Chapter 24—Sebastian

She was scared—it was clear to me now. Zoe had come over to get her brother’s ball. I suspected that either he had kicked it over or she had, just to get my attention. One hour later we were still in my garden later just trying to figure out which bush it was hiding in, and Emma showed up at the door.

She had fire in her eyes when she saw Zoe. I should have told her then that it wasn’t what it seemed, but some part of me thought that she deserved it. I had been calling her every day for over a week.

Not one phone call back.

The funny thing is that she actually thought that I was with Zoe. She didn’t have a clue what she did to me. I wanted Emma, no one else. I hadn’t wanted anyone else since I first saw her in the dorm. No other girl had made me want to commit. I didn’t sleep around, but as soon as I heard the words, “Are we dating?” that was when I dropped them like a ton of bricks.

But Emma was different.

I couldn’t get her out of my mind.

Her dad had already called to tell me that she wasn’t happy. That she went crazy on the phone when he told her about me paying off the loan. I expected her to come around yesterday. I fucking sat around and waited like a chump for her to turn up. I cooked dinner. Me, in the kitchen. I nearly burnt the house down. Then I ordered take-out. It was clear that she wasn’t coming, so I took it round to Sophia’s, hoping that she would show up. But she didn’t.

Now she was in my bed. Begging me to take her. I wanted to make her wait. Make her suffer like I had been suffering over the last few days. She needed to have a taste of her own medicine, but I couldn’t resist her. I was only fucking kidding myself, and as I stood at the edge of the bed stripping down slowly, even my cock was screaming to get inside her.

It had missed her so much, but not only her body, her fucking heart too. I wanted her to know that this was more to me then a one-night stand and my avoidance of the commitment thing would be a thing of the past. I wanted Emma. Not just for tonight, but all nights.

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“What are you waiting for?” she said impatiently as I stood above her. I could have just entered, gone inside her and then taken her over and over again. But I had a feeling that if I did that, then as soon as I woke up she would be gone.

I wasn’t playing any fucking game.

I did that on the field. Not here and certainly not with Emma.

“You better not be gone when I wake up!” I said as I slowly entered her. I did it so damn slow that she arched her back and as soon as I went deep inside her, she relaxed. Just a little bit.

She held on to my back and I caressed her face as I slid back and moved forward again.

“This isn’t just one night,” I added.

She shook her head and bit her lip. Shit, her lips were so full and sexy. Everything about her was so damn hot.

“I know.” Her voice trembled as I went deep inside of her once again. I was trying to control myself. Make my movements slow and deep. I wanted to make love to her. We had done that, in a sense, back in the hotel, but it had been more like fucking than making love.

“We can’t go on like this.” I didn’t want to play a game. Or even pretend that my feelings weren’t genuine; that would be a lie, and one that would benefit neither of us. I had been living under a dark shadow for so long and being with her had taken me out of it.

I needed her like a child needs her mother.

I wanted her, because I felt completely lost without her.

And she was mine. Whether she wanted to admit it or not. Her body and everything that she thought she had control of, was lost, because she wanted me just as much as I wanted her.

I slowly bit her lip as I stopped for a minute. Just watching her climax was the most beautiful thing that I had ever experienced. She would tense up at first, as if releasing herself was wrong. Then, as she reached the edge and couldn’t move anymore, she would smile.

Just the same way she had when she had graduated at the top of her class.

The same way she had when she first came to the house, her eyes lit up as if all her Christmases had come at once.

“Why did you stop?”

I shook my head as I silenced her with my kiss. I wanted to come inside her. I picked up my pace and her embrace felt stronger, as if she knew what I wanted and didn’t hold back in letting go.

“Arrh!” I growled as I rubbed against her nipples, sweat pouring off me because I had held my climax in for so long. I felt as if I was a volcano ready to erupt, as my tongue moved inside her mouth and we both kissed passionately, knowing what was going to happen next. And then tomorrow she would be gone.

I wanted her in my life.

No, I needed her, and as I couldn’t hold it in any longer and I ejaculated, like I’ve never done before.

The words escaped my mouth so naturally as I whispered, “I love you Emma.”

I was shocked when she admitted, “I love you, too.”