"I can't do this," I stopped abruptly. Despite living together for a long time and knowing each other completely, I felt ashamed to be naked in front of him. But Kayler ignored my words and continued kissing me. I couldn't resist, to tell the truth, I couldn't.
Kayler took me by the waist and pulled me close to him, he caressed my buttocks with one hand and held me by the neck with the other. I ran my fingers through his hair, his back, feeling him again made me feel alive. I didn't think of anyone else at that moment, I just enjoyed having him with me, even if it was just one more time.
"You'll be mine forever," he whispered, thrusting into me once again. Hearing his moans was like music to my ears. And I wasn't holding back either. I knew how exciting it was to be with Kayler Brown, I missed him too much, in five years I never had anything with anyone, my body, my soul, and my heart only wanted Kayler. I felt bad when I remembered that Kayler couldn't wait for me and got involved with the first person who crossed his path. "Don't think about anything, Carolina, I'm here with you and that's all that matters."
Kayler continued making love to me passionately until I had my orgasm and he had his, ending inside me. I was used to him doing that, it didn't bother me, quite the opposite, I liked it, it made it even more exciting.
Kayler rested his head on my chest. I ran my fingers through his hair, relaxing myself as well. I wished everything could be the same between us, everything. I wished it from the bottom of my heart at this moment.
I want to be with Kayler Brown forever, but for that, I have to learn to forgive.
"I love you," he lifted his face and looked at me, "Never forget that, my moon."
"Kayler..." I pulled away from him, "...Gadreel can come at any moment."
"So what? I don't like that idiot sleeping under the same roof as me, I refuse to accept it."
I frowned.
"You can't give me orders anymore, do you forget that?" I moved away from him and put on my bathrobe. I walked out of the room, and Kayler obviously followed me. His clothes were wet.
"These aren't orders. How would you feel if Piper slept at my house?"
I tensed up when he said that, obviously I wouldn't like it, it would make me angry and hurt, thinking the worst. I turned to him.
"I would feel very distrustful," I admitted, "But you know that I would never do anything with Gadreel, unlike you, who couldn't sleep thinking the worst. I have never given you any reasons for mistrust... despite what happened the other time," I said with a lump in my throat. I'm still trying to overcome that traumatic moment.
"I know that, because you only love me, but I don't like other men being close to you. I trust you, but not Gadreel."
"You should leave, please. What happened earlier was... a moment of weakness, it won't happen again."
Now he became serious.
"You're saying all these things because you're hurt, Carolina, but I will prove my innocence to you. Just remember that when the Gadreel situation happened, I didn't trust you and I left without waiting for explanations. You felt bad because I didn't believe you knowing you were innocent. Well, the same thing is happening to me now. I'm more and more sure that I had nothing to do with Piper and that Kylie is not my daughter. I love that girl, I care about her a lot. If it turns out she's not mine, believe me, I would still like to keep seeing her.
I swallowed hard.
"You better shut up," I snapped. Talking about this hurts. It hurts a lot. "And leave," I turned my back to him.
"You had to know, kitty," he approached and caressed my hand, "I won't give up on you. I'll be around," he said, leaving my room and finally leaving me alone. I felt an emptiness inside me when he left, but I have to get used to not having him with me.
I licked my lips, trying to salvage some taste from his... I don't want to keep thinking about this. I quickly put on my pajamas and got into bed. At least Anne will come tomorrow, and I won't be so alone.
•
The sound of a car arriving woke me up. It was eight in the morning, I'm still very sleepy and exhausted, I want to spend the whole day in bed and eat ice cream because I'm very sad.
"Carolina!" I heard Anne's voice. I opened my eyes abruptly because I forgot she was coming today. That's when sleep left me, I got up immediately and left my room. Anne was near the door with a suitcase in hand.
"Anne," I went downstairs and hugged her. "I missed you."
The truth is, Anne has become more than a friend to me. Like a sister.
"Me too, Carolina," we let go. "Thomas is outside talking to Gadreel. What has happened? Tell me."
"Everything. Kayler keeps insisting he had nothing to do with Piper."
"Well, if he says so, it must be true. I've known Kayler all my life, even though we didn't talk before, and he's not a womanizer like everyone thinks. I never knew him to have another girlfriend before Paige," she shrugged.
"I don't know. Have you talked to Kenzie?" I wanted to know, changing the subject because talking about the same thing makes me sad.
"No, but she must be having a great time with Connor. Those two are identical."
"Come on, let's go to the kitchen," I took her hand and led her with me. "Have you had breakfast?"
"To be honest, no..."
"Well, I'll make breakfast. All I have is eggs... toast... I'll make something quick."
"I'll help. Hey, is Gadreel staying here?"
"Yes, for the time being," I put a pan on and poured oil.
"What did Kayler say?"
"Obviously, he doesn't like it, but he's not in a position to give me orders."
"You should consider what he says, Carolina. It's not just about two mates separating, but you made a pact. He marked you a long time ago, and to be with someone else, you have to get rid of that mark."
I poured the eggs into the pan and scrambled them.
"That's what I'm working on."
"What are you talking about? So what Thomas told me is true... you're thinking of getting rid of your wolf."
I tensed.
"Anne, it's complicated."
"You can't do that, Carolina. If you do, we won't be friends anymore."
I looked at her.
"Why?"
"Because you'll forget everything that comes with the wolf, the forest, the full moon. All your friends: Kenzie, Connor, Thomas, me... even Mike, we are all part of that. If you decide to kill that, you won't be able to remember us. It will be as if you never came here."
"I didn't know that," I admitted.
"We need to find out about Piper first, and then we can think about that," Anne suggested.
I nodded.
"It smells delicious," Thomas and Gadreel entered through the door.
"Thomas," I went to greet him and gave him a warm hug. "How are you?"
"Very well, Carolina. And you?"
"Hanging in there," I smiled, turning off the stove.
"Is there breakfast for me too?" Gadreel asked, always shirtless, showing off his perfect abs.
"Of course," I replied.
Anne finished preparing the toast and coffee, so we served the guys and then sat down to eat ourselves. We only needed Kenzie, Connor, and Will to feel more like a family.