter like this. Hey Ella, what were you really thinking when you chose a man like this bastard? Is it because he's so handsome that it makes your womb warm so you're easily captivated by him?" I shouted annoyed to myself. I can't believe that I'm trapped in a woman's body like this.

I lay back down after I felt a little dizzy. I think it's too late to go back to sleep. Strangely, today there were no screams from the witch trying to wake me up by force or the maids dragging me to the bathroom. Today feels very peaceful. 

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